Shanann’s heartbreaking draft letters to Chris — Transcript

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1. 0:00a few days before shanan's passing she
2. 0:03sat down and wrote A Few drafts of a
3. 0:05heartbreaking letter that she would give
4. 0:06to Chris in it she vowed to fight for
5. 0:09him and their marriage at this time
6. 0:11shenan was struggling to understand what
7. 0:13was going on with her husband since they
8. 0:16had both returned from North Carolina
9. 0:17Chris was acting strangely and was
10. 0:20shutting shenan out shenan would try to
11. 0:23talk to him but he would either give
12. 0:24shenan the silent treatment or send her
13. 0:27mixed signals about the relationship one
14. 0:29moment he was telling her he loved her
15. 0:31and they were planning a weekend away to
16. 0:33Aspen just the two of them and the next
17. 0:35he was telling her that they were
18. 0:37incompatible and he wasn't sure he
19. 0:39wanted the baby anymore shanann was
20. 0:41devastated and she did everything in her
21. 0:43power to get Chris to open up to her but
22. 0:46he would not so she decided to write her
23. 0:48feelings down in these letters she
24. 0:51thought this was a good idea since Chris
25. 0:53was not good at communicating but sadly
26. 0:55it did not matter what shanann wrote or
27. 0:58what she said to him because Chris had
28. 1:00already made up his mind and had chose
29. 1:03his mistress over his family the day she
30. 1:06left the letter for Chris shenan was
31. 1:08headed out of town for a business trip
32. 1:10on the morning of August 10 2018 and she
33. 1:13left this letter on the kitchen counter
34. 1:15for Krista Reed when he woke up shedan
35. 1:18would return home on the morning of
36. 1:20August 13 2018 but the letters were
37. 1:23never seen again Chris likely disposed
38. 1:25of them somewhere outside of the home
39. 1:27and his truck these images of the
40. 1:30letters were found on shenan's phone she
41. 1:32had taken pictures of them to ask
42. 1:34friends for advice with them I am going
43. 1:37to read the letter that shenan gave to
44. 1:39Chris first and then I will read the
45. 1:41draft letter that she did not give to
46. 1:43him these give us a good idea of what
47. 1:45shenan was feeling and going through
48. 1:47during this time the letter shenan gave
49. 1:49to Chris reads my dearest Chris I don't
50. 1:53know where to begin I am so lost for
51. 1:55words I can't even explain how hard this
52. 1:58pain hurts the last last five weeks have
53. 2:01been so hard I missed everything about
54. 2:03you I missed your morning breath your
55. 2:06touch your lips against mine I miss
56. 2:09holding you I missed smelling you in the
57. 2:12sheets I miss talking to you in person I
58. 2:15missed watching you laugh and play with
59. 2:17the kids I love seeing their smile with
60. 2:20you I miss seeing you naked and on top
61. 2:23of me making love OMG I missed having
62. 2:26you around when I felt alone and upset I
63. 2:29just flat out missed the hell out of you
64. 2:31I really don't know how we fell out of
65. 2:34compatibility the only major thing that
66. 2:36happened was between your mom and I I
67. 2:39can't change what happened and I will
68. 2:41work with you and them to work things
69. 2:43out there has to be mutual respect from
70. 2:46all parties an apology from your mom
71. 2:49personally would be nice our daughter's
72. 2:51life can't be replaced I've only seen
73. 2:54you shut down like this once and that
74. 2:56was with your parents after our wedding
75. 2:58we deserve to have all family in our
76. 3:01life and with love not hate I don't want
77. 3:04to lose you ever I will be civil and get
78. 3:07along with your mom we just all need to
79. 3:09have mutual respect I will do anything
80. 3:12for you the last thing on earth is for
81. 3:14you to hurt you deserve the world and I
82. 3:17don't like when you hurt it hurts me I
83. 3:20can't and won't lose you without
84. 3:22fighting for us I will always fight for
85. 3:24our marriage and you this is the hardest
86. 3:27thing I have ever gone through but you
87. 3:29are worth it tell me what you need I
88. 3:32love you baby with all of my heart
89. 3:34always and forever love always shenan
90. 3:38this letter just breaks my heart because
91. 3:41you can literally hear her pain she was
92. 3:44so hurt and just wanted to save her
93. 3:46marriage she could have never imagined
94. 3:48he was cheating on her and planning her
95. 3:51death
96. 3:51now I will read the draft that she wrote
97. 3:54this letter was never given to Chris it
98. 3:57reads
99. 3:58my dearest Chris I don't know where to
100. 4:01begin I am so lost for words I can't
101. 4:04even explain how hard this pain is
102. 4:07the last five weeks have been the
103. 4:09hardest I missed everything about you I
104. 4:12missed your morning breath your touch
105. 4:14your lips and kisses I missed holding
106. 4:17you I miss smelling you in the sheets I
107. 4:20miss talking to you in person I missed
108. 4:22watching you laugh and play with the
109. 4:24kids that I love so much I miss seeing
110. 4:27you naked and on top of me making love
111. 4:30OMG I missed having you around when I
112. 4:33felt alone and upset I just flat out
113. 4:36missed the hell out of you we haven't
114. 4:38been away from each other that long
115. 4:39since 2012. I really don't know how we
116. 4:42fell out of compatibility or if that is
117. 4:45someone else's words the only thing that
118. 4:48changed this month was everything going
119. 4:49down with your family I can't change
120. 4:52what happened but I can try to work
121. 4:54things out with you with them but there
122. 4:57has to be mutual respect for everyone I
123. 5:00definitely deserve an apology because of
124. 5:01Celeste I can suck up her going against
125. 5:04everything I said to our kids but our
126. 5:07daughter's life can't be replaced you
127. 5:09said you would call them and handle it
128. 5:11from there The Strain grew stronger and
129. 5:13stronger the only time I have seen you
130. 5:16this closed off was after our wedding
131. 5:18you were so hurt and angry you were done
132. 5:21with them when we found out we were
133. 5:23pregnant I wanted to help you fix the
134. 5:25hurt and pain I knew it hurt you we
135. 5:28worked together to help you through it I
136. 5:31don't want to lose you ever I will suck
137. 5:34it up and be civil with your family
138. 5:35because I love you but there has to be
139. 5:38the same respect on the other end that
140. 5:40is what's right I can't lose you I won't
141. 5:44lose you without a fight I will fight
142. 5:46for your love fight for us I can't
143. 5:49imagine life without you scares me to
144. 5:52death every day you go to work or we are
145. 5:54apart flying away I will do anything
146. 5:57always for you for us this is the
147. 6:00hardest thing I have ever gone through
148. 6:02but you are worth it just talk to me
149. 6:05tell me what you need I love you maybe
150. 6:07with all of my heart Happy anniversary
151. 6:10love always shenan it was clear she was
152. 6:14desperate to figure out what was wrong
153. 6:15with Chris she thought it had to do with
154. 6:18his parents and their disdain for her
155. 6:20she was also very hurt by Chris's
156. 6:23parents for not taking Cece's tree nut
157. 6:25allergy seriously when Shannen and the
158. 6:28girls were visiting them in North
159. 6:30Carolina Chris's mom Cindy had pistachio
160. 6:33ice cream out on the counter and was
161. 6:35serving it to the children that were
162. 6:37there that day this really upset shanan
163. 6:39because if CeCe had eaten it she would
164. 6:42have had an allergic reaction and might
165. 6:44have ended up in the hospital shananas
166. 6:46had to take CeCe to the hospital before
167. 6:48for an allergic reaction and it really
168. 6:51scared her so she was extra cautious
169. 6:53with CeCe being around tree nuts so this
170. 6:57upset shenan and Cindy and shenan got
171. 6:59into a fight that resulted with shenan
172. 7:01leaving their house with the girls this
173. 7:04was the last time they ever saw each
174. 7:06other and this was the last straw for
175. 7:08shenan because she felt like Chris's
176. 7:10parents never respected her or Cece's
177. 7:13allergies and like shenan said in the
178. 7:15letter that she gave Chris they refused
179. 7:18to go to their wedding so this
180. 7:20relationship has been Rocky from the
181. 7:22very beginning
182. 7:23they are a big reason why shenan and
183. 7:25Chris moved to Colorado in the first
184. 7:26place Chris's parents also did not
185. 7:29attend Cece's third birthday party over
186. 7:32the ice cream incident shenan had
187. 7:34reached out to them the day before just
188. 7:36to let them know they could still come
189. 7:37if they would like but she suspects they
190. 7:40blocked her Facebook account and phone
191. 7:42number
192. 7:43or they just simply chose not to come a
193. 7:46decision I'm sure they regret and just
194. 7:49quickly since we're on Cece's allergies
195. 7:51I thought I would clear some
196. 7:52misinformation up that I've seen over
197. 7:54the years so CeCe was allergic to tree
198. 7:57nuts this is not to be confused with a
199. 7:59peanut allergy because she could eat
200. 8:01peanut butter as long as it was not
201. 8:04cross-contaminated with tree nuts so
202. 8:06tree nuts are grown on trees hence the
203. 8:08name and peanuts are grown underground
204. 8:10so that's the main difference there tree
205. 8:13nuts are pistachios almonds Brazil nuts
206. 8:16cashews hazelnuts pecans and walnuts and
207. 8:19to make it even more confusing some
208. 8:21people can be allergic to some tree nuts
209. 8:23and not all that was not the case with
210. 8:25CC though she was allergic to all tree
211. 8:28nuts and also kiwi so and shenan shared
212. 8:31this information with the family so it
213. 8:33wasn't new information the Watts were
214. 8:36aware of this so I'm not sure why they
215. 8:38didn't take this seriously
216. 8:40so safe to say there was a lot of drama
217. 8:42going on between Chris's family and
218. 8:44shenan and it was reasonable for shenan
219. 8:47to think that the problem she was having
220. 8:49with Chris were because of them
221. 8:52but oh how wrong she was
222. 8:54she did suspect him of cheating that
223. 8:56last weekend so she was putting the
224. 8:58pieces together and figuring it all out
225. 9:00it just didn't happen soon enough
226. 9:03she had no idea the evil that resided in
227. 9:06him and that she had mere days left to
228. 9:09live