NYSSARA – Even My Soul Is Tired (Heal Me Part 2) | Official Lyrics Video — Transcript

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1. 0:02My soul is tired.
2. 0:05[music]
3. 0:07And I don't know who else to talk to.
4. 0:10I'm lost.
5. 0:12In a world that doesn't even understand
6. 0:14me. And honestly,
7. 0:17I'm not sure I understand myself
8. 0:20anymore.
9. 0:26Everything [singing] around me feels
10. 0:28like it's falling apart. My plans, my
11. 0:31peace, [music] my patience, even the
12. 0:34parts of me
13. 0:36I thought were finally healing I'm
14. 0:38slowly breaking, overthinking.
15. 0:41Responsibilities [music] piling up on
16. 0:43[singing] me. Everybody needs something.
17. 0:47Everybody needs me. And I'm trying.
18. 0:51God, I'm trying, but I'm tired. SO
19. 0:55TIRED. I'VE BECOME so good at holding
20. 0:58everything together that nobody notices.
21. 1:01I'm falling apart.
22. 1:04[singing]
23. 1:04Even my soul is tired.
24. 1:09I don't get a break. [music] Every time
25. 1:10I catch my breath, life takes it back.
26. 1:13Every time
27. 1:14I start healing, something else falls
28. 1:17apart.
29. 1:18I'm so tired of surviving one [music]
30. 1:20thing just to survive another. I keep
31. 1:23waiting for relief, but relief keeps
32. 1:26passing me by. My soul is tired. Teach
33. 1:29me how to stop surviving. Teach me how
34. 1:32to stop expecting [music]
35. 1:33loss.
36. 1:34Teach me how to stop turning every
37. 1:36blessing into a countdown. Teach [music]
38. 1:39me to heal from the parts of me that
39. 1:41tell me I'm not worthy, not worthy of
40. 1:43love, not worthy of rest, not worthy of
41. 1:47peace. Teach [music] me
42. 1:48how to live.
43. 1:51Some days my mind feels like the biggest
44. 1:54threat to my [music] peace. I fight
45. 1:55battles nobody can see. Memories, fear,
46. 1:58anxiety, the
47. 2:01inside my head.
48. 2:03They sound so [music] much like me. I
49. 2:05forget.
50. 2:08They aren't speaking with love. I
51. 2:10mistaken anxiety [music] for intuition,
52. 2:12fearful wisdom and self-destruction for
53. 2:15survival. I spend beautiful days waiting
54. 2:17for bad news. I hold happiness like I'm
55. 2:20borrowing [music] it. I don't celebrate
56. 2:23good days. I interrogate them and maybe
57. 2:26that's the saddest part. [music]
58. 2:28The storm is [singing] over but I'm
59. 2:29still living like it's raining.
60. 2:31Who do you call?
61. 2:33[screaming]
62. 2:34And you've become the person
63. 2:36everyone else calls
64. 2:39who saves the strong one, who carries
65. 2:43the person who's always caring everybody
66. 2:46[music] else BECAUSE RIGHT NOW I NEED
67. 2:48saving too.
68. 2:54I'm so
69. 2:55tired of
70. 2:56rebuilding a life on sand.
71. 2:59I don't even unpack
72. 3:01anymore.
73. 3:02[music]
74. 3:04I keep
75. 3:04decorating temporary
76. 3:06seasons [music]
77. 3:08like they're finally going to become
78. 3:10home.
79. 3:14I become so [music] comfortable carrying
80. 3:16heavy things. I don't know how to walk
81. 3:19with empty hands. I don't know [music]
82. 3:21if I'm grieving my life
83. 3:23or grieving the
84. 3:24life I thought I'd
85. 3:25have by now. I'm not afraid
86. 3:27[music] of hard times anymore.
87. 3:32I'm afraid
88. 3:34they're all I'll ever know.
89. 3:37My soul
90. 3:38is tired.
91. 3:40[music]
92. 3:41Teach me to heal from the guilt,
93. 3:45the grief, the disappointment. Teach me
94. 3:49to heal
95. 3:50from the version of me that only knows
96. 3:53how
97. 3:55to survive.
98. 3:57Teach me to
99. 3:59[music] silence the voices that were
100. 4:01built from pain
101. 4:03teach me
102. 4:04to stop
103. 4:04believing
104. 4:05every thought
105. 4:06that hurts me
106. 4:08because [music] I've
107. 4:08spent my
108. 4:10whole life
109. 4:13learning how not to die.
110. 4:19Teach me
111. 4:21how to live.
112. 4:26I'm not
113. 4:27asking for a perfect life.
114. 4:31I'm not
115. 4:32asking for an
116. 4:33easy life.
117. 4:35I'm just asking
118. 4:37for one
119. 4:38moment
120. 4:42where my mind isn't at [singing] war
121. 4:44with me.
122. 4:46Maybe healing doesn't begin when life
123. 4:49finally stops falling [music]
124. 4:51apart.
125. 4:53Maybe healing begins
126. 4:56the moment
127. 4:57I finally admit
128. 4:59I can't carry this alone [singing]
129. 5:02anymore.
130. 5:04My soul
131. 5:05is tired.
132. 5:08And tonight
133. 5:10[music]
134. 5:11that's the only truth I know.
135. 5:15>> [music]