I’ve changed almost everything about my life — Transcript

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1. 0:00I'm trying to get a visa for a country I
2. 0:01don't even want to live in. Two years
3. 0:03ago I quit my job, became a full-time
4. 0:04cloud chaser, and moved into a very
5. 0:06expensive white box. Now I know what
6. 0:08you're thinking. Why on earth would you
7. 0:09want to leave when you live in a premium
8. 0:11grade existential [music] container with
9. 0:13a piano and recently removed black mold?
10. 0:15The answer is simple. I'm catfished by
11. 0:17my own optimism. Every few years I
12. 0:19convince myself [music] another place is
13. 0:21the answer. Leaving the village, leaving
14. 0:23uni, moving to Brighton, moving to
15. 0:24London. I keep falling for my own sales
16. 0:27pitch and I've worked in sales. I know
17. 0:29I'm chatting At what point does
18. 0:30reinvention stop becoming exciting and
19. 0:32stop becoming avoidance? Every year I'm
20. 0:34convinced that happiness is hiding in a
21. 0:36new postcode or a new job or a new
22. 0:38hobby. I've done law, finance,
23. 0:40bodybuilding, sales, social media. If
24. 0:42reinvention [music] burned calories, I'd
25. 0:43have disintegrated by now. I thought a
26. 0:45relationship might solve the problem.
27. 0:47Then I got into one and realized the
28. 0:48problem is me. No matter where you go,
29. 0:50there you are. Mistaking novelty for
30. 0:52personal growth is like rearranging
31. 0:54furniture in a house [music] that's on
32. 0:55fire. Perhaps peace isn't something you
33. 0:57move towards, it's something you stop
34. 0:58moving away from. Because [music] no
35. 1:00matter how many times you change the
36. 1:01scenery, your inner monologue still gets
37. 1:03a vote. Winning.