The Diane Downs Taped Diaries │ June 20, 1983 — Transcript

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1. 0:00June 20th, 1983.
2. 0:03Guess what? People know who I am.
3. 0:06Surprise, surprise. I asked Paul to go
4. 0:09into the hospital today to find out
5. 0:11about Christiey's surgery since they had
6. 0:14the whole weekend and all of today to do
7. 0:16it.
8. 0:18And we were walking in the front lobby
9. 0:20and I don't want to cause trouble for
10. 0:22those creeps. I really don't. So, I sent
11. 0:24Paul down to the nurses station to find
12. 0:26out. Of course, George didn't recognize
13. 0:30Paul,
14. 0:31but some nurse saw me walk in the front
15. 0:33door and standing in the lobby, and she
16. 0:35went trottting her little ass down to
17. 0:38George about the time Paul got there.
18. 0:41She grabbed George and she says, "Dian
19. 0:44just came in the hospital."
20. 0:47Well, be George jumped up. I swear to
21. 0:51you, I thought for sure he was going to
22. 0:54come unglued. He started looking around
23. 0:56in every direction to see where I was.
24. 0:59Looked like a dork.
25. 1:01Paul walked up to the nurse's station
26. 1:03and asked
27. 1:05said who he was and asked how Christy's
28. 1:07surgery was or if she'd had it. And they
29. 1:10said, "Uh,
30. 1:13oh, well, somebody will be able to talk
31. 1:15to you. Would you rather go into the sun
32. 1:17room?" And he says, "No, this is fine
33. 1:20right here." Or there's a chair right
34. 1:21there, the one by Christiey's door.
35. 1:26I could sit there. And she goes, "No."
36. 1:28He says, "Of course, unless you'd rather
37. 1:30I sat in the sun room." And she said,
38. 1:32"Yes, I would. We get all this special
39. 1:34treatment. Isn't that nifty, assholes?"
40. 1:39So, uh, found out Christy didn't have
41. 1:41her surgery still.
42. 1:44I went to see Danny this afternoon.
43. 1:47Susan decided that she would grant me
44. 1:49another visit. Broad.
45. 1:52I have a lot of hate. Could you tell?
46. 1:55Whole lot of hate.
47. 1:57But she told me that I could only see
48. 1:58Danny on conditions. I had to do exactly
49. 2:01as she said, act the way she said, say
50. 2:04what she said, or I wouldn't get to see
51. 2:07my kids anymore. It's all fine. I was a
52. 2:10good little girl. Got to see my baby.
53. 2:15Got to see my Danny. He isn't a real
54. 2:18angel today. Real sweetie.
55. 2:22Danny's a regular little kid, three
56. 2:26years old, likes to play his guns
57. 2:30and uh he used to do that with his
58. 2:33sisters, but now when he does it,
59. 2:35everybody thinks it's some kind of some
60. 2:37subconscious
61. 2:38something coming out.
62. 2:41So, uh, when Susan and Dick Tracy were
63. 2:44sitting there
64. 2:46discussing things, Susan was saying,
65. 2:51"I sure wish you knew when this
66. 2:54investigation was going to be over."
67. 2:57And Dick says, "It'll be over tomorrow."
68. 3:00She says, "Thank goodness." I guess
69. 3:02she'll be glad to get me out of her
70. 3:04hair. I'll be glad to get her out of my
71. 3:06hair, too. I'm glad this stupid
72. 3:07investigation's going to be over. Now
73. 3:10they have to know I didn't do it. You
74. 3:12leave me the hell alone.
75. 3:15Anyway, they were sitting there all
76. 3:17engrossed in this conversation and Danny
77. 3:19grabs his nostr and goes, "Mommy, bang
78. 3:22bang."
79. 3:24Now, I have to tell you, the first time
80. 3:26Danny did this to me in the hospital, it
81. 3:29scared me real good because
82. 3:32guns, little kids playing bang bang
83. 3:35guns,
84. 3:37never seemed serious until this
85. 3:39happened. And it's just guns are bad. I
86. 3:43know how
87. 3:44serious a bang bang is, but how do you
88. 3:48tell a three-year-old that doesn't know
89. 3:50that he's been shot? How do you impress
90. 3:53that fear on him?
91. 3:56So, you don't you don't give him
92. 3:58unwarranted
93. 4:00fears. He'll learn soon enough about
94. 4:02what really happened, and he'll learn
95. 4:03that guns are bad.
96. 4:06But right now, he's just a
97. 4:07three-year-old playing with his milk
98. 4:08straw.
99. 4:10And I can't sit around being paranoid
100. 4:13for fear that Susan or Dick Tracy is
101. 4:15going to think that I'm
102. 4:17flipping out. I have to be normal for my
103. 4:20kids and [ __ ] the rest of the world.
104. 4:23So, I grabbed Danny's juice straw and
105. 4:25went, "Danny, bang bang."
106. 4:28I swear to you, you should have been
107. 4:29there. Susan and Dick just about snapped
108. 4:32their necks looking over to see what was
109. 4:34going on.
110. 4:36I have to admit it was funny.
111. 4:39Creeps.
112. 4:41They don't know a three-year-old playing
113. 4:43bang bang with mommy. They're a bunch of
114. 4:45fools. I have no respect for any of
115. 4:47them.
116. 4:49They couldn't see the truth of it. Slap
117. 4:51them upside the head. And that's what
118. 4:53it's doing right now.
119. 4:58Yeah. I think I'm I'm going to talk to
120. 5:01Jim. I'm going to tell Jim what I
121. 5:03remember. We'll see what happens then.
122. 5:08I gotta get going for now.