Zazen Is Good For Nothing - Just Sitting — Transcript

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1. 0:05what i
2. 0:06was taught by my teacher was
3. 0:10zazen
4. 0:11so-called them buddhism and that
5. 0:14tradition in japan started by
6. 0:17the master dogen or dogenzanji and we
7. 0:20call that tradition as
8. 0:23soto then
9. 0:24and the main point of dogen's teaching
10. 0:26was just sitting
11. 0:28we usually think
12. 0:30this
13. 0:31meditation practice is to
14. 0:33attain some kind of enlightenment or
15. 0:36awakening
16. 0:37but dogen said we should just sit
17. 0:40without any expectation
18. 0:42even enlightenment
19. 0:45because we practice
20. 0:47in order to get enlightenment then that
21. 0:49is desire
22. 0:50desire our egocentric desire is still
23. 0:54working there
24. 0:55in search of truth
25. 0:57so from the very very beginning we
26. 1:00just endured the expression throw
27. 1:03ourselves into the way
28. 1:05without expecting any reward
29. 1:08that is what
30. 1:10is called
31. 1:11just sitting or ashikanta in dogan's
32. 1:14teaching
33. 1:16my teacher's teacher saki kodoloch said
34. 1:20zazen this sitting meditation is good
35. 1:23for nothing
36. 1:24i always said you know this is good for
37. 1:26nothing
38. 1:28and that is what i recommend people and
39. 1:30it's really difficult to
40. 1:32encourage people to practice this way
41. 1:35because this is good for nothing
42. 1:40so then without expectation or without a
43. 1:44gaining mind
44. 1:46or other than good for nothing
45. 1:49it's a kind of a call because even i
46. 1:53when we started to practice we have some
47. 1:56expectation
48. 1:58i think almost always when
49. 2:00because we have some problem or some
50. 2:03difficulty or some question we start to
51. 2:05practice and
52. 2:07so without expectation
53. 2:10at least to find some answer to question
54. 2:13or exit
55. 2:14[Music]
56. 2:15from the problem i have i am facing
57. 2:18so
58. 2:20without expectation or
59. 2:23goal
60. 2:24we cannot start to practice
61. 2:27here is a
62. 2:28kind of a
63. 2:31conflict
64. 2:32we
65. 2:33usually call this a weight-seeking mind
66. 2:36and
67. 2:37without this weight-seeking mind or in
68. 2:40buddhist
69. 2:41term bodhichitta
70. 2:44the mind which seek
71. 2:46awakening
72. 2:47or find discover the truth
73. 2:52we cannot start to practice
74. 2:54but the teaching is you should not even
75. 2:57expect the answer
76. 2:59so here is a
77. 3:01conflict
78. 3:02when we start we continue to practice
79. 3:05this become a really uh serious question
80. 3:11and uh
81. 3:13sometimes we have to face
82. 3:15the dead end
83. 3:17that
84. 3:17in my case
85. 3:19i
86. 3:21uh reached that that end after
87. 3:24about 10 years i be after i became a
88. 3:26monk that means
89. 3:29you know i knew you know that is good
90. 3:31for nothing
91. 3:32and i felt it very i was very fortunate
92. 3:35to that teaching
93. 3:37that why i started to practice
94. 3:40in that style
95. 3:41so i thought i understood and i liked it
96. 3:46therefore i devote my entire body and
97. 3:49mind and time
98. 3:50to this practice
99. 3:53but after
100. 3:5510 years i found
101. 3:58that was a fan i was in massachusetts we
102. 4:02worked very hard physically
103. 4:05so
104. 4:06when i became 30
105. 4:08my body was half broken
106. 4:11in my 20s that was okay
107. 4:13but
108. 4:14after
109. 4:15shortly after i became 30
110. 4:17my body was half broken
111. 4:20so
112. 4:21and i didn't have you know
113. 4:24income to have a treatment so i had to
114. 4:27return to japan
115. 4:30so i couldn't practice in the way i did
116. 4:33for 10 years
117. 4:35and
118. 4:36i had a problem
119. 4:38i questioned
120. 4:40why is it a problem if doesn't good for
121. 4:42nothing
122. 4:44and i
123. 4:46looked inside of me
124. 4:48and i
125. 4:50found that
126. 4:51you know
127. 4:52my understanding understanding of that
128. 4:55is good for nothing is only
129. 4:57understanding
130. 4:59but i
131. 5:02deep in my heart i
132. 5:04think you know to practice good for
133. 5:07nothing rather
134. 5:09is the
135. 5:10most authentic practice in buddhist
136. 5:12tradition
137. 5:14that's why i'm okay
138. 5:16that's why my life is meaningful
139. 5:19i
140. 5:20really found indeed my
141. 5:24mind i had expectation and i felt my
142. 5:28expectation was
143. 5:31filled
144. 5:33because of good for nothing doesn't and
145. 5:36i had a problem when i went back to
146. 5:38japan
147. 5:39i couldn't do that anymore
148. 5:42and that is one thing
149. 5:44that means
150. 5:46that is good for nothing is only my
151. 5:48intellectual understanding
152. 5:50so i devoted my entire body and mind
153. 5:55based on my thinking
154. 5:57it's not really good for nothing
155. 5:59that is one thing i found
156. 6:07you