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1. 0:00Yo, what's good y'all, man? So, um this
2. 0:03is genuinely going to be my last video
3. 0:04ever like this. I'm never going to make
4. 0:06a video like this again, but
5. 0:08you know,
6. 0:10uh obviously you guys know what's all
7. 0:11going on. You guys saw me getting
8. 0:13arrested. You guys saw Cole Blues video
9. 0:16and everything.
10. 0:17And um I did a reaction to it kind of
11. 0:21like, "Oh, no, this wasn't right. This
12. 0:22is how it happened. Da da da da da da."
13. 0:24But, genuinely during the last few
14. 0:27weeks, I've done a lot of just like
15. 0:29inward reflection. And I've been talking
16. 0:31to my fiance a lot. And I just kind of
17. 0:34came to realize, you know, what I was
18. 0:36doing was what I was doing wrong. And
19. 0:39also came to realize that truly your boy
20. 0:41was spiraling, you know, um I was
21. 0:44genuinely genuinely genuinely losing the
22. 0:46plot. And I have to say like genuinely,
23. 0:50I feel like a hypocrite, you know, cuz
24. 0:52just a couple of videos ago, I was
25. 0:54saying how what Alex was doing was a
26. 0:57distraction from the bigger mission. And
27. 0:59then I come along doing what I was
28. 1:02doing. And
29. 1:04if anything, it was a even bigger
30. 1:06distraction from the mission, you know
31. 1:07what I mean? Now, I had to pay six plus
32. 1:11figures for my lawyer fees and then my
33. 1:14fans' lawyer fees and everything. And
34. 1:16that money could have been used for the
35. 1:18betterment of society, but now it's
36. 1:21being used in the legal system, you know
37. 1:23what I mean? And it's just completely
38. 1:26unnecessary and it's completely my
39. 1:28fault. And while I still don't think I
40. 1:30committed a crime, I still do think
41. 1:33that, you know, genuinely I was just
42. 1:36being not only just
43. 1:38an ass, but annoying. And
44. 1:42I've come to realize that, you know,
45. 1:43genuinely streaming makes me the worst
46. 1:47me, you know? Thinking back on it, every
47. 1:50{quote} {unquote} controversy, not even
48. 1:52{quote} {unquote}, every controversy and
49. 1:55everything that I've ever gotten into,
50. 1:57anytime I
51. 1:58trended on Twitter for something
52. 1:59negative, it's always been for some
53. 2:01shaming clip, you know, like the first
54. 2:03one that comes to mind is the Pokimane
55. 2:05situation. Then the second one that
56. 2:07comes to mind is, you know, the Logan
57. 2:09Paul thing.
58. 2:11And then, besides all that, like, bro,
59. 2:13I've been in countless beefs, and a
60. 2:16majority, I would say probably like 85%
61. 2:19of those beefs have come from shaming,
62. 2:22you know? And I think what it is
63. 2:24genuinely is, you know,
64. 2:26I don't think it's a good thing to just
65. 2:27look at a chat for hours on end, and
66. 2:30you're just like in real time getting
67. 2:33opinions of people, and then, you know,
68. 2:36I I know I probably some of my other
69. 2:38streamers can attest to this, you know,
70. 2:39you see somebody in the chat say,
71. 2:41"Boring." or "L stream." or something
72. 2:43like that, and then it flips a switch in
73. 2:45you where you want to be more
74. 2:47entertaining, and you want to, you know,
75. 2:50pump up the levels and everything, and
76. 2:52you want to entertain. And I think the
77. 2:53reason why I gravitated so much to
78. 2:55streaming is because
79. 2:57I think I'm just like a instant
80. 3:00gratification person, and there's no
81. 3:02better instant gratification than you
82. 3:05streaming. Because when you make a
83. 3:06video, you don't get that instant
84. 3:08gratification. You can know you made a
85. 3:09fire video, kind of like my uh going to
86. 3:12the most racist town in America video.
87. 3:14Like, I know that was a fire video, but
88. 3:16it took like a month plus to get it
89. 3:19edited and perfect. And then, when I
90. 3:22posted it, you know, it didn't pop off
91. 3:25at first. It was actually a 10 out of
92. 3:2710, and then over time it grew and grew
93. 3:29and grew, and it did what I thought it
94. 3:31was going to do, but it wasn't instant
95. 3:32gratification. Whereas, when you stream,
96. 3:35you know, you can have streams where
97. 3:36right out the gate you have, you know,
98. 3:39thousand, tens of thousands, or even
99. 3:41hundreds of thousands of people watching
100. 3:43you then and there, and then people are
101. 3:44clipping you like right away and stuff
102. 3:47like that, and you get that instant
103. 3:48gratification. But, I'm realizing that's
104. 3:50not good for me, you know what I mean?
105. 3:53I'm not saying it's bad for everybody
106. 3:54because you got people like Caso and
107. 3:57Jynxzi and a bunch of other streamers
108. 3:59who can stream and not, you know, cause
109. 4:02any controversies and just keep
110. 4:04entertaining. But, you know, genuinely
111. 4:06I'm just I'm not that guy, pal. I'mma be
112. 4:08real. And so, [clears throat] like, I'm
113. 4:11not on here, you know, apologizing or
114. 4:13anything because I don't owe you guys an
115. 4:15apology. You know what I mean? Like, I
116. 4:17didn't affect any of y'all. But, I do
117. 4:20want to say that I see where I was wrong
118. 4:23a thousand percent. And to the people I
119. 4:25do owe an apology to, you know, I've
120. 4:27given them to them, you know, to the
121. 4:29boys who got arrested. Uh
122. 4:32Uh they're all 18-plus, by the way. I
123. 4:34know a lot of people were saying that
124. 4:35they were minors. They're all 18-plus,
125. 4:36but still, you know,
126. 4:38I put them in that situation and they
127. 4:40didn't have to be. And at the end of the
128. 4:42day, I shouldn't have ever been there,
129. 4:43you know? Um with my values as a
130. 4:46Christian, I haven't been moving like
131. 4:48that, man. And I've been falling back to
132. 4:51my old self. And
133. 4:53I've seen some of you guys in the
134. 4:54comment section like calling it out
135. 4:56like, "Jideon, you're going back to your
136. 4:58old self." You know what I mean? Da da
137. 4:59da. Like, dibbling and dabbling in
138. 5:01pranks and stuff like that. And, you
139. 5:03know, even though, you know, Joe wasn't
140. 5:05doing a good thing by squatting at his
141. 5:07mom's house and stuff like that. You
142. 5:09know, at the end of the day, who am I to
143. 5:12just, you know, troll and stuff? I have
144. 5:15so many other better things I should be
145. 5:17doing. Like, that time and money I spent
146. 5:19getting that stream set up could have
147. 5:20been
148. 5:21for a bunch of catches, you know what I
149. 5:24mean? Getting bad people off the
150. 5:25streets.
151. 5:26And so, what I'm here to just pretty
152. 5:28much say is the shenanigans are
153. 5:30stopping. The shenanigans are over. And
154. 5:33genuinely, genuinely, like,
155. 5:36this was a very humbling experience that
156. 5:39I really needed.
157. 5:41And I genuinely think if this didn't
158. 5:43happen, um it just would have continued,
159. 5:46you know what I mean? And who knows, it
160. 5:47could have been something worse. It
161. 5:49could have been something horrible that
162. 5:51I could never come back from, you know
163. 5:53what I mean? So, I'm just blessed that
164. 5:55God let it be something like this, you
165. 5:57know? That I put myself in a situation
166. 5:59like this to where I can actually
167. 6:02rebound and do better.
168. 6:04And, you know what? You genuinely, to
169. 6:06the Woodhaven Police Department, I see
170. 6:08where you guys are coming from, you
171. 6:10know? Like, bro, you're a small town and
172. 6:13you got this YouTuber having fans coming
173. 6:16all over the place and stuff like that,
174. 6:17you know? You guys have never probably
175. 6:19had anything like that happen in your
176. 6:20town before.
177. 6:21And, you know, quiet towns like to stay
178. 6:23quiet. And, you know, to Officer
179. 6:26Mitchell, you know, I called you out of
180. 6:27your name multiple times, you feel me?
181. 6:30Like, if I was a cop, I would arrest
182. 6:33somebody, too, if I was getting called
183. 6:34out of my name like that, so.
184. 6:37Genuinely, I feel like there's a lot of
185. 6:39blame to go around and I feel like a lot
186. 6:41of the blame has to be pointed right
187. 6:43back at me. It has to be directed at me
188. 6:46and it rightfully so, man, you know,
189. 6:48bro? I'm getting spammed up with I'm a
190. 6:50multimillionaire
191. 6:52and, you know, genuinely, like, bro,
192. 6:55keep it coming. Keep it coming.
193. 6:57Genuinely, it doesn't It doesn't bother
194. 6:58me like that because
195. 7:01it humbled me. It humbled me. The whole
196. 7:02situation humbled me and I'm just The
197. 7:06reason why I titled the video what I
198. 7:08titled it is because
199. 7:10I'm never going to stream again, you
200. 7:12know? Genuinely, you know, I love
201. 7:14streaming, but it's just too much bad
202. 7:17comes with it and I don't know how to
203. 7:19control myself. And so, the best way to
204. 7:21control myself is to distance myself.
205. 7:24And so, I just can't stream anymore and
206. 7:27I won't stream anymore because I
207. 7:29actually want to be here for the
208. 7:30betterment of society.
209. 7:32And what I was doing during that stream
210. 7:34wasn't for the betterment of society.
211. 7:35Now, police resources are being wasted
212. 7:39and judicial resources are being wasted
213. 7:41and bro, I've dropped six plus figures
214. 7:45on fighting this legally. You know what
215. 7:47I mean? And it's just all just
216. 7:49unnecessary
217. 7:51garbage. And it was garbage content,
218. 7:53too.
219. 7:54And the craziest thing is is, you know,
220. 7:57from 2024 to now, I was making good
221. 8:00content, getting actual bad people off
222. 8:03the streets. And it's just crazy that I
223. 8:08told myself that wasn't enough, you
224. 8:09know? And I think it's just, you know,
225. 8:11kind of just seeing all my friends, you
226. 8:13know, like seeing Canel do his thing
227. 8:15with streaming, seeing Kai, seeing
228. 8:18people I know like Speed and all of them
229. 8:20doing their thing with streaming, and
230. 8:21it's like, "Oh, man, you know, I'm like,
231. 8:23I want to go back. I want to go back."
232. 8:25And it's like I'm tempting myself, and
233. 8:26then I always just like go back into the
234. 8:29streaming stuff when really, I should
235. 8:31have left that alone because you guys
236. 8:33remember the video where I said that I
237. 8:35was done bothering society. And bro,
238. 8:38look at what I was doing. Just bothering
239. 8:40society, being a nuisance, you know what
240. 8:42I mean? And I was blessed to find
241. 8:44something that wasn't nuisance, you
242. 8:46know, actually cleaning up the streets,
243. 8:48getting predators off the streets. And
244. 8:50instead of just sticking with that and
245. 8:51doing that, I got distracted, and I got
246. 8:54greedy, and I wanted to go back into
247. 8:56doing, you know, slop content. And you
248. 9:00know, genuinely, genuinely, I don't
249. 9:02think if I
250. 9:03went through the situation, I think I
251. 9:05would have kept on making the slop
252. 9:06content, and genuinely, I think
253. 9:09if I would have kept on making the slop
254. 9:10content, who knows? I could have
255. 9:12affected somebody seriously, like where
256. 9:15it would be irreparable and couldn't be
257. 9:17fixed.
258. 9:18So,
259. 9:20I quit
260. 9:22streaming, I quit nuisance stuff, I quit
261. 9:25all that, and I genuinely just want to
262. 9:29do good for society. I want to make
263. 9:31society better. And that's what I'm
264. 9:33going to do. So, I just came out here to
265. 9:35say that. And one other thing I've also
266. 9:38realized is, bro, I'mma be real, y'all.
267. 9:40You know, I got a
268. 9:42I don't know, man. It's like I got a
269. 9:43temper on me. I really do. And people
270. 9:45that watch my streams, you guys see it
271. 9:48all the time where it's like I get
272. 9:49triggered, you know what I mean? And
273. 9:51it's like, bro, the officers were just
274. 9:53doing their jobs and I was just getting
275. 9:54triggered and I was acting like a Karen.
276. 9:56You know, I had a Karen moment. Feel
277. 9:58like we're all due for a Karen moment,
278. 10:00but you know, mine was on camera and
279. 10:03luckily, you know, I feel like we all go
280. 10:06through moments like this in life. Not
281. 10:07like mine, but we all go through a
282. 10:08moments like this in life where we're
283. 10:10not our best self.
284. 10:12But, you know, not everybody has their
285. 10:13best self put on camera to millions of
286. 10:15people.
287. 10:16And genuinely, I wish everybody could
288. 10:20have that experience because
289. 10:22when you have that happen, it makes you
290. 10:25do reflection. And so, you know what?
291. 10:29Weirdly enough, bro, I want to go back
292. 10:30to Woodhaven and I want to catch a prep
293. 10:33there. I want to actually have a good
294. 10:34relationship in that city. Uh if you
295. 10:37guys are still calling them or causing
296. 10:39them any ruckus or anything, please
297. 10:41stop. Do not do that on my behalf. Do
298. 10:43not Just do not do that at all, man. You
299. 10:45know, they're actually out there
300. 10:46protecting and serving. And it's a quiet
301. 10:47neighborhood, you know what I mean? And
302. 10:50I made it not quiet. I'll be honest.
303. 10:53And this This isn't any PR damage or
304. 10:56anything because, you know, I'mma be
305. 10:57real with you guys, genuinely, like
306. 11:00the situation
307. 11:02didn't affect anything, you know, if I
308. 11:05was clout demoning off of it, I would
309. 11:06have just been like, "Oh, yeah." Like
310. 11:08kind of like what I was doing before,
311. 11:09you know, making jokes about it and
312. 11:11stuff like that. But now I'm realizing
313. 11:13that I don't want to do this, you know,
314. 11:14I don't
315. 11:16I want to mature. I want to actually I
316. 11:18was maturing then I let myself regress
317. 11:21and now I want [snorts] to keep on
318. 11:23maturing and I want to move on from
319. 11:24this. And just cuz I want to move on
320. 11:27from it doesn't mean you guys have to
321. 11:28move on for it. I really don't care what
322. 11:29you guys do because, like I was saying
323. 11:31earlier,
324. 11:32I realized I have a fragile ego, bro. I
325. 11:35have a fragile fragile ego where like I
326. 11:37let comments and things people say
327. 11:41affect me. And so, I saw something that
328. 11:44Scarlett Johansson said, and it's crazy.
329. 11:46Like she also said that she has a
330. 11:48fragile ego. So, the way she combats it
331. 11:50is she just doesn't read comments about
332. 11:52herself.
333. 11:53And I realized like
334. 11:55the last couple days, I feel like the
335. 11:56reason why I got to this point is
336. 11:58because I haven't been reading comments.
337. 12:00It's because I haven't been looking at
338. 12:01videos about me talking about the
339. 12:03situation. And it's letting me come to a
340. 12:05more clearer view because I feel like if
341. 12:07I was watching that content, you know,
342. 12:10you guys see me react to
343. 12:12peop- other people talking about me, you
344. 12:13know, I get all riled up and stuff like
345. 12:15that. And it's like, bro, why am I
346. 12:16triggering myself? You know, no one told
347. 12:19me to react to these videos and stuff
348. 12:20like that or anything, you know. And so,
349. 12:24like when I post this video, I'm not
350. 12:26going to read comments or anything. This
351. 12:28isn't for any damage control stuff. So,
352. 12:29you guys can say whatever you want in
353. 12:31the comments. I'm not going to read it
354. 12:33because I'mma be real, I can't handle
355. 12:35it. But you know what I can handle? I
356. 12:36can handle these preds and I can handle
357. 12:39making a difference in society. And
358. 12:41that's what I'mma keep on doing.
359. 12:43And um yeah, so I guess you know what? I
360. 12:46do want to say one thing. I do want to
361. 12:48apologize for one thing, and that is I
362. 12:50apologize for the distractions. I
363. 12:52apologize for the slop content, and I
364. 12:54apologize for
365. 12:57pretty much forgetting about the
366. 12:58mission, you know what I mean?
367. 13:00Um this mission is so much more
368. 13:02important than that slop content that I
369. 13:04was posting.
370. 13:06And so, yeah, uh that's pretty much all
371. 13:09I got to say. Uh
372. 13:11we're going to be back on the mission.
373. 13:12We're going to be posting the prey
374. 13:13catches. And we're going to be going
375. 13:15forward and doing our thing with a
376. 13:17higher velocity and with a higher uh
377. 13:20ferocity. I think that's the word I was
378. 13:22looking for.
379. 13:23And so,
380. 13:25I appreciate you guys, man. Um if you
381. 13:27guys have no idea what's going on with
382. 13:29this, go check out Cold Blues video and
383. 13:31you guys can see me getting arrested and
384. 13:32stuff. That pretty much breaks down the
385. 13:34whole thing. But, we're on to better
386. 13:36things. Well, let me rephrase that. I'm
387. 13:38on to better things. I'm on to just
388. 13:40doing
389. 13:41pretty much the status quo, the usual,
390. 13:45catching preds and posting it, and then
391. 13:47dipping off. And you guys are going to
392. 13:48see like I'm going to
393. 13:51If you guys see me raging in the prey
394. 13:53catch or whatever, it's probably uh
395. 13:56a old one, but I'm going to be watching
396. 13:58myself even while I'm dealing with
397. 13:59police. Like if a police officer isn't
398. 14:01taking our evidence seriously, it's
399. 14:03like, bro, being calm, cool, and
400. 14:05collected is way better than
401. 14:10having a screaming match and stuff like
402. 14:12that. And, you know, the Bible says, "Be
403. 14:15harmless as a dove and wise as a
404. 14:16serpent." And I haven't been moving like
405. 14:18that. But, I've been yapping now. I
406. 14:20really don't got anything else to say.
407. 14:22That's all I got to say, man. So, I
408. 14:24appreciate you guys. And no more slop
409. 14:27content, no more streams. So, if you
410. 14:29guys have been enjoying the streams, no
411. 14:31more, man. It's just going to be
412. 14:33straight prey content and nothing
413. 14:35[clears throat] else, man. You guys
414. 14:37don't need to know about my life, you
415. 14:38know what I mean? Cuz at the end of the
416. 14:39day, I don't know anything about your
417. 14:40guys' lives. You feel me? And
418. 14:44you know, I'm not in charge of your
419. 14:46guys' entertainment. The only thing I'm
420. 14:48in charge with is trying to get as many
421. 14:50preds as I can as possible. That's it.
422. 14:53You know, I'm not here to make you
423. 14:54laugh. I'm not here to like, you know,
424. 14:57I'm not here to do any of that. And I
425. 14:59realize that now, you know, I'm not the
426. 15:01same Judeon. And I was trying to go back
427. 15:03to be the old Judeon, trying to go back
428. 15:04to being prime Judeon. But, you know,
429. 15:07prime Judeon is growing up and realizing
430. 15:11that, hey, the stuff that I found
431. 15:13amusing as a boy shouldn't be the same
432. 15:16stuff I find amusing as a man. And bro,
433. 15:18I'm Believe it or not, I'm 25.
434. 15:21I know, I look old as hell, but I'm 25
435. 15:24years old. You feel me?
436. 15:26I
437. 15:27need to grow up. I need to take
438. 15:30accountability and I need to mature. I
439. 15:33need to actually be here for the
440. 15:35betterment of society and not for the
441. 15:37worse. And the best thing I know how to
442. 15:39do to better society is getting people
443. 15:43trying to hurt kids off the streets. So,
444. 15:45yeah, y'all. That's it. Uh
445. 15:48that's the end of my TED Talk. Sorry
446. 15:50about the distractions and um Wood Haven
447. 15:53Police Department, after all this legal
448. 15:55stuff is all situated, uh
449. 15:58bro, I would love to do something with
450. 15:59you guys and work with you guys'
451. 16:01department and potentially help better
452. 16:03your guys' community. But, you know,
453. 16:05we'll cross that bridge when we cross
454. 16:06it. So,
455. 16:08yeah, without any further ado, peace,
456. 16:09y'all.