Jodi Arias courthouse interview — Transcript

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1. 0:02a couple of minutes ago you heard the
2. 0:04verdict from the jury what are your
3. 0:06thoughts um I think I just went
4. 0:10blank just
5. 0:16um I don't know I just feel
6. 0:20overwhelmed I think I just need
7. 0:23to take it a day at a
8. 0:26time was it unexpected you think this
9. 0:28verdict it was unex expected for me yes
10. 0:31because there was no premeditation on my
11. 0:34part I can see how things look that way
12. 0:37but I didn't expect the premeditation I
13. 0:40could see maybe the felony murder
14. 0:41because of how the law is written but I
15. 0:43didn't the whole time I was fairly
16. 0:46confident I wouldn't get premeditation
17. 0:48because there was no
18. 0:50premeditation it seemed like some of
19. 0:51those jurors didn't believe what you
20. 0:53were telling them didn't believe your
21. 0:54story what are your thoughts on that I
22. 0:57can understand that I think because of
23. 1:01what I was the lies that I told in the
24. 1:03beginning to try to cover up this cover
25. 1:05up that hide things that I didn't want
26. 1:08to be known made public I don't know
27. 1:09that I have a direct message for the
28. 1:11jury I know that
29. 1:13um I prayed constantly for every single
30. 1:15one of them so that's the jury that was
31. 1:17brought to me that's the jury that I was
32. 1:20meant to have so you you pray for the
33. 1:22jury I prayed prior to trial that the
34. 1:25right jurors would would be on my on my
35. 1:27jury so um I just have to believe that
36. 1:31those were the right
37. 1:33jors are you focusing on the court or
38. 1:35are you focusing on what could be the
39. 1:38the worst outcome for you well the worst
40. 1:41outcome for me would be natural life I
41. 1:44would much rather die sooner than later
42. 1:46longevity runs in my family and I don't
43. 1:48want to spend the rest of my natural
44. 1:49life in one place um you know I'm pretty
45. 1:53healthy I don't smoke and I would
46. 1:56probably live a long time so that's not
47. 1:58something I'm looking forward to
48. 2:00um I said years ago that I'd rather get
49. 2:03death than life and that still is true
50. 2:05today I believe death is the ultimate
51. 2:07Freedom so I'd rather just have my
52. 2:09freedom soon as soon as I can get it so
53. 2:12you're saying you actually prefer
54. 2:14getting the death penalty to being in
55. 2:16prison for life yes the uh Alexander
56. 2:20family uh especially the the Two Sisters
57. 2:23uh and the younger brother if you could
58. 2:26say something to them what would you
59. 2:28like to say to them
60. 2:30I hope that now that a verdict has been
61. 2:33rendered that they're able to find peace
62. 2:36some sense of
63. 2:37peace I don't think they'll ever find
64. 2:39the pace that they would like but maybe
65. 2:43they maybe they'll be able to have
66. 2:45greater peace now or some semblance of
67. 2:49it and be able to move on with their
68. 2:50lives and remember their brother the way
69. 2:52they wanted
70. 2:54to just the way everything happened
71. 2:58um I think that if I had just been
72. 3:00honest from the beginning I'd be in a
73. 3:02different place and so would everyone
74. 3:07else and um because of what I've done a
75. 3:11lot of people will hurt for a long
76. 3:13[Music]
77. 3:18time a lot of people who have talked to
78. 3:20me about it have said how could she have
79. 3:22gone up and been with another man you
80. 3:24know basically 24 hours after this how
81. 3:27are you able to put that behind you and
82. 3:29basically go on a date I don't think I
83. 3:31so much put it behind me as I just sort
84. 3:33of checked out I hardly remember that
85. 3:36day um I don't remember it being nearly
86. 3:39as intimate as he described I remember
87. 3:41falling asleep and taking a nap and he
88. 3:43was lying next to me um I remember
89. 3:47feeling it's strange but I remember
90. 3:49feeling safe it's not like I went up
91. 3:51there because I was hoping to pursue a
92. 3:53relationship I went up there because I
93. 3:55thought oh crap I need to keep my
94. 3:57schedule so I went up there almost
95. 3:59because felt a sense of obligation
96. 4:01inside in order to keep up the pretense
97. 4:04not because I was going off to have fun
98. 4:07so if you had to do this all over again
99. 4:10you're in the desert you notice that
100. 4:12you've got blood on your hands how do
101. 4:14you handle
102. 4:16it I would turn around and drive to the
103. 4:19Mesa Police
104. 4:23Department and what do you think would
105. 4:24have happened to you
106. 4:26then I don't know but it would have been
107. 4:28the right thing
108. 4:30because of what I've done a lot of
109. 4:32people will hurt for a long
110. 4:33[Music]
111. 4:38time what I hear from women a lot is if
112. 4:41she was getting beat up why didn't she
113. 4:44call the police that's probably what you
114. 4:46hear from women who have not been in my
115. 4:48situation and been abused
116. 4:53um I think at that time if I can put
117. 4:57myself back in that mind frame at that
118. 4:58time my fear of calling the police is
119. 5:01that I would be seen as overly dramatic
120. 5:07or I would make an enemy of Travis and I
121. 5:10really just wanted us to be able to be
122. 5:12friends ultimately do you still think
123. 5:14about
124. 5:15Travis yes in what
125. 5:21way
126. 5:23um there's a lot of regret because I was
127. 5:27really hoping to
128. 5:30get a plea and
129. 5:32avoid talking about all of the things
130. 5:34that came out about him
131. 5:38um if we had been able to avoid trial we
132. 5:41could have
133. 5:43avoided just the murkier aspects of his
134. 5:45life that he kept hidden and these
135. 5:47aren't just things that came from my
136. 5:49mouth they're his own words his own
137. 5:51emails his own text
138. 5:52messages the activities that he was up
139. 5:55to photographs that show that as well
140. 5:59none of that ever would have come to
141. 6:00light it would have just been forgotten
142. 6:01and he would be memorialized
143. 6:04as um not perfect by any means but
144. 6:08somebody who was known to adhere to his
145. 6:11morals and the principles that he
146. 6:13espoused but
147. 6:16now the curtain has been drawn and you
148. 6:19can see the hypocrisy and everything
149. 6:21that was there and I regret that because
150. 6:23I know that even
151. 6:25though he was living the life of a
152. 6:28hypocrite that's not how he wanted
153. 6:29wanted to be perceived and I think
154. 6:31inside he really didn't want to live
155. 6:32that kind of
156. 6:34Life there were some parts of your story
157. 6:36that were definitely backed up by emails
158. 6:39and texts and phone conversations and
159. 6:41things like that but a lot of people had
160. 6:44real issues with the pedophilia when
161. 6:45that was brought up um how do you
162. 6:48respond to
163. 6:49that well again I mean he's fantasizing
164. 6:53about having sex with a 12-year-old on a
165. 6:56tape that's a pedophile by definition
166. 6:59let's go
167. 7:00forward it say you do get a long
168. 7:02sentence how are you going to spend your
169. 7:07life I haven't decided yet