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0:00I was memorizing the Quran while
0:01watching pornography at night, praying
0:03fajger in the front row while
0:05masturbating in the afternoon. Everyone
0:07saw the religious brother. Nobody saw
0:09the broken addict. I lived that double
0:11life for 6 years and it [music] almost
0:12destroyed me completely. If that's you
0:14right now, if you're living behind a
0:16mask while dying inside, keep watching
0:18because I found the way out and I'm
0:20giving it to you today. Let me tell you
0:23who I was before everything fell apart.
0:25I was 15 years old memorizing the Quran.
0:2815 paras completed. [music] Top student
0:30in my class. The one everyone called
0:32hardworking, disciplined, the religious
0:34brother. Parents pointed to me and said
0:36[music] be like him. I prayed five times
0:38daily. I loved reading Quran. I had
0:40dreams, big dreams about my future. Then
0:42one day my friend sent me a link. Just a
0:45message with a video link. I opened it,
0:47saw what it was, and I got angry. I told
0:49him off. This is haram. Don't send me
0:51this stuff. One week later, it was
0:53evening. Everyone had left the house. I
0:55was completely alone. And for some
0:57reason, I remembered that link. I don't
1:00know why, but I opened my messages,
1:01found it, and clicked. What happened
1:03next? I couldn't stop. I watched that
1:04video once, then twice. Then I lost
1:06count 10 times, maybe more. That one
1:09evening, sitting alone in an empty
1:11house, destroyed the next 6 years of my
1:13life. Masturbation started that same
1:15night. At first, it was once, then it
1:17became twice a day, then three times. It
1:20became my escape [music] from
1:21everything. Stress, boredom, loneliness,
1:23anger. I couldn't control it anymore.
1:25[music] It controlled me. And slowly
1:27everything I built started crumbling.
1:29Those 15 paras of Quran I memorized, I
1:32started forgetting verses. The top
1:33[music] student who never struggled
1:35became average, sometimes below average.
1:37I couldn't focus for 5 minutes in class.
1:40My body broke down, eyesight weakening,
1:42hair falling, energy completely gone.
1:44But the physical destruction was nothing
1:46compared to what happened to my soul. I
1:48stopped fearing Allah. The fear that
1:51used [music] to keep me from sin just
1:52disappeared. Prayer became empty
1:54movements when I even bothered to pray.
1:56Quran gathered dust on my shelf. I
1:58became Muslim by name only. On the
2:00outside, I became very quiet in society.
2:03People still saw me as that good
2:04religious boy. But inside, I was dying,
2:07[music] broken, drowning in guilt and
2:08shame every single day. 2022 came and I
2:11decided I have to quit. I tried, failed,
2:14tried again, failed again. 2023, 2024,
2:17same cycle. I tried everything I could
2:19think of. blocking sites, deleting apps,
2:21making promises, [music] crying in
2:22prayer. Nothing worked. Every attempt
2:24ended the same way. Back to pornography,
2:27back to masturbation, back to that
2:28crushing guilt. Until February 11th,
2:312025. [music]
2:32I don't know what was different about
2:33that day, but something inside me
2:34snapped. I made one final promise, not
2:37just to Allah, but to myself. And this
2:39time, I didn't rely on willpower or
2:41motivation. I followed 14 specific
2:44steps, a complete system that rewired my
2:46brain and broke the addiction
2:48permanently. Today, alhamdulillah,
2:49[music] I'm 270 plus days clean and
2:52these 14 steps are what I'm giving you
2:54right now. Hit subscribe because if you
2:56follow exactly what I did, you will
2:58escape. Step one, admit the truth. Say
3:01it out loud right now. I am addicted to
3:03pornography and masturbation. Not I have
3:05a problem, not I struggle sometimes. Say
3:07the full sentence. I am addicted because
3:09denial is your biggest enemy. I spent
3:12years saying I'm fine. I can stop
3:13whenever I want. [music] It's not that
3:15serious. That's the addiction talking.
3:17The moment you admit you're addicted,
3:19[music] you break its power over you.
3:20When I finally admitted it, I I recorded
3:23myself saying it on my phone. I played
3:25it back and heard my own voice confess
3:27the truth. Then I told one person I
3:28trusted. The shame I felt saying those
3:30words out loud, that shame became my
3:33fuel. The prophet said, "All children of
3:35Adam make mistakes, but the best are
3:36those [music] who repent." You can't
3:38repent from something you won't admit
3:39exists. So stop lying to yourself. Admit
3:42it right now. Once you've admitted it,
3:44you need to see where this road leads.
3:46Step two, build your negative future
3:48vision. Grab a notebook or open your
3:50phone notes right now. [music] Write
3:51this heading, my life in 5 years. If
3:54nothing changes, then write the brutal
3:56truth. You're still watching
3:58pornography, still masturbating multiple
4:00times a day, still hiding your phone
4:02like a criminal, still can't look people
4:03in the eye, still spiritually empty.
4:06Your prayers are still just movements
4:07with no heart. Marriage terrifies you
4:10because you know you're broken inside.
4:11You've lost 5 more years to this
4:13addiction and you're even weaker than
4:15you are today. I did this exercise in
4:172022 [music] and it terrified me. I saw
4:20myself at 30 years old still trapped in
4:22the same cycle, still making the same
4:24promises, still failing. That terror is
4:27what you need. Your brain needs to see
4:29the cliff you're driving toward. This
4:31isn't meant to depress you. It's meant
4:32to wake you up. Once I saw what was
4:34waiting for me, if I didn't change, I
4:36finally started moving. Write it down.
4:38Look at it. Let it scare you. Then let
4:41that fear become action. Step three,
4:44identify your trigger map. Every time
4:46you watch pornography and masturbate, it
4:48follows a pattern. You just don't see it
4:50yet because you're too busy feeling
4:51guilty. So, here's what you need to do.
4:53Create a trigger journal after every
4:55single urge, not just relapses. Write
4:58down these five things. What time was
5:00it? Where were you? What were you
5:02feeling? What app were you on? What was
5:04the exact trigger that led you to search
5:06on Google? When I started tracking mine,
5:08I discovered something. Every single
5:10relapse followed the same pattern. 10
5:12p.m. to 1:00 a.m. in my room alone
5:15scrolling Instagram or Tik Tok.
5:16Something triggering would pop up on my
5:18feed. Then I'd switch to my browser,
5:20type into Google, you know the rest.
5:22Once I saw the pattern, I realized I
5:24wasn't [music] randomly weak. I was
5:26walking into the same ambush every
5:28single night. Do this for 7 days
5:30minimum. Patterns will emerge. You'll
5:32see, oh, I relapse every time I'm
5:33stressed about exams or I relapse when
5:35I'm alone at night scrolling social
5:37media. This is your ambush map. And once
5:39you know where the ambush is, you can
5:41avoid it. Step four, remove visual
5:43triggers immediately. Now that you know
5:45your triggers, it's time to remove them
5:47with zero [music] mercy. Go through your
5:49Instagram right now. Unfollow every
5:51single account that posts triggering
5:53content. Every model, every influencer,
5:56every fitness account that's really just
5:57soft pornography. If it causes you to
6:00stumble even 1%, unfollow it. Delete Tik
6:03Tok if that's your trigger. Block every
6:05pornography site using site [music]
6:06blockers. Clean your YouTube algorithm
6:09by deleting your entire watch history. I
6:11unfollowed 200 accounts in one day. My
6:13feed looked empty for a week. But you
6:16know what? That emptiness saved my life
6:18because I wasn't seeing triggers every 5
6:20seconds anymore. And here's the key.
6:22Don't negotiate. Your brain will say,
6:24"But this account posts good content
6:26sometimes." No. If it triggers you even
6:28once a month, it goes. You're not
6:30cutting out good things. You're removing
6:32poison. The prophet said, "Whoever gives
6:35up something for the sake of Allah,
6:37Allah will replace it with something
6:38better." I gave up those accounts. Allah
6:41gave me peace of mind. Step five, make
6:44access hard. Removing triggers isn't
6:46[music] enough because you can still
6:47search for new content. So now you need
6:49to make access as difficult as possible.
6:52Here's what I did. Phone stays out of my
6:54bedroom at night. I charge it in the
6:56kitchen. App blockers installed with
6:57passwords. I don't know. I gave those
7:00passwords to my brother. Screen time
7:02limits turned on. [music] Private
7:03browsing completely disabled. Every
7:05single barrier I could add, I added.
7:08Why? Because addiction thrives on ease.
7:11The easier it is to access pornography,
7:13the more you will. But every extra step
7:16you add between yourself and the content
7:18is a chance for your brain to pause and
7:20think. When I had to walk to the
7:22kitchen, grab my [music] phone, then
7:24realize I can't even open the browser
7:26because it's blocked. That 30 second
7:28journey gave me time to remember why I'm
7:30doing this. And most of the time, the
7:32urge would die during that walk. Make it
7:35hard. Add friction. Add obstacles. Treat
7:38your phone like it's radioactive at
7:40night. [music] Step six, create an urge
7:42emergency plan. Here's the reality. Even
7:44after removing triggers and blocking
7:46access, urges will still hit. That's
7:48normal. Your brain has been getting
7:49dopamine from pornography [music] for
7:51years, it's going to crave it. So, you
7:53need a protocol for when that craving
7:55hits. Here's mine. And you need to
7:56memorize this right now. The moment the
7:59urge hits, stand up immediately. Don't
8:01negotiate. Don't think about it. Stand
8:03up. Then do 10 push-ups or 20 jumping
8:06jacks. Splash cold [music] water on your
8:08face. Leave the room you're in. Call or
8:10text your accountability partner and
8:12say, "I'm having an urge right now. This
8:14saved me dozens of times." Urges peak
8:16and crash within 15 to 20 minutes. If
8:19you can survive those minutes, the urge
8:21dies. The push-ups redirect your brain's
8:24energy. The cold water shocks your
8:26system. Saying the dua reminds you that
8:28Shayan is attacking. Leaving the room
8:30removes you from the environment. And
8:32texting your accountability partner
8:34creates immediate shame that kills
8:36[music] the desire. I have this written
8:38on a note on my wall. Emergency urge
8:40protocol. And whenever I felt weak, I'd
8:42read it and follow it exactly. It works.
8:44But only if you actually [music] do it.
8:46Step seven, replace the input. Your
8:49brain was spending 30 to 60 minutes
8:51daily consuming pornography and
8:53masturbating. That time doesn't
8:54disappear when you quit. You have to
8:56fill it with something or your brain
8:58will pull you back. So here's what I
9:00did. Every single minute I used to spend
9:03on pornography, I replaced with Quran
9:06skills or fitness. Used to watch 30
9:09minutes of pornography at night. Now I
9:11recite Quran for [music] 30 minutes.
9:13Used to scroll triggering content for an
9:15hour. Now I'm learning video editing.
9:17Used to masturbate multiple times a day.
9:19Now I'm working out or playing sports.
9:22You have to feed your brain new images,
9:24new dopamine sources. Because if you
9:27just remove pornography without
9:28replacing it, you'll go back. The rule I
9:30followed, whatever time I used to spend
9:32on lust, I spent double that on
9:34something beneficial. If I used to watch
9:3630 [music] minutes of pornography, I'd
9:38spend 1 hour on Quran and
9:40self-improvement. This overwhelms the
9:42old neural pathways and builds [music]
9:44new ones. Within 2 weeks, my brain
9:46started craving Quran the way it used to
9:48crave pornography. That's when I knew I
9:50was winning. Step eight, build daily
9:53micro discipline. Here's something
9:55nobody tells you. Beating this addiction
9:57isn't about one big moment of [music]
9:58strength. It's about small daily wins
10:00that compound. So, I built four
10:02non-negotiables into my life. And you
10:04need to do the same. All five prayers on
10:07time, especially fajger, 15 to 20
10:09minutes of Quran daily. Fixed sleep
10:12schedule, sleeping early, waking [music]
10:14early, 20 to 30 minute workout or walk.
10:17These aren't just good habits. They're
10:19training your willpower muscle. Every
10:21time you wake up for fajger when your
10:23body wants to sleep, you're proving to
10:25yourself that you can control your
10:26desires. Every time you read Quran, when
10:29you'd rather scroll, you're building
10:31discipline. Every time you go to the gym
10:33when you're tired, you're getting
10:35stronger mentally and physically. I
10:37failed at this in 2022 because I tried
10:39to do everything at once. So, start with
10:41one. Just fajger on time for 7 days.
10:44Then add Quran. Then add exercise. Build
10:47slowly. The prophet said, "The most
10:48beloved deeds to Allah are the
10:50consistent ones, even if small. Small
10:52daily wins beat big motivation bursts
10:55every single time." Step nine, use
10:57social accountability. This is the step
10:59that changed everything for me. You
11:01cannot beat this addiction alone. The
11:03wolf attacks the sheep that wanders
11:05alone. I tried fighting in secret for 5
11:07years and failed every time. Then in
11:10February 2025, I told one brother I
11:12trust completely. I said, "I'm addicted
11:14to pornography and masturbation. I need
11:17your help. We set up daily check-ins.
11:19Every night I text him. Clean today with
11:21a check mark or relapse today. [music]
11:23That's it. No long explanations, just
11:26accountability. And you know what
11:27happened? I didn't want to text
11:29relapsed. That social pressure became my
11:31shield. When I felt an urge, I'd think,
11:33"Do I want to text him tomorrow and
11:35admit I failed?" That thought alone
11:37killed the urge dozens of times. Find
11:40one person, a brother, a friend, someone
11:43you trust who won't judge you. Tell them
11:45your struggle. Set up daily check-ins.
11:48If you don't have anyone, join an online
11:50accountability group. There are Muslim
11:52Brothers groups specifically for this.
11:54But you have to tell someone. Shame dies
11:56in the light. When someone else knows
11:58your battle, the battle gets easier. The
12:00prophet said, "A believer to another
12:02believer is like a building. Each part
12:04strengthening the other." You need that
12:05other part. Don't fight alone. Step 10.
12:08Track streaks. Not shame. Get a physical
12:11calendar or print one out. Every clean
12:13day, put a big X on that date. Every
12:16relapse, put a small dot and restart
12:18counting. Your goal is simple. Longest
12:20streak possible. [music]
12:22This does something powerful to your
12:23brain. It shifts your focus from failure
12:26to progress. In 2023, I'd relapse and
12:29think, I'm such a failure, I'll never
12:31change. But with the calendar, I'd
12:33relapse and think, okay, I made it 7
12:34days. Next time, I'll make it 10. The
12:36dot isn't the end. It's data. It's
12:38feedback. And over time, the streaks get
12:41longer. 7 days becomes 14. 14 becomes
12:4421. 21 becomes 30. And here's the
12:47beautiful part. Every milestone you hit,
12:50your brain releases dopamine from
12:51achievement. You start getting that
12:53pleasure chemical from winning instead
12:55of from pornography. I remember hitting
12:5830 days clean for the first time. I
13:00looked at that calendar full of X marks
13:02and felt more proud than I'd felt in
13:03years. That feeling became more
13:05addictive than pornography ever was.
13:08Celebrate every milestone. 7 days. Make
13:11special dua. 14 days, treat yourself to
13:14something halal. 30 days, thank Allah
13:16and sajjud. 90 days, you're basically a
13:20different person. Track your progress.
13:22Celebrate your wins. And when you fall,
13:24get up and start again. Step 11, rewire
13:28the mind. This step is about permanently
13:30[music] changing your brain's wiring.
13:31For 6 years, your brain has been seeing
13:34pornographic images daily. Those images
13:36are burned into your neural pathways.
13:38You need to overwrite them. Here's how.
13:40for 30 to 60 days minimum. Flood your
13:43brain with Quran and Islamic [music]
13:44content. 30 minutes daily, 20 minutes
13:47Quran recitation, 10 minutes Islamic
13:49lectures or reading. I did this every
13:52single morning right after fajer before
13:54checking my phone before doing anything
13:56else. Quran first and something started
13:59happening. The images that used [music]
14:01to flash in my mind randomly, they
14:03started fading. The Quranic verses I was
14:05memorizing started replacing them. My
14:07brain was literally being rewired.
14:08[music]
14:09Science calls this neuroplasticity. Your
14:12brain can change, but it needs
14:14repetition and time. One day of Quran
14:16won't fix 6 years of pornography, but 30
14:18days of consistent Quran, 60 days, 90
14:21days. [music] Your brain structure
14:23actually changes. The old pathways
14:25weaken, new pathways strengthen. You're
14:27not just removing pornography, you're
14:29installing Quran in its place. This is
14:32non-negotiable. If you want permanent
14:34freedom, you have to reprogram [music]
14:35your mind. And the only thing powerful
14:37enough to overwrite pornography is the
14:39word of Allah. Step 12, manage health
14:42and energy. A weak body increases
14:44cravings. I learned this the hard way.
14:46The months I was sleeping 4 hours,
14:48eating junk food, and sitting all day,
14:51those were my relapse months because a
14:53tired, unhealthy body has zero
14:55willpower. So, I fixed four things, and
14:57you need to fix them, too. Sleep 7 to 8
15:00hours every night. Sleep deprivation
15:02destroys your prefrontal cortex, the
15:04part of your brain that controls
15:06impulses. Eat clean whole foods, not
15:08processed [music] junk. Processed food
15:10creates brain fog, which makes you weak.
15:13Exercise regularly, even if it's just
15:15walking. This burns excess energy that
15:17otherwise feeds urges. Fix digestive
15:19issues like constipation. When your body
15:22is uncomfortable, urges are stronger. I
15:24started going to bed at 10:00 p.m.
15:26Waking up at 5:00 a.m. for fer. Eating
15:28home-cooked meals. working out four
15:30times a week. Within 2 weeks, my urges
15:33decreased by half. Not because my
15:35willpower increased, but because my body
15:37wasn't constantly craving dopamine to
15:39fix how terrible it felt. Take care of
15:41your body. Your brain will follow. Step
15:4413. Practice fasting and discipline. The
15:47prophet said, "Whoever cannot afford
15:48marriage should fast, for it is a
15:50shield." I didn't understand this until
15:52I started fasting Mondays and Thursdays.
15:54[music]
15:54Fasting teaches your naps one critical
15:57lesson. I control my desires. They don't
15:59control me. When you can tell your body,
16:01I know you're hungry, but you're not
16:03eating until Maghreb, you're training
16:05willpower. I also added one weekly cold
16:08shower every Friday morning. 5 minutes
16:10of cold water. You know what that
16:12teaches you? I can do hard things. I can
16:15be uncomfortable and survive. [music]
16:16And when an urge would hit later that
16:18week, I'd remember I stood under
16:20freezing water for 5 minutes by choice.
16:23I can definitely resist this urge for 20
16:25minutes. These practices aren't just
16:27sunna. They're training. Fasting trains
16:30your body to obey you. Cold showers
16:32train your mind to embrace discomfort.
16:34And when you're strong mentally and
16:36physically, lust becomes weak. Pick 2
16:38days a [music] week to fast. Add one
16:40weekly cold shower. Your naps will learn
16:42who's in charge. Step 14. Have a relapse
16:45recovery routine. Here's the final step,
16:47and it's critical. If you relapse,
16:49[music]
16:50and there's a chance you might, don't
16:51spiral into despair. I relapsed in 2022
16:54and gave up for months thinking I'm too
16:56[music] weak. I'll never change. Don't
16:59do that. Have a protocol ready. The
17:01moment you relapse, make [music] woodoo
17:02and pray two rakats of taba immediately.
17:05Call your accountability partner right
17:06away and tell them. Write in your
17:08journal what triggered you and what
17:10you'll change. Delete whatever caused
17:12the relapse, whether it's an app, an
17:14account, or content. Do a 24-hour reset.
17:17Extra prayers, extra Quran, extra
17:19dicker. Then return to your plan next
17:21day. Allah says in the Quran, "Indeed,
17:23Allah loves those who are constantly
17:25repentant, not those who never sin,
17:28those who keep coming back." I relapsed
17:30twice in early 2022 during my journey.
17:33Both times I followed this protocol,
17:35made Taba, called my accountability
17:37brother, analyzed what went wrong, fixed
17:39it, and got back on track. Those two
17:42relapses didn't destroy me because I had
17:43a system to recover. Relapse doesn't
17:45mean failure. Giving up means failure.
17:48If you fall, get up immediately. Don't
17:50wait until tomorrow. Don't wallow in
17:52shame for days. Repent right now. Fix
17:55the leak. [music] Keep moving forward.
17:57These 14 steps took me from six years of
17:59addiction to 270 plus days of complete
18:02freedom. From watching pornography and
18:04masturbating multiple times a day to
18:05total control. They're not theories.
18:08They're what actually worked. And if
18:10they worked for me, they'll work for
18:11you. Comment below which step you're
18:13starting with tonight. Share this with a
18:15brother who's trapped [music] and needs
18:17hope. and subscribe because we're
18:19building better Muslims here, one video
18:21at a time. [music] Your 270day journey
18:24starts right now.

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