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1. 0:00I know it sounds pretentious, but
2. 0:01sometimes I wonder if I'm ambitious or
3. 0:03just chronically dissatisfied. Everyone
4. 0:05secretly thinks they're special. The
5. 0:07difference is most people eventually
6. 0:09grow out of it. Sometimes I think I'm
7. 0:10destined for greatness. Other times I
8. 0:12spend 3 hours rearranging my shoes. I'm
9. 0:14jealous of those who are certain. The
10. 0:16ones who grew up knowing they wanted to
11. 0:17be a doctor or a nurse or a rich man's
12. 0:19second wife. Everyone says just find
13. 0:22your purpose as if it's hiding behind
14. 0:24the sofa. But I want to write a book,
15. 0:25start a company, learn Italian, climb
16. 0:27Everest. But then I get overwhelmed and
17. 0:29spend 3 hours reorganizing my apartment
18. 0:31instead. Am I underperforming or just
19. 0:33unrealistic? Maybe I keep trying
20. 0:35everything because I love nothing. If we
21. 0:37do all have a calling, then why does
22. 0:38mine keep going to voicemail? Am I lazy
23. 0:41or am I applying Olympic levels of
24. 0:43effort to all the wrong things? Symptoms
25. 0:45include dramatic reinventions,
26. 0:47unrealistic expectations, and the sudden
27. 0:49urge to move abroad every spring.
28. 0:50Distractions [music] disguised as
29. 0:52destiny. Perhaps maturity is simply
30. 0:54accepting the life you're currently
31. 0:55living. Or perhaps that's just what
32. 0:57people with pensions, mortgages, and
33. 0:59secure attachments say. Winning.