My Awkward Love Confession — Transcript

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1. 0:00Today, I'm going to be talking about
2. 0:01confessions. More specifically, how I
3. 0:03confessed my love to my girlfriend,
4. 0:06Hono.
5. 0:08And like most things in life,
6. 0:09>> [laughter]
7. 0:10>> it did not go smoothly. But before I
8. 0:12plaster all over the internet how
9. 0:13pitiful and awkward my confession went,
10. 0:16we got to rewind all the way back to the
11. 0:18beginning of how I even started talking
12. 0:20to her in the first place. So, back in
13. 0:22February of 2021, I got an email from
14. 0:25Hono asking to collaborate on a video
15. 0:27she was working on. At the time, she was
16. 0:29a humble aspiring content creator who
17. 0:31time videos just like me. When I first
18. 0:33saw the email, I thought to myself, "Aw,
19. 0:36she's so sweet." And also, I really
20. 0:38loved her videos. She had an amazing art
21. 0:40style, super funny humor, and just all
22. 0:43around had so much potential.
23. 0:47It was a no-brainer. I was more than
24. 0:49delighted to voice lines for her.
25. 0:51Except, I
26. 0:53forgot
27. 0:55to reply back. I know, I know, I'm
28. 0:58horrible. I feel horrible. I swear I
29. 1:01genuinely had all intentions to do the
30. 1:02voice lines, but I kind of just put it
31. 1:05off for later. And unfortunately,
32. 1:09that later never came. Not only do I
33. 1:12have the memory and attention span of a
34. 1:13goldfish, but admittedly, having a
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80. 2:49story. So anyways, I forgot to reply
81. 2:52back to her and that was the end of
82. 2:54that. Now skip to the month of June. I
83. 2:57was casually scrolling through the bird
84. 2:58app and there I stumbled upon a fan art
85. 3:01that was retweeted by a popular
86. 3:03up-and-coming storytime YouTuber who was
87. 3:05celebrating her 100k milestone.
88. 3:07Considering how she was a part of the
89. 3:08same storytime community, I thought it'd
90. 3:11be nice to congratulate her. And so I
91. 3:13hover my mouse over to her profile name
92. 3:15to make my way over to her DMs and oh
93. 3:19no, bread?
94. 3:22Oh no, bread?
95. 3:24Oh no,
96. 3:26yep, the exact same Honobread who sent
97. 3:29me that collaboration email 5 months
98. 3:32ago. I ghosted her for 5 months. The
99. 3:36level of guilt I felt in that very
100. 3:38moment was unbearable. So to make things
101. 3:41right, I decided to go out of my way to
102. 3:43apologize to her, but because I thought
103. 3:46it'd be a bit disingenuous to do it over
104. 3:48DMs, I asked her if she could get on
105. 3:51call.
106. 3:57>> Hey, you wanted to talk to me about
107. 3:58something?
108. 3:59>> Uh yeah. Um first of all, massive
109. 4:02congrats on the 100k milestone. Been
110. 4:04really loving your videos.
111. 4:06>> Aw, thank you. That's really sweet. I
112. 4:08love your videos, too.
113. 4:09>> Oh, thanks.
114. 4:13Anyways, about that collab email you
115. 4:15sent like 5 months ago. I just wanted to
116. 4:18genuinely apologize for
117. 4:23Even though she was super embarrassed
118. 4:25about it, she calmly explained it was
119. 4:27okay and that she was actually hoping
120. 4:30I'd forgotten about it and it wasn't
121. 4:32that big of a deal. I still apologized
122. 4:33profusely and after that, we kind of
123. 4:36chatted for a little bit and ended the
124. 4:38call there. And with that, my guilty
125. 4:40conscience was satiated and everything
126. 4:42between us was cool. In fact, we
127. 4:46actually got on a lot more calls over
128. 4:48time and the more we talked, the more we
129. 4:50discovered how much we had in common.
130. 4:53Sharing a conversation with her felt so
131. 4:55effortless. So much so that our calls
132. 4:58would sometimes go on for like 12 hours
133. 5:00straight and we wouldn't even notice the
134. 5:02time go by. At some point, these calls
135. 5:05quickly became the thing I looked
136. 5:07forward to the most throughout my day
137. 5:08and shortly after, I knew that I was
138. 5:12starting to catch feelings for her.
139. 5:14Realizing this, I naturally made more of
140. 5:16an effort to spend more quality time
141. 5:18with her. We did some anime watch
142. 5:20parties, played some comfy games and
143. 5:22shared more in-depth conversations
144. 5:24concerning our values and personal
145. 5:26upbringings. We even started drawing
146. 5:28little doodles or comics of our
147. 5:30characters and used that to invite each
148. 5:33other to call sometimes. And the more we
149. 5:35bonded, the more certain I became about
150. 5:37how I felt about her. And then one day,
151. 5:39it hit me. I knew I had to do it.
152. 5:42I was going to confess my feelings to
153. 5:46her. Fortunately, my birthday was coming
154. 5:48up and I knew this was the perfect
155. 5:50chance for me to tell her how I feel.
156. 5:52So, I called her up on Discord, asked
157. 5:54her if she was free to hang out on my
158. 5:55birthday, to which she replied, "Yes."
159. 5:58LET'S GO! YEAH!
160. 6:00>> [screaming]
161. 6:04>> AND NERVOUSLY PREPARED MYSELF FOR THE
162. 6:06biggest moment of my life. On the day of
163. 6:09the plan, it started out flawlessly. We
164. 6:11chatted for a bit, played some games
165. 6:13with some adult juice, and celebrated my
166. 6:15birthday with some cute pictures of
167. 6:16cake. It was genuinely one of the most
168. 6:19fun I had in a while. And of course, at
169. 6:22the end of it, once the mood was set, I
170. 6:25knew the time had finally come. Uh
171. 6:28Honoka,
172. 6:29I
173. 6:31I have something important to tell you.
174. 6:34>> Oh, what is it?
175. 6:36>> So, you see, I um
176. 6:41well, I
177. 6:43uh
178. 6:45you know,
179. 6:46so I
180. 6:48wanted to say um
181. 6:53I
182. 6:59I choked.
183. 7:02I freaking choked! And you might be
184. 7:06thinking, "Why was it so hard to just
185. 7:09tell her how I feel?" Well, you see, out
186. 7:11of nowhere, I was getting hit by
187. 7:13thoughts like, "What if her liking me
188. 7:15back was all in my head? What if she
189. 7:17wasn't actually into me? What if she
190. 7:19only wanted to be friends and I'm
191. 7:21overstepping boundaries?" And I kid you
192. 7:23not, I was stuttering and struggling to
193. 7:26tell her how I felt for almost 10
194. 7:29insufferable minutes. Like, I swear, she
195. 7:32must have thought I was having a massive
196. 7:33stroke or something. And just when I
197. 7:35thought things couldn't get worse, I
198. 7:38completely pulled the brakes when she
199. 7:41said this. So, you see I
200. 7:44I
201. 7:45>> You know, if it's too hard to share with
202. 7:48me,
203. 7:49maybe you don't have to force yourself.
204. 7:56>> Now look here. When she said that I
205. 7:57didn't have to force myself, to me it
206. 8:00almost sounded like she didn't want me
207. 8:02to confess to her, which then led me to
208. 8:04think I might have completely missed the
209. 8:06mark on how she felt about me. So, in a
210. 8:09moment of panic, I said, "Uh yeah, yeah.
211. 8:12You're right. Uh
212. 8:14I'm going to go get some water." At this
213. 8:17point, I was fully convinced that she
214. 8:19had zero interest in me, and telling her
215. 8:22how I felt now would only end up in me
216. 8:24getting painfully rejected. So, to save
217. 8:26myself from further embarrassment, I
218. 8:28decided
219. 8:30not to confess. When I returned, I
220. 8:32apologized for acting all weird and
221. 8:35thanked her for taking the time to spend
222. 8:37time with me on my birthday. And then we
223. 8:39just kind of awkwardly ended the call.
224. 8:43It was over. That night, I remember just
225. 8:46sitting in front of the computer trying
226. 8:48to process what just happened. And all I
227. 8:50could think of was whether I should call
228. 8:53her back right then and there and just
229. 8:55tell her how I feel anyway, or just put
230. 8:58things to rest and move on. I'm not even
231. 9:01joking. I literally sat in the exact
232. 9:04same position contemplating this for
233. 9:06hours until eventually the sun came up.
234. 9:11Then I realized she kind of already
235. 9:14rejected me once.
236. 9:16What do I have to lose now? I'll just
237. 9:19tell her how I feel,
238. 9:20and that'll be the end of that. And
239. 9:23whatever happens, happens. And as soon
240. 9:25as I made up my mind, I clicked the call
241. 9:28button at 6:00 a.m. in the morning with
242. 9:30crusty eye bags and all, and gave it one
243. 9:33last go.
244. 9:35>> Hello?
245. 9:36Isn't it pretty early there?
246. 9:38>> Uh yeah, it is.
247. 9:40>> Oh no, are you okay? You sounded like
248. 9:43you didn't get any sleep.
249. 9:45>> I'm okay. I'm okay.
250. 9:48Uh
251. 9:50Hono,
252. 9:51if you had a guy you had strong feelings
253. 9:54for,
254. 9:55but
255. 9:56somehow failed to tell him how you feel,
256. 9:59would you try again?
257. 10:02>> Well, if it's someone I really like, I
258. 10:04think so. Why?
259. 10:13>> [screaming]
260. 10:17>> I
261. 10:19I have feelings for you.
262. 10:22Romantic feelings.
263. 10:24I I can't stop talking to you.
264. 10:27I can't stop wanting to call you every
265. 10:29chance I get. I enjoy being around you
266. 10:32so much that it's
267. 10:34it's becoming more and more difficult to
268. 10:38get off call sometimes. And even if you
269. 10:40don't feel the same way, it's okay cuz
270. 10:43>> Oh,
271. 10:44I have feelings for you, too.
272. 10:47>> Huh?
273. 10:49You do?
274. 10:51>> Yeah.
275. 10:55>> [music]
276. 10:57>> Okay, how do I explain this? So,
277. 11:01apparently, for some reason, she thought
278. 11:04instead of a love confession, she was
279. 11:07afraid I was trying to tell her that we
280. 11:10should hang out less because I didn't
281. 11:13want to seem like I was leading her on
282. 11:16and stuff. Hence, why she was okay with
283. 11:19not hearing what I had to say. I guess
284. 11:22I'm happy to know I wasn't the only one
285. 11:25overthinking things. Anyways, after
286. 11:27clarifying, we both had a good laugh
287. 11:29about it, and from then on, we just of
288. 11:32look back on this memory [music] fondly.
289. 11:34Sometimes things are not always going to
290. 11:36go your way, but even if that's the
291. 11:38case, I think it's better to be brave
292. 11:40and take a chance [music]
293. 11:42than to regret in the future wondering
294. 11:44what it could have been. And for me,
295. 11:47I'm glad
296. 11:48>> [music]
297. 11:49>> I took that chance.
298. 12:02>> [music]
299. 12:12[music]