HUMAN Extended version VOL.1 — Transcript

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1. 0:17[Music]
2. 0:38Heat. Heat. Heat.
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4. 0:53Heat.
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7. 1:15Heat. Heat.
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9. 1:23Heat.
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12. 1:48Heat.
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14. 2:01Roose
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17. 2:18John Oh,
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19. 2:31[Music]
20. 2:43that harmonous.
21. 2:52[Music]
22. 2:58Fore! Foreign! Foreign!
23. 3:00[Music]
24. 3:11Henry
25. 3:19[Music]
26. 3:35did clean.
27. 3:37[Music]
28. 3:43[Music]
29. 3:53[Music]
30. 3:57I remember my my uh you know my
31. 4:01stepfather
32. 4:03you know would beat me and he you know
33. 4:04he would beat me with extension cords
34. 4:06and and and hangers and you know pieces
35. 4:09of wood and all kinds of stuff. And you
36. 4:12know after every beating he would tell
37. 4:14me you know it hurt me more than I hurt
38. 4:15you
39. 4:17and you know I only did it because I
40. 4:18love you
41. 4:21which kind of you know it communicated
42. 4:23the wrong message to me about what love
43. 4:26was.
44. 4:28So for many years, you know, I thought
45. 4:31that love was supposed to hurt
46. 4:34and um I hurt everyone that I love
47. 4:39and I measured
48. 4:41love by how much pain someone would take
49. 4:45from me.
50. 4:47Um,
51. 4:49and it wasn't until I came to prison in
52. 4:52an environment that is devoid of love
53. 4:56that I began to have some sort of
54. 4:58understanding about what it actually was
55. 5:00and was not.
56. 5:03[Music]
57. 5:06and
58. 5:08I met someone
59. 5:11um
60. 5:13and
61. 5:16she
62. 5:17gave me my first real insight into what
63. 5:19love was because she saw past my
64. 5:22conditions
65. 5:24and the fact that I was in prison with a
66. 5:26life sentence for murder and not only
67. 5:28for murder but for doing the worst kind
68. 5:30of murder that a man can do, murdering a
69. 5:32woman and a child.
70. 5:35And it was Agnes,
71. 5:38the mother and grandmother of
72. 5:41Patricia and Chris, the woman and child
73. 5:43that I murdered, who gave me my best
74. 5:46lesson about love. Because
75. 5:49by all right, she should hate me.
76. 5:57But she didn't.
77. 6:00And
78. 6:03you know over the course of time
79. 6:06and through the journey that we took
80. 6:13pretty amazing.
81. 6:18She gave me love
82. 6:20and
83. 6:46she taught me what it
84. 6:51[Music]
85. 7:16Heat. Heat.
86. 7:19[Music]
87. 7:33Heat. Heat.
88. 7:41[Music]
89. 8:08Heat. Heat.
90. 8:10[Music]
91. 8:17[Music]
92. 8:32Hello more.
93. 8:40foreign
94. 9:06speech.
95. 9:17Okay.
96. 9:27foreign.
97. 9:51And then
98. 10:22Okay. foreign.
99. 10:34Okay.
100. 11:10See,
101. 11:13See,
102. 11:16I see.
103. 11:18[Laughter]
104. 11:28foreign.
105. 12:23for
106. 12:51the speech. foreignch.
107. 13:22foreignch.
108. 13:52forch.
109. 14:21Fore
110. 14:27sexual.
111. 14:48Polygamy
112. 14:54poly
113. 15:19foreign
114. 15:32[Laughter]
115. 15:43speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
116. 15:46Foreigne
117. 16:11speech.
118. 16:13Fore!
119. 16:22Foreign! Foreign!
120. 16:26[Music]
121. 16:42Foreign
122. 16:47[Laughter]
123. 16:50speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
124. 17:20force.
125. 18:07foreign.
126. 18:37forianch.
127. 19:07foreign.
128. 19:24Dr. Minty
129. 19:57Alhamdulillah.
130. 20:00Alhamdulillah.
131. 20:05after being married for
132. 20:0950 years, 49,
133. 20:1251 years, but
134. 20:15my wife took seriously ill.
135. 20:18um just before we celebrated our 50th
136. 20:22wedding anniversary
137. 20:24and she suffered terribly for about 2
138. 20:28years as an invalid.
139. 20:32For the last two years of her life, I
140. 20:35was her nurse,
141. 20:37I was her doctor, I was her friend, I
142. 20:39was her lover, I was her husband. And I
143. 20:43had to bath her. I had to feed her. I
144. 20:47had to dress her. I had to push her
145. 20:50around in a wheelchair
146. 20:53and attend to her all her needs.
147. 20:57Um, everybody wanted me to get a nurse,
148. 21:00full-time nurse, day and night nurse to
149. 21:02look after her because she couldn't
150. 21:04sleep. She was up 24 hours a day at all
151. 21:09odd times. And she begged me not to. She
152. 21:13only wanted me to look after her. And I
153. 21:16loved doing it for her. And I did it by
154. 21:20myself. I carried her to the car. I
155. 21:23carried her oxygen tank. I carried her
156. 21:26wheelchair. I packed it in the car. I
157. 21:27took it out. I pushed her around. I put
158. 21:29it back. I took her home. I bathed her.
159. 21:31I put her to bed. And I loved it that I
160. 21:34was able to do it for her without anyone
161. 21:37else. And she appreciated it. That's
162. 21:40love.
163. 21:44foreign.
164. 22:14Seech.
165. 22:43for
166. 22:45[Music]
167. 22:54the booty.
168. 22:59[Music]
169. 23:06for
170. 23:09[Music]
171. 23:21[Music]
172. 23:27under
173. 23:29[Music]
174. 23:31mush.
175. 23:38But they don't fully
176. 23:44[Music]
177. 24:08Shut
178. 24:11[Music]
179. 24:16the
180. 24:19lash.
181. 24:22[Music]
182. 24:37John.
183. 24:39[Music]
184. 25:08Heat. Heat.
185. 25:18[Music]
186. 25:44Heat. Heat.
187. 25:52[Music]
188. 26:04up.
189. 26:06[Music]
190. 26:09[Applause]
191. 26:14[Music]
192. 26:21[Applause]
193. 26:24[Music]
194. 26:27Come on.
195. 26:29[Applause]
196. 26:29[Music]
197. 26:43Wow.
198. 26:47[Music]
199. 26:56Heat.
200. 26:58Heat.
201. 27:04[Music]
202. 27:33[Music]
203. 27:55[Music]
204. 28:10Oh no.
205. 28:29Fore
206. 28:33sentiment.
207. 29:05Foreigne.
208. 29:54[Music]
209. 30:07I ended my marriage. I had been married
210. 30:10for 19 years very unhappily and had
211. 30:12stayed there for the children. And so at
212. 30:1550, I decided to end my marriage. And
213. 30:18that led to a series of other decisions.
214. 30:21I'd been vegetarian for 30 years, so I
215. 30:24decided to stop being vegetarian.
216. 30:26I'd been working in a career that I
217. 30:28wasn't enjoying for 20 years, and I
218. 30:31decided to stop doing that and retrain.
219. 30:34And I also had been in love with a woman
220. 30:37for a very long time. So I asked her if
221. 30:39she would have an affair with me, and
222. 30:40she said yes. So I went from being a
223. 30:42heterosexual mother of two to being a
224. 30:44lesbian mother of two which was an
225. 30:47interesting it's still an interesting
226. 30:48experience and so I sort of turned
227. 30:51everything upside down. I just thought I
228. 30:53can't do that life. That life that was
229. 30:55so constrained by judgments and mores I
230. 30:57don't want to do it anymore. And that
231. 31:00series of decisions has been
232. 31:02extraordinarily isolating. Um and it I
233. 31:06think I'm coming out of that isolation
234. 31:08now. A lot of judgments are made about
235. 31:09women who get divorced when they have
236. 31:11children. A lot of expectations are that
237. 31:14it's the most awful thing you can do to
238. 31:15your children. That wasn't my experience
239. 31:17actually.
240. 31:20for
241. 31:49Jesus.
242. 32:00Fore! Foreign! Foreign!
243. 32:10Fore
244. 32:22makeup.
245. 32:34foreign.
246. 33:00for
247. 33:26[Laughter]
248. 33:28Fore!
249. 33:30Foreign! Foreign!
250. 33:51It's cool.
251. 34:06for
252. 34:34extre. Foreign speech. Foreign foreign
253. 34:36foreign speech.
254. 34:58When I went and stayed with my with my
255. 35:01with my wife at her house in San
256. 35:03Francisco, she's not my wife, but the
257. 35:05one I'm on with, the woman I'm with. She
258. 35:08This was about a week after we started
259. 35:11dating. And I woke up in the morning and
260. 35:13I said, "So, you know, I asked this of
261. 35:15you and this of you and this of you and
262. 35:18you know, you're hesitating, but like
263. 35:20the woman I'm with can't have a list of
264. 35:22nos." Like, it's got to be pretty much
265. 35:24all yeses or we don't have a
266. 35:25relationship. I mean, that's just where
267. 35:26I'm at. And it took her about a month
268. 35:30after I pointed that out to her to
269. 35:32realize that these nos could not exist.
270. 35:35And so, that's how very little shitty my
271. 35:38woman is. She's she's freaking very
272. 35:41unique, very amazing. She gives me like
273. 35:45she was raised to like adore her, man.
274. 35:48Like old school Mexican, like know when
275. 35:51to speak up. And that doesn't mean you
276. 35:53can't tell me something. Doesn't mean
277. 35:54you can't share. That doesn't mean I
278. 35:56don't want guidance.
279. 35:58But in my household, the man is the man
280. 36:01of the house.
281. 36:03Okay.
282. 36:06Foreign
283. 36:16speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
284. 36:26visit.
285. 36:43Felch
286. 36:52Fore! Foreign! Foreign!
287. 37:03Foreing
288. 37:42magazine.
289. 38:05and
290. 38:26you
291. 38:29didn't know.
292. 38:40I saidchech.
293. 39:13Okay.
294. 39:29There is a way out of being abused.
295. 39:32For me, it was tough because I used to
296. 39:34have the worst abuse. I would have a gun
297. 39:36put to my head and get told to go on my
298. 39:38knees and beg for my my life. Um, and I
299. 39:42would do it just my kids used to be
300. 39:44watching or I get put out out of the
301. 39:46house. I get kicked out of the house and
302. 39:48have to sleep outside on the steps. and
303. 39:50if I move from there, I would get a hide
304. 39:51in the next day. It was tough because I
305. 39:53thought it was me. I was the one that
306. 39:55was doing something wrong in our
307. 39:57marriage. Um,
308. 40:00and one day I went to work and um, I was
309. 40:04sitting in my office and I thought I
310. 40:06closed my door. I can remember that day
311. 40:08very well. I closed my door and I cried.
312. 40:11I had just been battered the the night
313. 40:13before and I thought I needed to move
314. 40:15on. And um one particular woman came and
315. 40:18knocked on my door and she said, "Can I
316. 40:20come inside?" And I said, "Yeah." And
317. 40:21she said, "I need to talk to you." And
318. 40:23know we had this conversation about the
319. 40:24abused woman.
320. 40:26And um I said to her, "I'm not being
321. 40:29abused." And she said, "Denisha, yes,
322. 40:30you are. It's all over your face, but
323. 40:32people won't see it because I always,
324. 40:34like I said, love to smile." Um
325. 40:38and then we spoke about my kids. And you
326. 40:41know, when I started talking about my
327. 40:42kids, those were the most important
328. 40:44thing of my life. And I thought if I
329. 40:45don't move on out of here, I'm either
330. 40:48going to be dead or my kids are going to
331. 40:50be dead. So, I need to move on. I need
332. 40:53to do something. And I went home that
333. 40:55day and I said to him, "I'm leaving."
334. 40:58Um, and I think Mark got a bit of a
335. 41:00shock because he didn't realize that I
336. 41:03was leaving. And he said, "No, you'll
337. 41:04never leave me. You've never you will
338. 41:06never leave me. You love me too much."
339. 41:07And I said, "Well, you know what? That's
340. 41:10what love is about, leaving." And I gave
341. 41:14him two choices. And I only gave him two
342. 41:16choices. I said to him, "You either go
343. 41:18for counseling or I leave."
344. 41:21And you know what? Today he's a better
345. 41:23man. He's never lifted a hand up for me
346. 41:25ever since the day. That's about 9 years
347. 41:28ago.
348. 41:30So 9 years ago was still an abused
349. 41:32woman.
350. 41:34So
351. 41:56[Applause]
352. 42:04Heat. Heat.
353. 42:06[Music]
354. 42:20Heat.
355. 42:23Heat.
356. 42:29Heat. Heat.
357. 42:30[Music]
358. 43:02Heat. Heat.
359. 43:08[Music]
360. 43:15[Music]
361. 43:28Yep.
362. 43:35[Music]
363. 43:56Hey.
364. 43:59[Music]
365. 44:03[Laughter]
366. 44:07[Music]
367. 44:09[Laughter]
368. 44:11[Music]
369. 44:27Hey,
370. 44:29hey, hey.
371. 44:34Yeah.
372. 44:38Yeah.
373. 44:44[Music]
374. 44:58[Applause]
375. 45:00Okay.
376. 45:06[Music]
377. 45:15Heat.
378. 45:21[Music]
379. 45:32Heat. Heat.
380. 45:50Heat. Heat.
381. 45:53[Music]
382. 46:11[Music]
383. 46:21Heat. Heat.
384. 46:31Heat. Heat.
385. 46:42[Music]
386. 46:53[Music]
387. 47:10I'm miss you.
388. 47:18[Music]
389. 47:25I'm going
390. 47:28[Music]
391. 47:34[Music]
392. 47:45[Music]
393. 47:55Hello.
394. 47:58[Music]
395. 48:06Oh,
396. 48:11[Music]
397. 48:32Bangladesh.
398. 48:40marketity
399. 48:56fullity.
400. 49:13final customer.
401. 49:17What can what we can how we be happy?
402. 49:21Ow.
403. 49:31Fore! Foreign! Foreign!
404. 49:42forchech.
405. 50:12Fore!
406. 50:14[Music]
407. 50:27Foreign! Foreign!
408. 50:36Sorry.
409. 50:51Don't
410. 51:01forch.
411. 51:31Foreign
412. 51:41speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
413. 51:47[Music]
414. 52:01Don't give
415. 52:10[Music]
416. 52:19Fore!
417. 52:31Foreign! Foreign!
418. 52:40fority
419. 53:08cafe.
420. 53:24[Music]
421. 53:40foreignch.
422. 54:29for
423. 54:58Imam.
424. 55:09Foreign
425. 55:11speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
426. 55:41Fore
427. 55:48husband.
428. 56:10foreign
429. 56:37speech.
430. 56:48for
431. 57:48This Fore!
432. 57:57Foreign! Foreign!
433. 58:12Chris,
434. 58:40[Music]
435. 58:58Heat.
436. 59:06Heat.
437. 59:10[Music]
438. 59:11Heat.
439. 59:24Heat.
440. 59:45Heat. Heat.
441. 1:00:10Heat. Heat.
442. 1:00:17[Music]
443. 1:00:59situ
444. 1:01:09forchech.
445. 1:01:59for
446. 1:02:14[Music]
447. 1:02:45So I I know that that I'm less happy
448. 1:02:48with more money and I know that I still
449. 1:02:53want more. And um it's it's it is a it
450. 1:02:59reminds me whether it's sex or money or
451. 1:03:03or any of these transient things. Um
452. 1:03:07somehow you can't rationalize yourself
453. 1:03:09into
454. 1:03:11um wanting less. I like things and I I
455. 1:03:15pursue the things but the things only
456. 1:03:17make me happy for a short period of
457. 1:03:20time. and and uh and then I go back and
458. 1:03:24I have the challenges of my family and I
459. 1:03:26and I don't know how to to make a
460. 1:03:29depressed person happy. You can't you
461. 1:03:31can't give them a thing and make them
462. 1:03:33happy
463. 1:03:35because their brain is not happy.
464. 1:03:39So I I feel frustrated that that that
465. 1:03:43the cures don't exist and I can't just
466. 1:03:45wave a magic wand and make my
467. 1:03:50son
468. 1:04:05better.
469. 1:04:25Fore!
470. 1:04:40Foreign! Foreign!
471. 1:04:51Mamachech.
472. 1:05:17Fore! Foreign! Foreign!
473. 1:05:28foreign.
474. 1:05:57Wow.
475. 1:06:05For example,
476. 1:06:29grander
477. 1:06:31for
478. 1:06:59final. foreign.
479. 1:07:18Wow.
480. 1:07:25I for
481. 1:08:06intelligencia
482. 1:08:09in
483. 1:08:22giving
484. 1:08:24Fore!
485. 1:08:46Foreign! Foreign!
486. 1:08:55Mayitude
487. 1:09:09to level.
488. 1:09:36Some of the most generous people I know
489. 1:09:40have no money.
490. 1:09:43And that's how it should be. When we
491. 1:09:45have no money, it's a different
492. 1:09:47lifestyle. When you see the old people,
493. 1:09:50uh there was no in our language, we have
494. 1:09:53no such word as please or thank you
495. 1:09:57because it is what we is expected of us
496. 1:10:00is that we share and we give what we
497. 1:10:03have. Today we have to say please. We
498. 1:10:05have to say thank you. We have to beg
499. 1:10:07for things. In the old days, it was just
500. 1:10:09a giving thing that we would share
501. 1:10:11things. That was a part of who we are.
502. 1:10:14And not only for abinal people, I expect
503. 1:10:17people all around the world would do the
504. 1:10:20same things before money. But nowadays,
505. 1:10:23it's mine. There are words like mine. We
506. 1:10:26don't share our things anymore. And it's
507. 1:10:29become it kills kills us as human
508. 1:10:32beings, as a society of as a as a as a
509. 1:10:36race. When I say race, I'm talking about
510. 1:10:39the human race. But we deny other people
511. 1:10:43shelter. We deny other people food. We
512. 1:10:46deny other people their survival purely
513. 1:10:49because of money.
514. 1:11:02Fore! Foreign! Foreign!
515. 1:11:13for
516. 1:11:51How many
517. 1:11:54sap? Foreign
518. 1:12:16speech. Foreign foreign foreign speech.
519. 1:12:21Foreign
520. 1:12:46[Music]
521. 1:13:00Heat.
522. 1:13:02[Music]
523. 1:13:14Heat.
524. 1:13:21[Music]
525. 1:13:36Heat. Heat.
526. 1:13:44Heat.
527. 1:13:45[Music]
528. 1:13:58[Applause]
529. 1:14:01[Music]
530. 1:14:04Heat.
531. 1:14:12Heat.
532. 1:14:17[Music]
533. 1:14:22[Applause]
534. 1:14:24Heat.
535. 1:14:26[Applause]
536. 1:14:27[Music]
537. 1:15:19We don't know what
538. 1:15:36Foreign
539. 1:15:58speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
540. 1:16:26Consumer superflow.
541. 1:16:39or two
542. 1:16:53friends.
543. 1:17:06What a brother.
544. 1:17:10[Music]
545. 1:17:19[Music]
546. 1:17:26Heat.
547. 1:17:45Heat.
548. 1:17:50Heat. Heat.
549. 1:18:00[Music]
550. 1:18:12Heat.
551. 1:18:22Heat.
552. 1:18:32Heat up
553. 1:18:34[Applause]
554. 1:18:46[Applause]
555. 1:18:47[Music]
556. 1:18:59here. Heat
557. 1:19:11up
558. 1:19:21here.
559. 1:19:37Heat up here.
560. 1:19:50Heat. Heat.
561. 1:20:27[Laughter]
562. 1:20:40[Music]
563. 1:20:43I would like to act what the hell I'm
564. 1:20:45doing here.
565. 1:20:48And why can't Bill be over there, but
566. 1:20:49y'all y'all be over here while I am and
567. 1:20:51see what the hell going on? Let's switch
568. 1:20:54for a minute.
569. 1:20:58Let's switch. You come here, be me, and
570. 1:21:00I go there and be you. Then when we meet
571. 1:21:03up in this mid line of the equator, then
572. 1:21:05we'll play golf. Uh-uh.
573. 1:21:16[Music]
574. 1:21:32[Music]
575. 1:21:38But at that moment, he was he wasn't a
576. 1:21:40terrorist. He wasn't an insurgent. He
577. 1:21:41wasn't an Iraqi. He was a scared man.
578. 1:21:59And that reality made me come to a point
579. 1:22:02of understanding that we have to bring
580. 1:22:05down those walls that separate us.
581. 1:22:12I'm a father. I'm a brother. I'm a pain
582. 1:22:16in the ass. I'm lovely. I'm terrible.
583. 1:22:18I'm lots of things.
584. 1:22:20And then I met
585. 1:22:22to me the love of my life
586. 1:22:25and her name was Jen. And
587. 1:22:28gosh, it was just like my world changed.
588. 1:22:31[Music]
589. 1:22:44Foreign
590. 1:22:48speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech.
591. 1:22:52[Music]
592. 1:22:58So I can be very pleasant.