I TRIED 30 DAYS OF S*MEN RETENTION... (educational experiment) — Transcript

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1. 0:00For the next 30 days, I am attempting
2. 0:01one of the most insane challenges I have
3. 0:04ever dared to try.
4. 0:05This has been a much harder day than all
5. 0:07the other days before. I want to punch a
6. 0:08hole in the wall.
7. 0:09This is a medical experiment conducted
8. 0:11by trained professionals here at Harvard
9. 0:13[music] University. Do not try this at
10. 0:15home. Very few men have successfully
11. 0:17completed this challenge, and we're
12. 0:18going to be taking on 30 days of semen
13. 0:20retention. Now, what's this challenge
14. 0:22about?
15. 0:22Not to be confused by no fap.
16. 0:25Please elaborate.
17. 0:26Everybody's talking about all these
18. 0:27amazing benefits.
19. 0:28Take control of your body. retention.
20. 0:30Yes,
21. 0:30people are addicted to it. It is the
22. 0:32modernday cigarettes. Why would somebody
23. 0:35want to do this?
24. 0:35I think I'm literally losing my mind.
25. 0:37Wish me luck cuz this is going to be
26. 0:38hard. Day 30. Please, please come
27. 0:42faster.
28. 0:442 hours until the challenge officially
29. 0:46commences. So, I'm going to make the
30. 0:47most of these last 2 hours.
31. 0:50[laughter]
32. 0:52That was so good. Was that as good for
33. 0:54you as it was for me?
34. 0:55Probably not.
35. 0:57We're one day in and Claudia's already
36. 0:59tormenting me. Not allowed. I'm in
37. 1:01retention mode. Stay on your side and
38. 1:03I'll stay on mine. Do you think I'm
39. 1:04going to make it 30 days?
40. 1:06Um, no. You said three or four times
41. 1:09that you [music] could just quit and
42. 1:11delete [laughter] the video
43. 1:12and get on with the business.
44. 1:13We're not letting that happen though. We
45. 1:15grinding this out. Day one. Let's go
46. 1:17over some stuff. Over the next 30 days,
47. 1:19I am expected to experience five new
48. 1:21amazing increases in my life. Those
49. 1:24being overall improved energy that I'm
50. 1:26looking forward to the most. An increase
51. 1:28in my total testosterone, thicker hair,
52. 1:31[music] greater muscle growth, and
53. 1:33overall
54. 1:35a better divine protein shake. God, that
55. 1:37is weird. Let the games begin. All
56. 1:39right, so we're heading in to go get my
57. 1:41blood work done to see what my
58. 1:42testosterone levels are at. Last time I
59. 1:44got it checked, I was at 440ish. So, I'm
60. 1:47doing a 30-day, it's going to sound
61. 1:49weird, retention challenge. It's going
62. 1:52to be very hard.
63. 1:54Pun no [laughter] pun intended.
64. 1:55Is there any sort of correlation between
65. 1:57[music] an ejaculation and testosterone
66. 2:00level?
67. 2:00I think it's going to go down.
68. 2:02Really? No way.
69. 2:03I hope it doesn't go down.
70. 2:04I mean, I'm going to be googling it. You
71. 2:05I mean, I'm going to be doing some
72. 2:06research.
73. 2:07Boys, we're getting our testosterone
74. 2:08checked right now. Damn, my blood's
75. 2:10filling up quick. All right, let's go.
76. 2:12Let's go. [laughter]
77. 2:15Day two of the retention challenge. I
78. 2:18took a flight all the way to Miami. The
79. 2:20number one place where there is zero
80. 2:21retention being done. I am not by my
81. 2:23girlfriend. So, the only enemy this week
82. 2:26is my left hand.
83. 2:27Let me show you what I want to do right
84. 2:28now.
85. 2:31Do you get it? Do you understand? All
86. 2:33right, it's starting to kick in. It's
87. 2:35time to meditate to get my brain off
88. 2:36this because day three I'm starting to
89. 2:39have withdrawals. What I'm doing is I do
90. 2:417 seconds in, 4 second hold, and 8
91. 2:43second out. I'm not going to lie, I feel
92. 2:46absolutely amazing. If you're like me
93. 2:47and you have a lot of anxiety and you're
94. 2:49very antsy and your brain is always
95. 2:51racing, I highly recommend you try out
96. 2:53some meditation. It's a really good way
97. 2:55to get your mind off of things and just
98. 2:57relax.
99. 2:58Listen, boys. I had the urge to do you
100. 3:00know what myself and the best way to do
101. 3:02it is hop in a nice brisk cold shower.
102. 3:05Day four. It's getting harder. I'm not
103. 3:07kidding. It's starting to kick in. Like
104. 3:08my mind just playing games. Let's do it,
105. 3:11boys. You got to lose full send it. Oh
106. 3:13god. Oh, even after being in the sun all
107. 3:16day. Retention. Retention. Retention.
108. 3:18Okay. I will make it to day 30. I
109. 3:22promise you that.
110. 3:24Do you think men over sexualize and over
111. 3:26objectify women by the [music] male
112. 3:28gaze?
113. 3:29Yes.
114. 3:29Especially in the gym.
115. 3:30Especially in the gym.
116. 3:31Yes. 100%.
117. 3:32I am on a journey to change that. I'm in
118. 3:34a gym right now that's empty. There is
119. 3:36no distractions. And it shows you that
120. 3:38when you have no distractions, you can
121. 3:39work harder. If you're someone that
122. 3:40lacks motivation or you lack you lack
123. 3:42the discipline to not stay focused, that
124. 3:44could be your problem. It could be
125. 3:45scrolling social media on Tik Tok seeing
126. 3:47girls or it [music] could be that fact
127. 3:48that you're having a male gaze and
128. 3:50you're looking at women around you and
129. 3:51you're overly sexualizing them. So
130. 3:53that's why this challenge it might
131. 3:55change that. Very interesting. I feel
132. 3:56like Dr. Phil. What I find crazy is that
133. 3:59for years I created this horrible habit
134. 4:02that before my shower I would do some
135. 4:05something. Okay, we'll just say
136. 4:06something. You guys know exactly what
137. 4:07I'm talking about. When I come back from
138. 4:09the gym and I'm about to shower right
139. 4:10now, my brain immediately goes click
140. 4:12right to that habit. It's important to
141. 4:13challenge yourself and have
142. 4:14self-discipline. It takes time. It takes
143. 4:16willpower. And the second you start
144. 4:18thinking about it is the second you have
145. 4:19to realize, I'm breaking the chain and
146. 4:22I'm creating a new one somewhere else
147. 4:24that is going to be better. Your mind is
148. 4:25a game, baby. We must conquer and win
149. 4:27it. I am currently on day seven of
150. 4:30retention. Okay, that was not epic
151. 4:32enough.
152. 4:34Day seven.
153. 4:37Okay, that was better. All right, so
154. 4:38boys and girls, now the challenge is
155. 4:41about to get a lot harder now that I'm
156. 4:42around Claudia again. Claudia insisted
157. 4:44on giving me my oneyear anniversary
158. 4:47gift. We have something that is going to
159. 4:49make this challenge probably even more
160. 4:51difficult.
161. 4:52It's a phone case, but has me with my
162. 4:54bigies on it. [laughter]
163. 4:56Our 1year anniversary lines up during
164. 4:58the challenge.
165. 4:59You can do it. You just can't finish.
166. 5:02That is terrible. I'm struggling. Being
167. 5:04home with Claudia is not making things
168. 5:07easy. I want to end this challenge like
169. 5:09now. Day seven. Things are getting
170. 5:11harder. Literally.
171. 5:13Oh my god. Stop.
172. 5:15I'm just being honest. On a positive
173. 5:16note, the original testosterone test
174. 5:18results come in in just a few days. So,
175. 5:20we'll have the numbers of the comparison
176. 5:22from the before and after coming very
177. 5:24soon. I'm super stoked for that.
178. 5:26Overall, motivation's high, dedication's
179. 5:28high right now. I think being able to
180. 5:29see the end goal get closer and closer
181. 5:31is huge. I have been the most consistent
182. 5:33I have in a very long time when it comes
183. 5:35to training. I look the best I ever have
184. 5:36and that is all because my mental
185. 5:38discipline is definitely a lot better.
186. 5:40Listen guys, I want success so badly and
187. 5:42you guys know I'm 100% about working
188. 5:44harder than ever. I am taking this
189. 5:46challenge so serious. Sometimes you need
190. 5:47a reset in things to be able to get to
191. 5:49the next level in life to elevate and to
192. 5:51prove to yourself that you are worthy of
193. 5:53all the goals that you want to reach in
194. 5:55the future. You got to work for it.
195. 5:57Cardio is a hassle. Getting leaner is a
196. 5:59hassle. But I'm going to do it because I
197. 6:01know it's going to help me in the
198. 6:02future. This is all about
199. 6:03self-improvement here. I literally
200. 6:05almost lost the challenge just moments
201. 6:06ago. It's the first time we're feeling
202. 6:08this all week. And just know that day
203. 6:10seven, this has been a much harder day
204. 6:13than all the other days before.
205. 6:17It is very uncomfortable. I'll give you
206. 6:19that. I made a rookie mistake. Can't
207. 6:21give in that easy. Day eight.
208. 6:24Okay, I'm on my way to the gym and I
209. 6:25needed to say this. I need to [music]
210. 6:27get off my chest. That was painful last
211. 6:29night. It hurt really bad. I am starting
212. 6:31to feel the retention kick in. We're
213. 6:34going to go take it out on the weights
214. 6:35in the gym [music] and see how good it
215. 6:37actually feels training when I feel this
216. 6:39retention. I [music] am an animal right
217. 6:41now. Okay, I hit a PR 315 [music] for
218. 6:4513. My testosterone is supposed to be
219. 6:47peaking right now and that felt easy. So
220. 6:49maybe maybe I think it's safe to say
221. 6:52things have kicked in.
222. 6:58[laughter]
223. 6:59[music]
224. 7:02What?
225. 7:03You're sucking on that like you want
226. 7:05something out of it.
227. 7:07Babe, we're going into a gym and you're
228. 7:09getting me excited.
229. 7:10Technically, you can still do anything
230. 7:12with me.
231. 7:14Yeah.
232. 7:17[music]
233. 7:23[music]
234. 7:27All right. Something I have noticed
235. 7:29after my workouts, I don't know if it's
236. 7:30my dieting, the extra cardio, or it's
237. 7:33the retention, I feel a sort of angry
238. 7:36like like I have this like underlying
239. 7:42buildup of emotion. See, that annoys the
240. 7:44hell of me right now. But every little
241. 7:45thing, I want to punch a hole in the
242. 7:47wall. I'm not normally like this, so
243. 7:48it's kind of weird. Something's causing
244. 7:50that, and I don't know what. But yeah,
245. 7:52I'm just pretty annoyed. Day 11. still
246. 7:56experiencing honestly
247. 7:59some anger. All right, I'm using it
248. 8:01towards my advantage and taking out on
249. 8:03the weights, but every little thing is
250. 8:05still bothering me. So hopefully this
251. 8:08doesn't keep up or interfere with
252. 8:09anything. We'll have to find out.
253. 8:11Yesterday I was 99% on my way to fail
254. 8:14this challenge. It was like go time. I'm
255. 8:16running my marathon. Okay, I was right
256. 8:18at the finish line and I'm like, wo. But
257. 8:20I got so close to absolutely destroying
258. 8:23this challenge and I did it and I'm so
259. 8:25proud of that. Most men out there, they
260. 8:26are not they're not stopping. I'm in
261. 8:28Texas right now at Alpha Land. Claudia
262. 8:31is not here. The only way I foresee
263. 8:32myself failing this is probably because
264. 8:34of my girlfriend, [music] but I'm going
265. 8:36to do everything in my power to not let
266. 8:37that happen. But overall, I feel good.
267. 8:39My mental clarity is back on point. I
268. 8:40was feeling angry the past few days. I
269. 8:42am sexually frustrated. Okay, there it
270. 8:44is. I just want to update you guys that
271. 8:46I have been the most disciplined with my
272. 8:48diet, training, filming, everything. And
273. 8:51especially before this, I felt like I
274. 8:53was hitting a little bit of a rut. It
275. 8:54feels so good to have [music] like my
276. 8:56head on straight right now and to be
277. 8:57able to make so much progress because of
278. 9:00this challenge in place. And it does not
279. 9:02let you steer off that road. Ladies and
280. 9:04gentlemen, we have made it to the 14day
281. 9:08marker of semen retention. This is huge.
282. 9:11One of the biggest things that I have
283. 9:12noticed is that I no longer have to take
284. 9:13cold showers. I don't have to meditate.
285. 9:15I'm able to conquer these feelings. And
286. 9:18it's not so much of a challenge anymore,
287. 9:19but more of a habit now. And tomorrow we
288. 9:22get day one's results of my testosterone
289. 9:24to see our starting point. All right.
290. 9:25I've just discovered that I want to end
291. 9:28this challenge at 20 days.
292. 9:30You're a loser.
293. 9:31Joey has been egging me on.
294. 9:33What?
295. 9:34A Joey. Joey, what
296. 9:36do you think about this?
297. 9:37I think that's that's like STOP. STOP.
298. 9:40NO. WHAT ARE YOU DOING? [laughter]
299. 9:44I want one thing and one thing only.
300. 9:47What?
301. 9:48You know exactly what I want.
302. 9:50God help me. I'd be lying to you if I
303. 9:52told you that I'm having a good day.
304. 9:54This is the worst day I've had in
305. 9:55probably a full-on year.
306. 9:57I could either do the dirty deed or I
307. 9:58can go fap and in seconds I'll feel a
308. 10:00little bit better or I can go eat a
309. 10:01really big cheat meal and feel better.
310. 10:03But one of the greatest parts about this
311. 10:05challenge is rewiring my brain to not be
312. 10:08dopamine dependent because I'm in
313. 10:10control and not my addiction to
314. 10:11dopamine. I just left the gym and I want
315. 10:13to open up to you guys about my mental
316. 10:15health scenario. Okay, I feel like
317. 10:18lately so much anxiety has been inside
318. 10:21of me the past few weeks feeling
319. 10:23overwhelmed and overworked and just not
320. 10:25feeling okay at all. So, I'm just
321. 10:28looking forward to this challenge being
322. 10:29over. I'm just going to push through to
323. 10:30the end of the month. I'm going to get
324. 10:31through this challenge and then I'm
325. 10:32going to be done. And I cannot wait for
326. 10:34that day. All right, we are in life med
327. 10:36about to get the round one results of my
328. 10:39testosterone. I definitely think that
329. 10:40there's a big change coming. So, day 30.
330. 10:42Hopefully, our testosterone is higher.
331. 10:44Hopefully, there's better blood work.
332. 10:46I'm healthier. And we'll see if
333. 10:48retention really works. Okay. So, I need
334. 10:50to know my testosterone results.
335. 10:52Okay.
336. 10:53Have you looked at them yet?
337. 10:53I have.
338. 10:54Oh, you have?
339. 10:54I just looked at it.
340. 10:55Oh god.
341. 10:57Yeah.
342. 10:57Oh my god. Don't give me that look. Let
343. 10:59me hear the numbers. I I don't even want
344. 11:00to look. Okay. So, total testosterone.
345. 11:02We know that's all the testosterone you
346. 11:04have in your body.
347. 11:05I'm nervous.
348. 11:06Total testosterone. Our range is 250
349. 11:08to,100. We're at 476.
350. 11:10That's up. That's up 20. That's up 20.
351. 11:13Let's go.
352. 11:14But then we go to
353. 11:15the free test. What matters.
354. 11:16Yeah.
355. 11:17Right.
356. 11:17So, free 46 to 224 is the range. You're
357. 11:20at 40.7.
358. 11:22The last time [music] you were at 61.
359. 11:24Really?
360. 11:25Yeah. So, you came down a little bit
361. 11:26and came down. And then the
362. 11:27bioavailable, again, just another form
363. 11:29of the active form of testosterone,
364. 11:3290.8. [music]
365. 11:33The range is 110 to 575. The last time
366. 11:37available was 130.
367. 11:40What the hell's going on?
368. 11:41Well, you heard it here first. We're at
369. 11:42a 476
370. 11:45total test and a whopping
371. 11:4840.7
372. 11:50free test. Okay, so we know that my
373. 11:53testosterone is low and I'm going to say
374. 11:55I'm worried that this challenge is going
375. 11:56to leave me with less testosterone than
376. 11:58when I started. I've been dieting
377. 11:59obviously and I've been working harder
378. 12:00than ever, but I feel like that's almost
379. 12:02counterintuitive. I tried to do more and
380. 12:04get better throughout this month. By
381. 12:06doing that, I have less sex drive than
382. 12:08I've had in a very long time. So, I have
383. 12:10a feeling
384. 12:12that my numbers might get worse. I've
385. 12:13just been so focused on things that my
386. 12:15mind has not been in that very sexual
387. 12:17manner. So, we shall see. Bro,
388. 12:19you got a haircut.
389. 12:20Today's a big day.
390. 12:21That's nice.
391. 12:22Not because of the haircut.
392. 12:23Why?
393. 12:243 weeks on retention, baby. [laughter]
394. 12:27Let's go. I'm suffering. I don't know
395. 12:30how people wait until marriage to do the
396. 12:32dirty.
397. 12:32I don't think I've went 30 days in my
398. 12:33life.
399. 12:34You're actually doing it.
400. 12:35Yeah, I'm literally actually doing it. I
401. 12:36don't know how.
402. 12:37It's really hard.
403. 12:38Did your girl grow?
404. 12:39No, dude. I feel like they kind of got
405. 12:41smaller. [laughter]
406. 12:43I'll have the the doctor measure them
407. 12:45when on day 30.
408. 12:46Oh, that's great. Yeah.
409. 12:47Yeah.
410. 12:48Yeah. I don't think they make rollers
411. 12:49that small.
412. 12:51Damn. In the past few days, I've noticed
413. 12:53an absolute surge of energy. It could be
414. 12:55testosterone. I'm on week three now. I
415. 12:57would expect some sort of increase by
416. 12:59now. I've been waking up at 6:00 6:30
417. 13:01a.m. on my own before my alarm and I'm
418. 13:03like ready to go right away in two
419. 13:05different ways. Something in my head has
420. 13:07clicked and I'm working harder than
421. 13:10ever. We're going into the last week
422. 13:11nice and strong.
423. 13:14I'm going to finish this bad boy. On top
424. 13:15of all that, I've been doing my cardio
425. 13:17first thing in the morning as well and
426. 13:18getting it over with. And I've been
427. 13:19upping my cardio at a total of 40
428. 13:21minutes. So, for me to be on this deep
429. 13:23of a diet, this shredded right now and
430. 13:25feel this good, something is working. My
431. 13:27overall motivation to do the dirty deed
432. 13:29is definitely going down. I started off
433. 13:31in the beginning wanting to do it a lot
434. 13:33and craving it, but now I feel like it's
435. 13:35not even a part of my life. And I
436. 13:36mentioned this before, [music]
437. 13:38but I absolutely miss that part of my
438. 13:40relationship. What I mean by this is the
439. 13:43urge to do the dirty deed is not there
440. 13:45like it once was because of this
441. 13:47challenge and I'm not chasing that
442. 13:49dopamine spike. But the bad thing about
443. 13:51that is that there's a missing piece of
444. 13:53my relationship that isn't being
445. 13:55fulfilled. It's more than just a good
446. 13:57feeling for a moment. It's an actual
447. 13:59connection and spiritual like feeling
448. 14:01between two [music] people. And I just
449. 14:03cannot wait for day 30 so that way I can
450. 14:05have that back. And I'm sure Claudia
451. 14:07wants that too, but I'm not going to
452. 14:08speak for her. Okay, this challenge
453. 14:11sucks. I'm not going to lie to you. Day
454. 14:1330. Please, please come faster. And I
455. 14:17mean that two ways. Day 30, baby. We
456. 14:22finishing the challenge. Ladies and
457. 14:23gentlemen, we're getting the final blood
458. 14:25test right now to see if my testosterone
459. 14:27is raging through the roof. I believe it
460. 14:29is. Watch it go down.
461. 14:35Still hurts like the first time. Damn,
462. 14:36that was a thicker needle than last
463. 14:38time, but like Testosterone.
464. 14:40My testosterone definitely went down. I
465. 14:42feel vibrations in my arm. The
466. 14:44testosterone is trying to get out. So
467. 14:46much pent up [music] energy.
468. 14:49There we go. I feel cool. Like you know
469. 14:51when you like get a tattoo and you feel
470. 14:53cool after. It's like one of those
471. 14:54feelings. Do you think I'm going to have
472. 14:55a better result or a worse result?
473. 14:56It goes down when you don't really. It's
474. 14:58Oh my god.
475. 14:59Goes up.
476. 15:00Only time will tell.
477. 15:07Dear retention, [music]
478. 15:08I'm sorry I have to tell you this over a
479. 15:10letter, but I think we need to end
480. 15:13things. I don't think we're good
481. 15:14together. Every day I wake up, it's the
482. 15:16same thing. I just can't get you off my
483. 15:18mind. I try to [music] distract myself
484. 15:20with some good sugary sweetness, but the
485. 15:22donuts just remind me of you. The only
486. 15:24[music] choice I have is to finish this
487. 15:26challenge, move on, cuz I can't do this
488. 15:28anymore. It's just too hard. So, day 30,
489. 15:32I'm coming for you. Sincerely, Jesse
490. 15:35James West.
491. 15:38Luckily, we got to day 30 quicker than I
492. 15:40knew it. And I could feel something was
493. 15:41happening to me. [music] Over the past
494. 15:4230 days, I've challenged myself mentally
495. 15:44and physically more than I ever have in
496. 15:46my entire.
497. 15:47Yes, this is Jesse.
498. 15:49Hi, this is Erica from LifeMed. How are
499. 15:51you?
500. 15:51I am good. I'm good.
501. 15:52All right. So, on day one, your total
502. 15:54testosterone was 476.
503. 15:57Okay. On day one, your free testosterone
504. 15:59was 40.7.
505. 16:02Okay.
506. 16:02With every moment that you work hard,
507. 16:04you gain something even better. It was
508. 16:06my time to rise and shine.
509. 16:08On day 30, your total testosterone is
510. 16:11573
511. 16:13and your free testosterone is 56.8.
512. 16:16Let's go. It went up. Let's go. I raised
513. 16:19my testosterone naturally. [music]
514. 16:30Subscribe and don't forget to stay
515. 16:32relentless. Peace.
516. 16:34I
517. 16:34think I'm drive I'm driving the wrong
518. 16:36way. Oh my god. I might be an animal,
519. 16:38but I'm also an idiot. Okay. Gotta go.