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1. 0:00I'm starting to realize that this world
2. 0:02rewards people who are crazy and
3. 0:05punishes people who do what makes sense.
4. 0:07And I have people in my life now that
5. 0:09think I'm nuts. I can't even blame them.
6. 0:11You know, if someone asked my mom, like,
7. 0:12"Oh, what's your son up to?" It's like,
8. 0:14"Oh, yeah, he makes YouTube videos now
9. 0:16and he, you know, he just made one and
10. 0:17almost has a million views talking about
11. 0:19jerking off." So, I get it and I don't
12. 0:21even take offense to it. I used to. I
13. 0:23actually now take it as a sign that
14. 0:25maybe I'm moving in the right direction.
15. 0:28Because when no one was calling me
16. 0:29crazy, I hated my life. I had nothing to
17. 0:32show for it. I promise this won't be
18. 0:34motivational slop. We always hear this
19. 0:36advice, like, "Oh, just believe in
20. 0:38yourself when no one else does and
21. 0:39everything's going to work out." I
22. 0:40understand how annoying that is, but I
23. 0:43seriously think that our generation has
24. 0:45a problem with delusional pessimism. So,
25. 0:48I look back at the one time in my life
26. 0:51that I said, "Fuck it. I'm going to try
27. 0:53this delusional I'm going to stop
28. 0:56acting rational. I'm going to stop doing
29. 0:57the things that, quote, make sense
30. 0:59because is not working for me
31. 1:01anyway." And it's when I started this
32. 1:03YouTube channel. And I promise this is
33. 1:05not going to be some how I made it on
34. 1:06YouTube ass video. This goes much deeper
35. 1:09than me. I think this is a mindset
36. 1:10thing. Again, it's it's not just about
37. 1:12delusional optimism, but getting rid of
38. 1:14delusional pessimism. But listen, so I
39. 1:16had one video. It had a decent amount of
40. 1:19views. It got me like a thousand subs. I
41. 1:20had just quit my job at the time and
42. 1:22that's what the video was about. And I
43. 1:24told my boy, I was like, "Yo, I think
44. 1:26I'm going to try to do this YouTube
45. 1:27shit." And he literally laughed at me.
46. 1:29He said, "What are you going to do,
47. 1:30become a YouTuber, bro? Like, get back
48. 1:32to LinkedIn, buddy." And my family, they
49. 1:34said the same These people were
50. 1:36right. What's so scary about trying to
51. 1:38move crazy like this intentionally, like
52. 1:40trying to have a delusional amount of
53. 1:42faith in what you're about to do, is you
54. 1:44don't have evidence to prove anybody
55. 1:46wrong yet. Anyone can have a video that
56. 1:48hits the algorithm. It doesn't mean
57. 1:50Anyone can get lucky. But in my
58. 1:52head, I made a conscious decision. I
59. 1:54said, "Okay, for the first time in my
60. 1:55life, I'm going to be delusional. I'm
61. 1:57going to try it. I'm going to ignore
62. 1:58what every single person around me is
63. 2:00telling me to do. I have nothing to
64. 2:02lose. And I'm not making this up. I
65. 2:04literally wrote this down in my
66. 2:06journal. So, I can go back and see the
67. 2:08exact day that I decided I wanted to be
68. 2:10a nut job. I wrote down. I said, I can
69. 2:12make this YouTube work. Not
70. 2:14everyone gets a chance at this. I got
71. 2:16mine and the rest is up to me. I wrote
72. 2:18that down in February of 2025. I also
73. 2:21have a video on my phone that I want to
74. 2:23show, but my face [clears throat] is in
75. 2:24it. So, you're going to have to take my
76. 2:26word for it, but I show my YouTube
77. 2:27dashboard on my computer and that
78. 2:29was ass. Zero motion. This was now the
79. 2:32summer of 2025.
80. 2:34And I said, this exact screen is going
81. 2:36to look a lot different this time next
82. 2:39year.
83. 2:40All right, it's July 6th,
84. 2:422025 and I have right now
85. 2:4521,000 subscribers.
86. 2:47So, a year from now, I'm going to have
87. 2:49at least 100,000 subscribers.
88. 2:51And
89. 2:53I'm just getting started. I'm I'm
90. 2:54putting myself first. I'm I'm believing
91. 2:56in myself.
92. 2:57And um yeah, so a year from now,
93. 3:00see where I'm at.
94. 3:01And I'm not saying this to flex. I'm
95. 3:02saying this because this was my first
96. 3:04time really believing in myself. That
97. 3:06dashboard does look different now, a
98. 3:08year later. So, the feelings of doubt,
99. 3:10anxiety, the loneliness, the the
100. 3:12negative opinions of other people that I
101. 3:14had cared so much about, the constant
102. 3:17fear of like, yo, I could fail at this
103. 3:19All of that came flying at me,
104. 3:21like it always does and and still does,
105. 3:23to be honest, some to this day, but
106. 3:25because I made a conscious decision I
107. 3:27was going to be delusional about this, I
108. 3:29was able to shut the door on all of it.
109. 3:32The thoughts of what am I going to do if
110. 3:34this doesn't work? I didn't even let
111. 3:36that enter my consciousness, bro.
112. 3:38On some Morty Supreme when I heard
113. 3:40him say that in the movie, I was like,
114. 3:41no way, bro just took my line. But
115. 3:44seriously, the reason I feel so
116. 3:45confident even giving this advice,
117. 3:48taking the risk of sounding like a
118. 3:49jerkoff or a a
119. 3:51chud, it's cuz I'm still using this
120. 3:53mindset every single day when I wake up.
121. 3:55Like I'm still on my delusional
122. 3:58And you have to be in this day, I swear.
123. 4:00It's not like I made it yet, right? So,
124. 4:03now people look at me crazy
125. 4:05and I say, "No, no, no. This is just the
126. 4:07start. Like I'm going to get to a
127. 4:08million subscribers." And they're like,
128. 4:10"Yeah, all right, buddy." And when I say
129. 4:12this, it's not out of cockiness. It's
130. 4:14out of like, "Yo, I can do this shit."
131. 4:15And I'm not here to sell anyone a false
132. 4:17dream because let's say you want to be a
133. 4:19YouTuber, you can do everything I did
134. 4:21and because of things that are out of
135. 4:22your control, that won't work for
136. 4:24one reason or another. Luck is required.
137. 4:28I have no problem saying that. I got
138. 4:29super lucky. But, dude, it's like
139. 4:32you can't put yourself in a position to
140. 4:34get lucky if you don't have this
141. 4:36delusional self-belief first. So, that
142. 4:38if it happens, you're ready. That's
143. 4:40really what's most important. Like the
144. 4:42work, the consistency, the discipline,
145. 4:44working through the pit of your stomach,
146. 4:46the fear. Like no one is going to see
147. 4:48any of that. They're just going to see
148. 4:49the end product and call you lucky. So,
149. 4:51it. Put yourself in a position to
150. 4:53get lucky. So, recently I've been
151. 4:55tapping in with Alexander the Great. You
152. 4:57know, I figured if bro took over the
153. 4:58world, must be something special about
154. 5:01him. He was kind of the first ever Chad.
155. 5:03You might as well study up on, dude.
156. 5:05Turns out this nut job thought he was a
157. 5:08god. His mom told him that he was a
158. 5:10descendant of Zeus or some when he
159. 5:12was a kid. And because of this, bro was
160. 5:14absolutely delusional. He would be
161. 5:16outnumbered like 10 to 1 about to get
162. 5:18clipped and his boys would be like,
163. 5:20"Bro, we need to turn the around."
164. 5:22And he'd be like, "Chill out, guys.
165. 5:23Don't worry about it. I'm literally a
166. 5:25god. So, stop tripping. We already won
167. 5:28the battle." And it didn't matter how
168. 5:30outnumbered he was or who he was
169. 5:32fighting, this dude would win every
170. 5:34single time. So, I heard this and it got
171. 5:36me thinking like imagine how different
172. 5:38life would be if you moved around
173. 5:40thinking that you were actually God. The
174. 5:43type of time that you would be on in
175. 5:44like the modern world, there'd be no
176. 5:46fear of uncertainty. Anything that
177. 5:49happens to you is an act of God, destiny
178. 5:52type Obviously, none of us are
179. 5:53taking over the world, so it's like
180. 5:55let's say you're at work, you could have
181. 5:56this huge presentation you didn't even
182. 5:57prepare for it. You're walking in there,
183. 5:59you didn't even sleep last night, but
184. 6:01you're like, "I'm about to kill this
185. 6:02I'm not even a little bit nervous
186. 6:04about this." It's like chill, I'm God.
187. 6:06It's like you see a pretty girl on the
188. 6:07street, you think you're going to bug
189. 6:09out and and not go talk to her? You're
190. 6:11literally God, dude. God doesn't make
191. 6:13mistakes. This is going to go perfectly.
192. 6:15I can go on and on. Business ideas, job
193. 6:18interviews, first dates, anything that
194. 6:20happens, it's like the fear of failure
195. 6:22that most of us are crippled by, it
196. 6:24wouldn't even enter your consciousness.
197. 6:26It wouldn't impact anything that you do
198. 6:28because God doesn't fail. You don't take
199. 6:30L's as God, right? So, if you move like
200. 6:33this today, like Alexander the Great, or
201. 6:35I mean, besides being the biggest Chad
202. 6:37of all time, you would be considered
203. 6:39nuts. You start telling people
204. 6:41you're God, you get 5150 pretty quickly
205. 6:43in this day and age. I remember this kid
206. 6:45I went to high school with, God bless
207. 6:47him, one day he was normal, the next day
208. 6:49he was telling everyone he was God, he
209. 6:50was writing these crazy letters, you
210. 6:52know, about his plans to take over the
211. 6:54world. We never saw bro again. So,
212. 6:56thinking you're God is is insane. And as
213. 6:58someone who believes in God, it's also
214. 7:00like a big no-no, you don't do that,
215. 7:02right? But there's something I think
216. 7:03powerful to tap into here. And if you
217. 7:06really want to get religious with it, we
218. 7:08all have a little God in us anyway,
219. 7:10right? That's in the Bible. So, why not
220. 7:11respectfully LARP a little bit? Not as
221. 7:14God, but as someone who doesn't consider
222. 7:16the idea of failure. Someone who doesn't
223. 7:18dwell on what they can't do, and instead
224. 7:21only tells themselves that they can do
225. 7:23anything. Like who gives a if
226. 7:24that's true or not? Your subconscious,
227. 7:26it doesn't know the difference, bro.
228. 7:28There's this Kanye interview when he was
229. 7:29younger, and he's like, "Yeah, bro, I
230. 7:31can do literally anything that I want.
231. 7:33If I want to stop rapping today and join
232. 7:35the NBA,
233. 7:36I will be able to do it, no problem."
234. 7:38And the guy's like, "What are you
235. 7:38talking about?"
236. 7:39>> Cuz I think right now,
237. 7:41if I was to
238. 7:43quit rapping and I said I want to go to
239. 7:45the NBA
240. 7:46I would be in the NBA.
241. 7:47>> No, you wouldn't.
242. 7:48>> Yes.
243. 7:48>> No, you wouldn't.
244. 7:49>> Yes, I would.
245. 7:49>> No, you wouldn't.
246. 7:50>> Yes, I would.
247. 7:51>> Why would you think you could make it to
248. 7:52the NBA?
249. 7:53>> Cuz I think I could do anything.
250. 7:54>> [laughter]
251. 7:55>> You know, you think his big ass could be
252. 7:57in the NBA? Hell no. But he genuinely
253. 7:59believed that when he said that and
254. 8:01that's why you look at his work and it's
255. 8:03on a level that can't be replicated. To
256. 8:05me, I think this is the type of crazy
257. 8:07that anyone can tap into and it makes
258. 8:10winning inevitable. It definitely beats
259. 8:13larping as a stupid chad who only thinks
260. 8:16about failure, only thinks about all the
261. 8:17that they can't do. And I think
262. 8:19people hear this and you know, I used to
263. 8:20think this too. It's like, "Okay, I
264. 8:22don't want to be Kanye West. I don't
265. 8:23want a crazy career." It's like, "No,
266. 8:26this can be applied to anything. It
267. 8:28doesn't matter what you do. It doesn't
268. 8:29matter if you're in the corporate world
269. 8:31or just a any regular job." You know, as
270. 8:33a kid you go from grade to grade, you
271. 8:35just level up. As an adult, you need to
272. 8:37fight for a promotion, right? I remember
273. 8:40learning that. So, you have to be on ass
274. 8:42because no one is going to say, "Here,
275. 8:43take more money for doing the same
276. 8:45that you're already doing." So, what
277. 8:47they love is the stupid chad mindset
278. 8:50that I was talking about earlier. They
279. 8:52love when you think that you wouldn't be
280. 8:54able to handle the next step up. Like,
281. 8:56"That would be too much responsibility
282. 8:58for me. I could never do that." That
283. 9:00whole thing is mostly The
284. 9:01reality of any job, entry-level job,
285. 9:04it's more taxing on the soul than the
286. 9:07level above it is. The one above that is
287. 9:09even easier. You could do your boss's
288. 9:12job and I
289. 9:13I think after a week of onboarding, you
290. 9:15could probably do your boss's boss's
291. 9:17job. These people above you are not
292. 9:19smarter than you. They're all
293. 9:21bullshitting. And I just think people
294. 9:23don't need to wake up and be like, "Yo,
295. 9:24you can get in on the yourself
296. 9:26or you're going to get taken advantage
297. 9:28of in one way or another." It doesn't
298. 9:29matter if we're talking about jobs or
299. 9:31relationships or dating, bro. It's like,
300. 9:33"You are that guy." And telling yourself
301. 9:35that is only going to help you. It
302. 9:36doesn't matter what you're trying to
303. 9:38accomplish in life. Want to hear a quote
304. 9:39that has always me up? There's
305. 9:41two versions of you. The one who
306. 9:43believes that he can and the one who
307. 9:45believes that he can't. And they're both
308. 9:47right. man. I hate to sound like a
309. 9:50motivational chat, but you know, we
310. 9:51always hear about oh, like that person's
311. 9:53ego is too big. Your your ego maxing
312. 9:55right now. Your ego's too big. We never
313. 9:57hear about bro, is your ego too small?
314. 10:01Is your ego even big enough? The ego is
315. 10:03something that you need to tap into.
316. 10:05It's not something that you want to
317. 10:06destroy. Like you ever meet someone
318. 10:07who's had an ego death? They're cooked.
319. 10:10Like I'm sorry, it's just true. I swear
320. 10:12that almost happened to me in
321. 10:13college, but I'm not going to get into
322. 10:14that. People in our generation for the
323. 10:15most part, it's like we've had a
324. 10:17collective ego death. I'm not going to
325. 10:19pretend that I know exactly what's
326. 10:21causing it. Like I have some ideas for
327. 10:23sure. You know, like social media,
328. 10:25obviously, all these addictions that we
329. 10:27now have. Or or maybe it's just the way
330. 10:29this society makes you feel as a young
331. 10:30dude coming up right now. Just like
332. 10:32surrounded by doom. But we have a
333. 10:35delusional pessimism problem. The
334. 10:37majority of us are not overestimating
335. 10:39our abilities to succeed at anything.
336. 10:42We're severely underestimating them. Ego
337. 10:45is like a bad word. And so what happens
338. 10:48is like anytime you have an idea, you
339. 10:50shut yourself down before even trying
340. 10:52that idea. That was me for the majority
341. 10:54of my life. Playing it safe with
342. 10:56everything. I watch other people win,
343. 10:58but for me it's different, bro.
344. 11:00For me now, I could never be that lucky.
345. 11:02So with everything you do, with school,
346. 11:04with work, with girls, you're constantly
347. 11:06taking the route that makes the most
348. 11:08sense, the most rational route. Thank
349. 11:10God that I woke up. Honestly, I'm
350. 11:12extremely grateful because if you look
351. 11:15at what you get for playing it safe
352. 11:16right now, what doing the things that
353. 11:18make the most sense get you, it's pretty
354. 11:21dark, bro. You don't get much. You end
355. 11:23up at a job that you hate and it doesn't
356. 11:25even pay you enough to justify the tax
357. 11:28that you're paying with your soul every
358. 11:30day that you go to work. To me, that's
359. 11:33the new crazy.
360. 11:34The route that makes sense no longer
361. 11:37makes sense. So, you might as well start
362. 11:39trying It's like, what's
363. 11:41the worst that can happen, bro? You're
364. 11:42already in the worst-case scenario.
365. 11:44That's the position that I found myself
366. 11:45in. It was different back in the day
367. 11:47where, you know, you get that job that
368. 11:49you hate, but you clock out, you got the
369. 11:51house, you got the wife, the family. You
370. 11:53know, that's the old way of doing
371. 11:54things. And it always makes me think of
372. 11:55this Anchorman quote where he's like
373. 11:57[laughter]
374. 11:57he's like, "Life isn't about following
375. 11:59your dreams, kid. It's about getting a
376. 12:00paycheck and keeping a gun out of your
377. 12:02mouth." You know, there is some hard
378. 12:04truth to that, even to this day. Uh but
379. 12:06the way that I view it, it's like the
380. 12:08traditional 9-to-5 route is so cooked
381. 12:11right now. It's like you might as well
382. 12:13around and try that idea that keeps
383. 12:15popping into your head. And to do that,
384. 12:18you have to be crazy. You know, a
385. 12:19realization that's been important to me
386. 12:21the past year or so of my life, people
387. 12:23can't see your vision. Your friends,
388. 12:25your family, it doesn't matter how close
389. 12:26you are. And And there's chances are you
390. 12:28already know this. When Stan Lee came up
391. 12:30with the idea for Spider-Man, the
392. 12:31corporate people were like, "Bro, drop
393. 12:33the stupid spider No one likes
394. 12:35spiders. We're not doing that." Can you
395. 12:37imagine that? And now, you know, we all
396. 12:39know that Spider-Man slaps. It sounds
397. 12:41crazy, but you got to realize like this
398. 12:43idea that when your would-be chance
399. 12:46finally comes to you, that idea that
400. 12:47keeps popping up in your head, you're
401. 12:49you're finally ready to try that and
402. 12:50make it happen, this idea that that's
403. 12:52going to be validated by the people
404. 12:53around you is just not how this
405. 12:55works at all, bro. Other people can't
406. 12:57see your vision. That's why it's so
407. 12:59important that you don't blindly follow
408. 13:01where they're pointing you to go. Cuz
409. 13:03chances are you're going to regret it.
410. 13:05But to take this a step further,
411. 13:07something that I realized, it's like,
412. 13:08"Shit, I can't fully see my vision
413. 13:11either." It's important to spend time to
414. 13:13visualize where you want to be, like
415. 13:15what you want out of life, what all your
416. 13:17action is going towards, to to have
417. 13:18intentions. But even if you sit down and
418. 13:21do that, you don't know where the
419. 13:22you're going.
420. 13:24There's too many variables in life to
421. 13:26know what every little action is leading
422. 13:29towards. I just read this book. It was
423. 13:30called Sublimable Subliminal. was
424. 13:33ass. I'm not going to lie. Do not read
425. 13:35that But, there was a one quote in
426. 13:36there and it was from Steve Jobs and it
427. 13:38was so tough that I had to write it down
428. 13:40a few times.
429. 13:41You cannot connect the dots looking
430. 13:43forward. You can only connect them
431. 13:45looking backwards. That's why you have
432. 13:47to trust the dots will somehow connect
433. 13:49to your future. This is some of the
434. 13:51realest that I've ever heard. You
435. 13:54know, I look back now. I say thank God I
436. 13:56almost died at 23 because I needed that
437. 13:58I needed to wake up. I look back
438. 14:00now. I'm like, "Yo, thank God that
439. 14:03tried to get me fired for her mistake.
440. 14:05Gave me no choice but to quit my job."
441. 14:07At the time, you know, I couldn't
442. 14:09believe how bad my luck was. But, that's
443. 14:11what gave me the drive and the chance to
444. 14:13give this YouTube my all. You know,
445. 14:16she's sitting somewhere in office right
446. 14:17now. She has no clue that she made
447. 14:19Polymaths. You know, it's like when
448. 14:21these things were happening, they felt
449. 14:23like the end of the world. And then you
450. 14:25look back a couple of months, a couple
451. 14:26years later and it seems like it was
452. 14:28like written by an author, dude. It's
453. 14:29like, "How did this all work out this
454. 14:31way?" You know, I know this video is
455. 14:34titled something about moving crazy.
456. 14:36But, to me this mindset flip, this is
457. 14:38some of the most sane that you can
458. 14:41do. You know, now I can look at most of
459. 14:43the that goes down in life and
460. 14:46see them as opportunities. See them as
461. 14:47dots that I'm going to connect. Even if
462. 14:50it makes no sense to me at the time,
463. 14:51which it it usually doesn't. This
464. 14:53YouTube thing, it's working out for me
465. 14:55now. But, you might be saying,
466. 14:56"What if it fails? What if it's all gone
467. 14:58tomorrow? If I got to go back to that
468. 15:00job that makes you want to die every
469. 15:02time I clock in." And first off, what
470. 15:04I'm trying to say is I don't even let
471. 15:05these thoughts enter into my brain on
472. 15:08the daily basis. Like, these thoughts of
473. 15:10failure. You can call me crazy for this.
474. 15:11But, I feel like if I let those feelings
475. 15:14in, if I feel like a loser, oh I'm
476. 15:16going to lose, I'm actually going to
477. 15:18lose. So, none of that enters my brain.
478. 15:20You know, they pop in from time to time,
479. 15:22the self-doubt, the anxiety, and I just
480. 15:25shut the door on that I don't
481. 15:26know why I made a fart sound for that,
482. 15:28but you know, if I do let them in for a
483. 15:31second right now, if that did happen, if
484. 15:33I lose this YouTube easily could,
485. 15:35I could get AI wiped out by a bot, my
486. 15:38channel gets copyright striked, I don't
487. 15:39know, whatever, whatever could
488. 15:41hypothetically happen, if I lose it all,
489. 15:43I'll say, "Shit, at least I got to try,
490. 15:45bro." Like at least I got to spread a
491. 15:46message, at least I had a voice for a
492. 15:48little bit. I would be grateful just for
493. 15:50this year alone that this worked out,
494. 15:52that I had a chance to be crazy. Cuz
495. 15:55again, no one was calling me crazy when
496. 15:57I had nothing to show for my life, and I
497. 15:59hated it. So, you think about like a
498. 16:01mindset adjustment like this, mindset
499. 16:03change, whatever you want to call it, we
500. 16:04have to talk about the potential
501. 16:06downsides. You know, you you talk about
502. 16:07someone like Alexander the Great, I'm
503. 16:09pretty sure he started tweaking out and
504. 16:10and killing all his boys and and
505. 16:13you know, you see Kanye West, I mean, we
506. 16:15all know
507. 16:16what goes down with Kanye like every
508. 16:17other year, but you know, there's
509. 16:19obviously other things at play there,
510. 16:20but still, thinking you can do it all is
511. 16:23bound to have some negatives that are
512. 16:25worth clocking. The first is avoiding
513. 16:27becoming an egomaniac, right? I think
514. 16:29there's a line that you have to draw
515. 16:31between I can do it all and I'm not
516. 16:33you know, it's a balance. I think
517. 16:36most successful people you hear about
518. 16:38have that balance, like you need
519. 16:40humility, or else you're just going to
520. 16:41go off the rails at one point. Like a
521. 16:43true genius is supposed to be humble and
522. 16:46recognize that their gifts were given to
523. 16:48them. And look, I'm not saying I'm a
524. 16:50genius at all, but I'm saying is I try
525. 16:52to study the geniuses, bro. I'm trying
526. 16:54to connect the dots between the geniuses
527. 16:56to try to tap into that genius And
528. 16:58talk about sounding crazy, bro, but
529. 17:01second, I think what this mindset
530. 17:02creates is ambition, which is why it's
531. 17:05so sick, which is why I'm making
532. 17:07this video. It's like something our
533. 17:09timid ass generation needs because it
534. 17:12gets sucked out of us with all this
535. 17:14that they're constantly
536. 17:15throwing at us. You know, they want us
537. 17:17to take the route that makes the most
538. 17:19sense, like I said earlier, the the
539. 17:20non-ambition route, the Chad
540. 17:22consumer route. But what can come with
541. 17:24ambition, something that I've noticed as
542. 17:26someone who's, to be honest, new to this
543. 17:28ambition you know, I didn't used
544. 17:30to be ambitious.
545. 17:32Um but it can be at odds with gratitude,
546. 17:34which I've said a billion times on this
547. 17:35channel is the key to everything, the
548. 17:37key to life. But when you picture
549. 17:39something and start working towards
550. 17:41something, like for me with YouTube,
551. 17:43like I I'm delusional enough to say
552. 17:44that, "Shit, I'm going to have a million
553. 17:46subscribers one day." You know, what I
554. 17:47notice happen is
555. 17:49a lack of appreciation for the work kind
556. 17:52of paying off. It It becomes a little
557. 17:54bit harder to appreciate. Dude, I'm
558. 17:55extremely grateful, but the other day,
559. 17:57for example, like I had my best day ever
560. 18:00on YouTube, and I've been doing this now
561. 18:01for coming up on almost 2 years, and I
562. 18:03had by far my best day.
563. 18:06And you know, just for some background,
564. 18:07I put a lot of my energy into this
565. 18:10channel and working on these videos.
566. 18:12Like I'm up geeking all night thinking
567. 18:14about what videos I should make next. So
568. 18:16you would think that what I'm so
569. 18:18hyper-focused on, what I'm pouring my
570. 18:20energy into, when it does really well,
571. 18:23that I would feel proud, I would feel
572. 18:24accomplished in what I'm doing. But I'm
573. 18:26not going to lie, you know, there's not
574. 18:28really that much of that. Like the
575. 18:30gratitude is there, but but the
576. 18:31enjoyment of my hard work paying off,
577. 18:34seeing the uh you know, output from my
578. 18:37input, I don't really feel it. It's
579. 18:39like, "All right, the video's doing
580. 18:40really well. Time to get on to the next
581. 18:42one. This is all just part of the
582. 18:43process." So I don't know, I'm just
583. 18:45learning it's important to take a step
584. 18:46back because I should feel some
585. 18:47enjoyment, some satisfaction for what
586. 18:50I'm pouring myself into. Um I think this
587. 18:52mindset can kind of
588. 18:53take away from that. I don't know, maybe
589. 18:55I sound like an ungrateful prick right
590. 18:56now. It's just something that I've been
591. 18:57thinking about as someone who is
592. 18:59intentionally using this kind of
593. 19:01self-belief to push himself. You know,
594. 19:04satisfaction will never come from a
595. 19:06number or a goal. It's like you hit
596. 19:09these goals and you just now move the
597. 19:11goalpost further. It's like you get on a
598. 19:13treadmill and that does not stop.
599. 19:16But you know, at the end of the day, I
600. 19:17take a step back. I'm like, "Yo, am I
601. 19:18complaining about winning right now?"
602. 19:21I owe it to this mindset that I'm
603. 19:23complaining about winning, not
604. 19:24complaining about losing. You know, I
605. 19:26didn't make it. I'm far from far, so
606. 19:28far from making it.
607. 19:30But I seriously think this mindset will
608. 19:32drive me to where I know I can go. You
609. 19:34know, it's like a stock where each a
610. 19:36stock, if you think about it,
611. 19:38capitalistic ass comparison, but think
612. 19:40about it. You're a company. You get your
613. 19:42first win. So, your earnings come out
614. 19:45and they're good. So, now the stock
615. 19:46price of your company goes up because of
616. 19:48that. You just went up in your price.
617. 19:50And because of that, more people now
618. 19:52invest. So, now you're going up in your
619. 19:53price again and again and again. It's
620. 19:55the same company. Nothing's changed.
621. 19:57You're the same person. There's just a
622. 19:59little evidence that you can win. So,
623. 20:01now you're winning all of a
624. 20:02sudden. So, I don't know, man. Maybe
625. 20:04it's a coincidence that, you know, my
626. 20:06first time trying this delusional
627. 20:08is working. I just have a hard time
628. 20:10believing that anything is a coincidence
629. 20:12these days. I seriously think you have
630. 20:14to be crazy. I think it's crazier to not
631. 20:16be crazy in 2026. So, let me know what
632. 20:19you guys think. Huge shoutout to the
633. 20:20Chud Club. Love you guys so much. Thank
634. 20:22you for watching. I'll talk to you soon.
635. 20:23Peace.
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