I developed an alter ego to get to 10% body fat in 60 days (here's the reward, cost, and mistakes) — Transcript

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1. 0:00I'll tell you a secret.
2. 0:01>> If you do not understand the concept of
3. 0:03an ocean, here you go.
4. 0:05>> He gets uh stiff and he dies before his
5. 0:09time.
6. 0:09>> How to develop it? Why is [music]
7. 0:11important? And what is the reward?
8. 0:13>> Looking forward to the great adventure.
9. 0:15>> My reward for working so hard the last 2
10. 0:183 months.
11. 0:19>> No, this can't be real, bro.
12. 0:21>> Then he lives
13. 0:22>> plus the cause. I really want to [music]
14. 0:24crash out. Nothing is going my way.
15. 0:26Don't know what is the point of keeping
16. 0:27going with what I need to do. I'm going
17. 0:29to fail at everything I do
18. 0:30>> of having one and acting like one and
19. 0:32ultimately becoming [music] him. You
20. 0:35will never get lean. And this [music]
21. 0:39is how I got to 10% body fat, a magical
22. 0:43number [music] in terms of body
23. 0:45composition that makes everybody a movie
24. 0:49star, a [music] superhero, or just
25. 0:52really good-looking.
26. 0:54>> WHERE'S YOUR POOP?
27. 0:55>> If anything, bro, I would tell you I'm
28. 0:56nobody special. I first started this
29. 0:58journey, I imagined my future self
30. 1:01looking back and giving me help. My
31. 1:03genetic is as smit as it caning go, bro.
32. 1:07I'm just a short Asian guy.
33. 1:08>> Dude, I look really fat. So, what do I
34. 1:12do?
35. 1:12>> Shut up and take my money.
36. 1:13>> I filmed everything regarding that
37. 1:16journey. And thing is, in this video,
38. 1:18bro, I'm going to tell you how I've
39. 1:19never looked this good. I've never felt
40. 1:22this convicted and confident in myself.
41. 1:25And thing is it's all thanks to the idea
42. 1:29of an alter ego. Now what is alter ego?
43. 1:32And land basically means other and then
44. 1:35ego means I. The best phrase I could use
45. 1:37to explain the alter ego is he's the
46. 1:40better version of you. Right? All the
47. 1:41ways in which could [music] be that's
48. 1:43me. I am smart capable and most
49. 1:45importantly I am free in all the ways
50. 1:47that you are currently not. You wake up
51. 1:49at a different time [music] in a
52. 1:51different place. Could you wake up as a
53. 1:54different person?
54. 1:55>> 2 years before that, I had already asked
55. 1:58myself the same question. [music]
56. 2:00I'm 22
57. 2:03and [snorts] I feel like [music] the
58. 2:05world fly yourself.
59. 2:07>> It's collapsing on me. I don't have any
60. 2:09friends. I don't have money.
61. 2:13I don't have a [music] job. I'm such a
62. 2:15Why can't I keep going? But all these
63. 2:18emotions,
64. 2:20I can never forget them. You have to
65. 2:22realize, bro, my life sucked at [music]
66. 2:24that point in time. And so I adopted the
67. 2:27idea of I I didn't even call it an alter
68. 2:31ego at the time, but maybe there existed
69. 2:33a version of me. [music] If you can
70. 2:35imagine yourself at the end of the
71. 2:36tunnel already and just looking back
72. 2:39>> that had everything which I wanted
73. 2:41[music] and as long as I just know who
74. 2:43he is and acted that way, that will make
75. 2:46everything [music] easier. I imagine
76. 2:48myself, my future self looking back and
77. 2:51giving me help.
78. 2:52>> Maybe [music] I would get everything in
79. 2:55which you know he has and spoilers ahead
80. 2:58I did.
81. 3:00However, that's not the end. That's how
82. 3:03the [music] story actually begins.
83. 3:07>> At the start of this year, on paper, I
84. 3:09had everything going for me. I think
85. 3:11starting September. Ever since I made
86. 3:13more money, I surround myself with a
87. 3:15bunch of people who made more money. I
88. 3:16kind of lost touch with my identity,
89. 3:19what I want to represent, what I want to
90. 3:20do. I just need more freedom. My old
91. 3:22reasoning didn't serve me. I had to
92. 3:24create a new identity. I had to ask,
93. 3:26what was the next version of myself
94. 3:28going to look like? What was that
95. 3:30evolved alter ego Matt going to say,
96. 3:33think, act, and feel? And how does he
97. 3:35even look like? I've had the dating
98. 3:37life. I've had the social experience.
99. 3:38I've had the self-esteem. I've had
100. 3:40everything except I still felt empty.
101. 3:43What's the point of all this grind?
102. 3:45What's the point of working on myself?
103. 3:48What's the point of trying so hard?
104. 3:49What's the point of losing sleep? What's
105. 3:50the point of giving all for some goal in
106. 3:54which I just made up within my mind?
107. 3:56Your alter ego represents everything
108. 3:57that you are not. Basically, he's the
109. 3:59opposite of you. Cuz now that I have the
110. 4:01value and stance of my alter ego self,
111. 4:03slowly I acted it out long enough so
112. 4:05that I became him. The thing that really
113. 4:08triggered me at the beginning of this
114. 4:11year when I happened to look like an
115. 4:13abomination, people started saying I was
116. 4:15falling off. People were saying I had
117. 4:17gone too comfortable. The thing is, bro,
118. 4:20they weren't wrong. It really hurted me,
119. 4:22bro. You know, bro, people used to say I
120. 4:25look like a stud. They asked me, "Matt,
121. 4:28how do you do it? How do you get so
122. 4:31gorgeous, amazing, and handsome and
123. 4:33lean?"
124. 4:35And now, well, I can
125. 4:37[clears throat and snorts] hide myself
126. 4:37in my gut.
127. 4:39Peekaboo.
128. 4:40>> I think I've fallen off. So, I think
129. 4:43it's time we get leaned faster than I
130. 4:47did last time. [music] And this time, it
131. 4:49was for myself.
132. 4:51>> The man does not put himself at war
133. 4:53physically. Will go to war with himself
134. 4:56mentally.
135. 4:56>> So, basically, every single time I start
136. 4:58a cut, I always take some funny before
137. 5:01photos. So, I might not look like it,
138. 5:04but I'm about 171 lb, 172. I would label
139. 5:08myself, you know, in terms of status
140. 5:10back then, bro. Still a ghost of [music]
141. 5:13my former self.
142. 5:14>> Bro, don't you get tired of looking like
143. 5:16this.
144. 5:17>> I just need to do two. If I can do two,
145. 5:19bro, I I'll be so happy.
146. 5:20>> And so, I had one goal at that time. I
147. 5:23wanted to hit 10% body fat. I
148. 5:26>> only have five more weeks until I hit
149. 5:2810% body fat.
150. 5:32My body's burnt out. You got to keep
151. 5:34your uh selft talk game strong. You
152. 5:37never die. This ain't super easy, bro.
153. 5:40Super easy.
154. 5:40>> This is the exact routine in which I had
155. 5:44literally every single damn day. I was
156. 5:46eating the same food. I was hitting the
157. 5:49sauna. I was sweating my off alone.
158. 5:51Besides that, I was going on for runs,
159. 5:55walk, cardio. I was trying to get in as
160. 5:57much cardio as I could. Now, for those
161. 5:59of you who do want the full guide, um I
162. 6:02already made it on the channel. Uh what
163. 6:04is it? It's about an hour long. I give
164. 6:07you everything how I plan out meals for
165. 6:09my guys for them to get just as lean and
166. 6:12[music] give or take the same amount of
167. 6:13time. So, if you want technicality, bro,
168. 6:15that's all yours after the video. Every
169. 6:18day, I would wake up sore, tired, my
170. 6:20feet would hurt. He gave me the
171. 6:22confidence, the conviction, the
172. 6:23self-esteem, and the drive on days when
173. 6:27I was just so tired, demotivated, and
174. 6:30lacking clarity. The guy you're about to
175. 6:32hear talking in front of the camera,
176. 6:35that's him. That's my alter ego. That's
177. 6:37Matt. Like, right now, when I'm talking
178. 6:39to you, I would like to say I'm thumb.
179. 6:42That's my Vietnamese name, my birth
180. 6:44name. You see how this is Matt with one
181. 6:46T. If you flip around, it spells T A.
182. 6:49However, Matt was everything which I was
183. 6:52not back then. He was limitless. He was
184. 6:53confident. He was chill, nonchalant, and
185. 6:56he just, you know, looked 10 times
186. 6:57better than me with everything which
187. 6:59I've ever wanted. I'm a version of you
188. 7:01that exists about 2 or 3 years down the
189. 7:03line. I think last night I slept for
190. 7:04like 6 hours. Much rather to be asleep
191. 7:07and in my room all cuddly up. But we got
192. 7:10things to chase. Can't tell you all the
193. 7:14best like time when I actually go out
194. 7:16and do something is when I have no
195. 7:18energy for it and then I just find
196. 7:19myself going out and doing it anyways.
197. 7:22The thing about cardio though is that
198. 7:23because I was working and juggling with
199. 7:25a bunch of things every single day
200. 7:27sometimes I would stay up very late and
201. 7:30find out that I got to go on a run. I
202. 7:32did not complete my cardio for the day.
203. 7:36>> Oh no. and realized when I said cardio,
204. 7:38bro, I was doing close to 30k steps at
205. 7:413:00 a.m. at night.
206. 7:42>> I'm chewing on this to keep my attention
207. 7:44on the damn road. What time is it, bro?
208. 7:47>> 3:20.
209. 7:48>> 3:20. We ain't tired. We're never tired.
210. 7:50Gosh. Let's keep going. Building all
211. 7:52there is out of place. [laughter]
212. 7:56We're cooked. We're actually [laughter]
213. 7:58cooked.
214. 7:59I'm playing, bro.
215. 8:01>> This ain't getting chased by a dog. If I
216. 8:03see a dog, I'm actually going to Yo,
217. 8:06dog, bro.
218. 8:07>> And feeling as if I'm becoming somebody
219. 8:10new.
220. 8:11>> See my eyes? Keep telling you, bro. It's
221. 8:14crazy eyes, dears. Run. If you ever
222. 8:17wonder what it's like getting down to
223. 8:1910% body fat, and that's not your
224. 8:21natural state of being. I'm telling you,
225. 8:23bro, this terrible, terrible. Uh, you
226. 8:27need to be a little bit crazy to hit it.
227. 8:29I killed every single excuses I had and
228. 8:32kept my goals [music]
229. 8:33in sight. And some days, bro, it would
230. 8:35get really rough, but I would tell
231. 8:37myself, I got to keep going. [music]
232. 8:39>> Yeah. Okay.
233. 8:43>> I'm okay. One thing I would say to you,
234. 8:46bro, is when you're in a lot of pain,
235. 8:51don't slow down. If you slow down, the
236. 8:54pain becomes very real. You don't need a
237. 8:56break. Balance is for losers. That's a
238. 8:59mentality. I set this really stupid goal
239. 9:02for myself to get down to 10% body fat.
240. 9:06And uh I might be there already.
241. 9:12Genuinely, this entire week, bro, I've
242. 9:15thrown up. I ran more. Now 5 weeks later
243. 9:19to the day in which, you know, I tell
244. 9:21myself maybe I'd hit 10% body fat.
245. 9:24>> Well, this could really be it, bro. This
246. 9:26is 9%. No, this can't be real, bro.
247. 9:29>> When I weighed myself in, I didn't feel
248. 9:31anything funny enough. Same meals, same
249. 9:33inputs in terms of cardio, same
250. 9:35training, and then boom, we were there.
251. 9:37Nothing really changed. Even those it
252. 9:40says I'm sub 10 right now. I kind of
253. 9:42don't believe it. I felt nothing.
254. 9:46It's just a number on a screen.
255. 9:51You know, it's funny when I [music] hit
256. 9:5310K subscribers. I didn't feel real. I
257. 9:56didn't feel a thing. Thought I'd be
258. 9:58excited, but I was voided of all
259. 10:00emotions. You made about $50,000 the
260. 10:03last two months.
261. 10:05And uh you're sad. You're questioning
262. 10:08your existence. You don't know why you
263. 10:10do all these things for.
264. 10:17And so I kept doing the same things for
265. 10:202 weeks later. And then of course I was
266. 10:24hit with this.
267. 10:29Just now I was hit the news with my
268. 10:32grandma's passing away. It's almost
269. 10:33everything is trying to tug at my
270. 10:35heartstring and ask, "Hey, feel
271. 10:37something. Slow down. I'm going to fly
272. 10:39and see my grandma." Probably for less
273. 10:40time.
274. 10:42When you're in a lot of pain,
275. 10:45don't slow down. If I slow down, I'm not
276. 10:48going to want to do anything. I probably
277. 10:50want to mope,
278. 10:52whine, cry. If you're not away from your
279. 10:56pain,
280. 10:57run as if your life depends on it. I'll
281. 10:59keep pushing until I break. You know,
282. 11:00funny enough, I hit my goal of uh 10%
283. 11:03body fat. My reward for working so hard
284. 11:07the last 2 3 months is attending a
285. 11:10funeral. I'm very sad. I want to cry. I
286. 11:14want to sit in the corner, hug my knee
287. 11:17to my chest, and do nothing.
288. 11:20That's why I got my outside running.
289. 11:21>> I didn't stop. I remember that night I
290. 11:24kept going. [music] I just didn't know
291. 11:26how to stop.
292. 11:29>> I'm tired. If I don't run, bro, all the
293. 11:30way down there full speed. I'm going to
294. 11:33fail at everything I do.
295. 11:35>> I didn't know how because there were so
296. 11:37[music] many feelings in which I felt
297. 11:40that I hadn't felt in such a long time
298. 11:43cuz I was so numb to everything.
299. 11:45>> I was just frustrated. I'm like, damn.
300. 11:48Try and try again.
301. 11:50Full force. Why am I getting tested?
302. 11:52Friends,
303. 11:54before you get up to this point of
304. 11:56looking the way you want, of doing what
305. 11:57the hell you want, of not answering to
306. 11:58anybody, of feeling the way you want,
307. 12:00and being in complete control of how you
308. 12:03act,
309. 12:05can't fold.
310. 12:08[music]
311. 12:10The stuff of my grandma makes me sad.
312. 12:14And then yesterday, you just couldn't
313. 12:15get out of bed. I was so tired. The
314. 12:17first thing in the morning, I got up, I
315. 12:19texted my cousin [music] saying I was
316. 12:20coming that night. I was feeling fine
317. 12:23when I laid in bed. Then when I got up,
318. 12:25I just fell to the floor. But my grandma
319. 12:28just passed away
320. 12:31um about 2 hours ago. And it's like,
321. 12:34bro,
322. 12:35I thought I'd be able to make it before
323. 12:37she passed away. It sucks. Genuinely
324. 12:40sucks. It's trade-offs you got to make
325. 12:42when you have a goal, right? I put my
326. 12:45goals above everything else. Even though
327. 12:47[music]
328. 12:49my body collapsed before mentally I
329. 12:52could tap out. I thought I'd be on that
330. 12:55flight and at home right now
331. 12:58where she is
332. 13:02maybe seeing her one last time, but
333. 13:06I spent [music] 60 days and more chasing
334. 13:10a number that I idolized or come up with
335. 13:14myself. The number didn't care if I hit
336. 13:17it or not. [music] It didn't care about
337. 13:18my feeling. It didn't care about my
338. 13:21mental health. It didn't care about
339. 13:22[music] anything. Say, "Let's play a
340. 13:23game, okay? Tomorrow I give you a
341. 13:25six-pack, chiseled jaw, nice hair." How
342. 13:28would you feel about yourself, okay? You
343. 13:30might look like me now, but honestly,
344. 13:32bro, you might feel the same. It was
345. 13:33never about the body.
346. 13:35The point is whatever point you make it
347. 13:38out to be, you assign meaning to the
348. 13:40journey. For me, I saw it as
349. 13:44I'm just keeping promises in which I
350. 13:46told myself.
351. 13:46>> What did you promise yourself when you
352. 13:48were little? What does my tattoo say? I
353. 13:51wish I had that mentality of aggression,
354. 13:53of putting my goals first earlier. I'm
355. 13:56[music] 25 now and it took me years to
356. 13:59learn this lesson. Had I learned it
357. 14:01earlier, maybe my grandma wouldn't pass
358. 14:03away.
359. 14:04>> You guys always talk about my looks.
360. 14:06Well, this is straight up my
361. 14:07grandmother. All the mogging uh what is
362. 14:09it? Jeans actually came from my grandma.
363. 14:11I remember when I was younger, I told
364. 14:13her
365. 14:17I'd become a doctor
366. 14:19just so I can help her out.
367. 14:23Then later on, I dropped out of college
368. 14:27cuz I realized I didn't really want to
369. 14:29be a doctor. I mean, I just wanted to do
370. 14:31it for the money.
371. 14:33If I had more money back then, maybe she
372. 14:36could have gone and get treatment
373. 14:39earlier.
374. 14:42I was too scared
375. 14:45[snorts] to go all in with [music]
376. 14:48business.
377. 14:51I was too scared.
378. 14:55It cost me
379. 14:59family members life,
380. 15:05[snorts]
381. 15:09man. You can you can only make sense of
382. 15:11everything by moving forward.
383. 15:15There's no wishing I could have done
384. 15:17better. There's no wishing I could hop
385. 15:19on that flight last night. [music]
386. 15:25That's why doing what I need to do so
387. 15:27that this doesn't happen again. The day
388. 15:30in which my grandma passed away, my
389. 15:32alter ego [music]
390. 15:35didn't allow me to not feel the pain,
391. 15:37not feel the emotions, not feel
392. 15:38anything.
393. 15:40>> I could have built everything in which I
394. 15:43wanted to build in my life had I just
395. 15:45think like my ultra ego and had I just
396. 15:48allow him to push [music] me towards
397. 15:50acting long enough so that I can become
398. 15:53him. Even though emotionally I was so
399. 15:55drained, my self-t talk was just the
400. 15:58same. in which I happen to sound [music]
401. 16:00now.
402. 16:02>> Hey, don't overc
403. 16:06[music]
404. 16:11What the is wrong with you? [music]
405. 16:14>> And nobody talks about the cost of an
406. 16:16alter ego though. Everybody talks about
407. 16:19how if you just develop an alter ego,
408. 16:21your life [music] will change. For me
409. 16:23personally, even though it came at such
410. 16:24a steep cost, I wasn't willing to make
411. 16:27it. Last year, I had a breakup with
412. 16:29somebody [music] who proposed to me just
413. 16:31so I could keep building on my channel
414. 16:34[music] and fulfill a dream in which
415. 16:36I've told myself I would for a very long
416. 16:39time. A few years from now, I want to
417. 16:41see you somewhere over there, somewhere
418. 16:43far away. Wake up in the morning and
419. 16:46you're just looking down. You're like,
420. 16:47"Fuck it. I made it."
421. 16:48>> Started all this [music]
422. 16:51to buy freedom. Now,
423. 16:55when a business is about to grow, you
424. 16:57have to break up with a girl
425. 17:01that [music] loves you, who wants to
426. 17:03build family with you,
427. 17:07that dreams of a future [music] with
428. 17:09you.
429. 17:11Got to give all that up just so you can
430. 17:15grow the business. You need to be alone
431. 17:17a little bit longer.
432. 17:20Get out the man that you could be. I
433. 17:22used to [music] wish somebody would love
434. 17:24me and accept me for who I am. The crazy
435. 17:27thing is, bro, that was the biggest test
436. 17:29at that time. I knew that if I said yes
437. 17:33to the opportunity back then, I'd stop
438. 17:35growing as a person. I knew I [music]
439. 17:37still had to be alone. See, comfort and
440. 17:39growth, you have to choose one or the
441. 17:41other. [music] Both can never happen at
442. 17:44the same time. And realize every single
443. 17:46time which I [music] choose to grow,
444. 17:48even now, bro, it hurts like hell. And
445. 17:51I'm not immune to the pain. I still feel
446. 17:53it very much.
447. 17:54>> I know the pain you're going to go
448. 17:56through every single part of the way. I
449. 17:59know I go through it, too.
450. 18:01And that
451. 18:04it's okay.
452. 18:07Please grow first [music] as a person
453. 18:10and then philosophize.
454. 18:13Think about what's the meaning of life.
455. 18:14Think about [music] what's the point of
456. 18:16life. Think about if the journey is
457. 18:18worth it or not. I think the point of
458. 18:20life is to regain control to become the
459. 18:22better person is not to be morally
460. 18:25superior virtue signal but rather become
461. 18:28a person with skills capabilities
462. 18:30[music]
463. 18:31and a mindset bro that allows him to do
464. 18:34anything which he wants to do with his
465. 18:35life.
466. 18:37You know, bro,
467. 18:40it's funny because
468. 18:43my grandma,
469. 18:45she saw the little kid in me when I
470. 18:48visited Vietnam after travel the world
471. 18:50for an entire year. Even when I came
472. 18:53back, she saw the little kid in me. Even
473. 18:56though I had gone through so much pain
474. 18:58and growth
475. 19:00and I felt as if I had lacked a lot of
476. 19:03emotions when I tried to get my life
477. 19:05together back in 2024. I put myself out
478. 19:08there socially. I got rejected over and
479. 19:10over and over and over. I got broken
480. 19:12down so many times and I felt as if
481. 19:14every time it was personal. [music] This
482. 19:16is what I said to myself. I'm tired
483. 19:18getting my heart broken.
484. 19:21I'm tired
485. 19:23of putting my walls down.
486. 19:25I'm tired.
487. 19:26>> Slowly saw myself [music] becoming a
488. 19:29little bit more jaded towards the world.
489. 19:31I started hating things, hating people,
490. 19:33hating everything around me. Part of me
491. 19:37just died. She still saw me as a little
492. 19:40kid in which she saw back then. My alter
493. 19:43ego or the idea of an alter ego that
494. 19:45everybody wants to develop or have. It's
495. 19:48literally that kid within all of us. The
496. 19:51kid that [music] was free. the kid that
497. 19:53believe he's the captain of his ship and
498. 19:56the master of his soul. Not because, you
499. 19:58know, whatever qualification
500. 20:01or background, but rather his
501. 20:03imagination.
502. 20:05I wish I could trust the inner kid that
503. 20:08always talks to me, that was confident
504. 20:11beyond reason, that that was so
505. 20:13optimistic, that was so eager to build
506. 20:15things out of his life. My alter ego is
507. 20:18literally just my kid self with the
508. 20:21crazy eyes in which I had back then.
509. 20:24My grandma saw all of that before I had
510. 20:28anything
511. 20:31and she believed in me. [music]
512. 20:36[laughter]
513. 20:50>> [music]