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0:05It’s not easy, I know, but girl, it’s
0:07part of it. See you on Sunday at the
0:09usual time.
0:10>> Hello, welcome to another episode.
0:14This time, solo.
0:16I already did this last year, solo after
0:18the half-marathon, and I thought it made
0:20sense because I also want, obviously, to
0:22bring more solo episodes, as I had said
0:24at the beginning of this third season of
0:26"Amiga faz parte."
0:28Uh, and I thought it made sense in terms
0:31of timing, because I literally just got
0:33back yesterday late afternoon from my
0:35Valencia half-marathon, the one that was
0:37my goal and that I’d been mega nervous
0:40about for a long time and spent the last
0:424 months preparing for.
0:44So, a big deal in my life.
0:48Ah, no one cares if I finished under 2
0:50hours or if I didn't, but I set this
0:52goal for myself and I was really very
0:54nervous lately about this race.
0:58Because it was, it was months of
0:59preparation, so I thought it made sense
1:02to sit here for a bit as well. And I
1:04don't want this episode to be just about
1:05the half-marathon, because I feel like
1:07it pushes away the folks who aren't into
1:09running.
1:10But obviously, I will also explain a
1:13little bit how I felt during this race
1:15and how it all went, but bring a bit of
1:17therapy too and what I'm feeling, how I
1:20am right now, my rose, thorn, and seed.
1:24Uh, well, the normal episodes and this
1:26debrief of everything that's going on in
1:28my head, the mess that's in my head
1:30right now.
1:31But I thought it made sense, because
1:33last year I also did this solo episode
1:35after the half-marathon.
1:37And, at the time, it was an even bigger
1:39deal for me, because it was my first
1:40half-marathon and I was much more
1:42nervous, and it was much more of a scene
1:44than now, that I already know what it is
1:45, I already know what I'm getting into.
1:49But I went in with a set goal, so there
1:51was just as much pressure; I put immense
1:53pressure on myself to reach this goal.
1:56But I thought it made sense to also draw
1:59a parallel between how I was back then
2:01versus now, uh, what I felt post-race or
2:03the post-race blues that I'm feeling and
2:06that I was feeling at the time, and make
2:08a parallel with a year ago, because it
2:11was literally a year ago that I did my
2:13first half-marathon.
2:17But well, let's start obviously with the
2:19rose, which is that I ran it in under 2
2:21hours, so I met my goal, so obviously
2:24that will be this week’s rose.
2:27Oh, I felt really, really good during
2:29the race. I also ended up sharing a more
2:32detailed and focused account of the race
2:35on YouTube. So, for those who are into
2:37running and interested in these kinds of
2:40topics, I ended up sharing a lot there
2:42and also explaining a bit, taking people
2:44along with me through a bit of the
2:46preparation process up until the day of
2:48the race. I explained a lot about how I
2:51felt during the race, but I am,
2:53obviously, very, very, very happy to
2:55have managed to meet this goal.
2:57I knew perfectly well that I was
2:59prepared for it, because I followed the
3:01training and was mega focused.
3:04And one thing that really makes me happy
3:06is that, despite everything that came up
3:08, all the plans, all the trips,
3:10everything that could have completely
3:12disrupted my schedule and kept me from
3:15completing my training, it all happened
3:17and I still managed to do it.
3:21So, more than just running under 2 hours
3:22, more than achieving that goal,
3:24yesterday was just about running and
3:26going to get the medal, because
3:27everything else, all the preparation I
3:29did, had already been the great victory
3:31of this entire half-marathon training
3:33cycle.
3:35So, I am obviously very happy because
3:38it's a pace that was unthinkable for me
3:40a year ago, to think that I would be
3:43running a half under 5:40, which for me
3:45is super fast.
3:47Okay, I'm not really used to. these
3:49speeds. So, feeling comfortable at that
3:52speed, feeling that I was strong the
3:55whole race, made me feel really
3:57confident in myself and really strong
3:59and truly capable of anything, because
4:02this is about so much more than just
4:05running.
4:06I'm always saying this, running brings
4:08this to me, but I'm sure you also have
4:10other things in your life that bring you
4:13that feeling, that uplift you and give
4:15you that confidence.
4:17And for me, it's totally running. It’s
4:19not wanting to show up and doing it
4:21anyway, and managing to finish a tough
4:23workout.
4:25And it's showing up on race day, knowing
4:26that I'm going to suffer and that it's
4:28going to be super difficult, but that I
4:29will reach the end and I will manage to
4:31meet that goal.
4:32And then in the end, I feel like I am
4:34capable of anything. The feeling of
4:36reaching the end of a race like this and
4:38an effort like this, the feeling of
4:40crossing the finish line is inexplicable
4:43.
4:44It’s something that, I, look, I put a
4:46lot of expectations on this day, because
4:49a year ago in Cardiff, I’d say it was my
4:51favorite day of the year, last year. Uh
4:54, and it was, the preparation cycle for
4:56the half-marathon last year was also one
4:58of my favorite periods, and I put a lot
5:00of pressure on myself.
5:02Uh, and it was also a super peak of
5:04happiness, uh, that I hadn’t felt in a
5:06long time, that running brings me, but
5:08that these challenges and pushing
5:10ourselves to the limit also bring us.
5:14But on the other hand, it also left me
5:16thinking that it was much less of a "
5:18high" than it was a year ago.
5:20And why? I feel that when I started
5:23making this change in my life and
5:26wanting to enter the world of sports,
5:28losing weight, focusing on nutrition,
5:31focusing on health, therapy, wanting to
5:34be healthy and stable, seeking that
5:37stability.
5:39When you're in that slightly unstable
5:40phase, it's normal for everything that's
5:42a peak of happiness to be a giant high,
5:44and the low just the same.
5:46Even smaller things can happen, but
5:48they’ll bring you down even further. And
5:50small things will also bring an absurdly
5:52high peak of happiness.
5:54And it's normal for you to have those
5:56peaks a bit more.
5:58And I feel I’m in such a more stable
6:00phase in my life now that that doesn’t
6:02happen, meaning, yesterday's race didn't
6:05bring me that absurd peak it brought me
6:07a year ago.
6:09But I’m okay with that, because I think
6:12it’s part of us starting out in, in a
6:14phase really full of peaks, and then we
6:17...it slows down until we feel we have
6:19those peaks and. that yesterday did
6:21effectively bring me a lot of happiness
6:24, but at the same time it no longer
6:26brings me that giant high, but it’s also
6:28not bringing me that "blues" I felt
6:30after the Cardiff half. Do you know what
6:32I mean?
6:33In other words, a year ago I felt a
6:35giant peak of happiness, but the day
6:37after, I remember that week after I
6:39really felt that thing that people call
6:41the post-half-marathon blues, post-race
6:43, post-marathon.
6:45And I felt that, I felt that slight
6:47depression of "I trained so hard, and
6:49now what’s next?"
6:51I need the next one. It’s easy to draw a
6:54parallel to many things in our lives:
6:56how we are constantly fighting to get
6:58that position, we get that position,
7:00that role, and we have that peak of
7:02happiness on the day we get the news.
7:04But then you come down from that peak
7:05and what follows is a downward slope,
7:07because the rest of your life isn't
7:09going that well either.
7:11So, you’re just pinning your happiness
7:14on that one goal, that shiny object that
7:18, in the end, won't fulfill you the way
7:21you expected, because it’s just one day
7:25, just a moment, a sporadic moment.
7:29And I feel that all the work I’ve been
7:31doing has led me to a point where,
7:33nowadays, I perhaps don't feel that high
7:36as much.
7:37But I’m also doing great today, I’m
7:40balanced.
7:42I no longer get those post-half-marathon
7:44blues; I don’t feel like the rug has
7:46been pulled out from under me and I
7:48suddenly need another goal, like: "Oh my
7:50God, let me sit down and decide if I’ll
7:52do a marathon, or set a target time for
7:54my next half." I finished my Cardiff
7:56half and it was immediately like: "Okay
7:58, now I want to break 2 hours and I’m
8:00going to sign up for this and sign up
8:02for that."
8:03And it was immediate; it’s normal for
8:05this to happen, for our endorphins to be
8:06sky-high and for us to want more.
8:09And I do want more; I want to keep
8:11running, I want to run faster, and I
8:13want to do more, but I no longer have
8:14that feeling of, "Hey, it’s all over,
8:16now what am I going to do with my life?
8:18"
8:19I don't need more goals just to have
8:21something to hold onto. You know what I
8:23mean? I don’t need that anymore, that
8:25something to hold onto, because I feel
8:27more stable. That's it.
8:29And that makes me happy too; at least
8:31it's a reflection I've been having, and
8:33I think it makes sense—at least in my
8:34head—and looking back at how I was
8:36feeling a year ago, I think it makes
8:38sense to explain it this way.
8:40I am obviously a very rational person,
8:42and I really like to analyze things,
8:44whether it's my own head or how I was
8:46feeling.
8:47During the race, I thought about it
8:49several times; I remembered the feeling
8:51of running the Cardiff half-marathon,
8:53and I thought about it over and over.
8:57I perfectly remember the stupidity I
8:59pulled in Cardiff, starting super fast
9:01and then crashing at the 10km mark, and
9:03I was running with headphones, alone
9:05with my music, battling my own head, and
9:07I remember that from 10km on, it was
9:09very, very, very painful.
9:11Everything hurt, my legs were aching, I
9:13wanted to stop at every moment.
9:15From 10 km onwards, I didn't enjoy the
9:18race at all, it was painful.
9:21That's why the feeling of reward at the
9:24end is even greater, because I know I
9:26suffered so much, so much, and that I
9:29was capable.
9:31And yesterday, it was an incredible
9:33feeling to feel light, I felt strong, I
9:36felt that I was running at a pace that
9:38is uncomfortable for me, but I loved the
9:41race and I enjoyed it and I don't feel
9:44like I suffered that much.
9:46And it's, man, it's incredible to feel
9:49this, honestly. That's why it makes me
9:51want even more, to want to run even
9:53faster, because I feel I'm in a running
9:55flow that makes me really comfortable
9:57and I managed to enjoy almost the whole
9:59race.
10:00The last 4 km or so were tough and I was
10:02already thinking, I want this to end, I
10:05want this to be over, but I ran the
10:07whole race without headphones, which is
10:09something I also thought I wouldn't be
10:11able to do.
10:13I didn't take music. Actually, I took
10:15the headphones for comfort in case I
10:17felt like it, and if I was really
10:18breaking down, I would grab them.
10:22They were there in my pocket, but I
10:23didn't use them and I was able to be
10:25really involved in the race, enjoying it
10:26, paying attention to the people, paying
10:28attention to the course and it was
10:30spectacular.
10:31And I also took a friend with me, Tiago
10:33came with me the whole time, which
10:35helped a lot. It makes a big difference
10:37to have company, to have someone there
10:39pushing us.
10:41And especially, in the initial phase, in
10:43the first 16, 17 km, when I was super
10:45fresh, super comfortable, it's good to
10:47have someone there, not to talk, because
10:49I can't talk at that pace, because I'd
10:50waste immense energy, but I was locked
10:52into my thing.
10:54But having someone by my side, we always
10:57know we have company there. And then
10:59from those kilometers on when I started
11:01to break down, that's when it made all
11:03the difference, because it's like, I
11:04know that if I stop, I have someone
11:06there who will push me, so that won't
11:07happen. And at the same time having
11:09someone there always, like, come on, go
11:11, go, go, don't give up. Like a little
11:13pep talk in my ear makes a real
11:15difference. And I had never done a race
11:18like this, I think all the races I've
11:20done until now were 100%alone. So, it
11:22was really the first time I had company
11:24and it really makes a difference for
11:27your head.
11:28So, if you have challenges like this and
11:30are going to races or any other events,
11:32I highly recommend you bring someone
11:34along.
11:36Even yesterday, we were all running at
11:38different paces, but we were all in
11:40little pairs.
11:42There were literally four pairs of two,
11:44no one ran alone, and it was like some
11:46pushing others, and there's always
11:47someone who runs faster pushing the
11:49person who is trying to get a personal
11:51best.
11:52Which is really cool, because you're
11:54there with someone who knows the goal,
11:56you're both controlling, like, the speed
11:58, both fighting for the same thing, and
12:00it's much easier, it ends up helping a
12:03lot.
12:03So, that was also something new about
12:05this race, and for me, it really made
12:07all the difference. Well, I'm just going
12:09to drink a little bit of water here
12:12with electrolytes.
12:15I'm feeling a bit. I'm okay, physically
12:18, like, my body, I don't have many aches
12:21.
12:22I just got a little sore, like, here in
12:26my hips, but I'm fine.
12:28It's just that I'm, I think it's
12:30dehydration. I didn't drink much water
12:32yesterday, that was a mistake. And today
12:34I hadn't had any yet either, so I'm here
12:36in the studio and I'm feeling a bit like
12:38I'm seeing stars. And I think it's
12:39without a doubt a lack of water. And
12:41replenishing salts also helps a lot. I
12:43think I always undervalued it a bit and
12:45, back at the Cardiff half marathon,
12:48like, I was also just entering the
12:50running world, I didn't quite understand
12:52it and I always kept undervaluing the
12:54importance of food, water, electrolytes
12:56, all of that, even on a functional
12:58level for better performance and how
13:00it's directly related to the result
13:02you'll get, man, but I felt a very big
13:05difference. This time, like, in terms of
13:07gels, I behaved super well. I drank tons
13:09of electrolytes and tons of water before
13:11and now I'm feeling, I'm feeling like
13:13I'm crashing. And I think it's also a
13:15bit of a lack of water. It's like, it's
13:17the difference that hydration and
13:19nutrition make in this whole process.
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16:00And, besides running with company having
16:03helped a lot, I think that one thing,
16:05compared to when I first started running
16:08, one thing that, that makes me really
16:10happy and helps me a lot, is feeling
16:12that I also have a group and that people
16:15are entering my life who understand me
16:18really well.
16:19And I feel that having entered, started
16:22in running and in the sports world, gave
16:24me a range of people who entered, like,
16:27an avalanche of people who came into my
16:29life.
16:30And feeling like we're in our element is
16:33a spectacular thing. I have tons of
16:36friends who are zero into the sports
16:38world, tons of friends I'm constantly
16:40with, who I plan so much with, who are
16:42my lifelong friends, those friends who
16:45are like family, the ones I went to
16:47Dublin with, my college friends too, who
16:49aren't in that world at all.
16:52But then I also have these friendships
16:54related to the sports world that really
16:57understand my mindset of wanting to eat
16:59well, my mindset that this is a huge
17:01goal, that this is a huge struggle.
17:05This, this sports and wellness and
17:07health mindset is something that, when
17:09you find people who think the same way,
17:12I think there's a connection there
17:14that's hard to explain and you feel like
17:16you can really be yourself, in showing
17:19that side of you that you sometimes keep
17:21hidden from those who don't understand
17:24it as well.
17:25You know what I mean?
17:27And this weekend was also very good in
17:29that sense, because I feel that
17:31traveling with friends who also get that
17:34side and also like the same things
17:36really makes all the difference, whether
17:38we're talking about sports or other
17:40completely different areas.
17:43I think being in a group, like, for
17:45example, when I host those friendstorm
17:47dinners where I get friends together, I
17:49also feel exactly the same thing when it
17:51comes to, for example, my work, content
17:53creation, working for myself, I also
17:55feel identified.
17:57So, looking for circles of people and
18:00having those people to surround
18:02ourselves with from these various areas
18:05, various facets of ours, helps a lot
18:07and made this weekend very happy,
18:10because I was surrounded by people who
18:13feel and think and understand exactly
18:15what I feel when it comes to my health,
18:18when it comes to my relationship with
18:21sports and my relationship with food too
18:24.
18:25And this running and sports thing is not
18:27just a hobby.
18:29And it's always been that way, for me it
18:31was never just a hobby.
18:33And it's not just a way for me to unwind
18:35, it's not just a way for me to have fun
18:37and have a goal, it's
18:40it's a lifestyle that I am choosing,
18:43prioritizing this in my life to such an
18:46extent that it becomes a central piece,
18:49that determines my mood, determines the
18:52confidence I have in myself, the
18:55self-esteem I have, which I then carry
18:58over into all areas of my life and I
19:01feel I am a better version of myself
19:03when I feel aligned in all these parts
19:06of me.
19:07And that is also why I love sharing
19:10about this and talking about running and
19:13talking about sports in this way,
19:15because for me it was truly something
19:18that saved me and has been saving me
19:21every day, and ended up being my little
19:24light at the end of the tunnel during a
19:26phase when I was more lost.
19:29And I think these milestones and these
19:31little achievements also deserve to be
19:34celebrated and should be celebrated
19:36because they are part of a whole journey
19:38where we often forget where we started.
19:42And that's why I think, I often think,
19:44is running, is this just a phase for me
19:47?
19:48I'm so prone to hyperfocus, so prone to
19:50being really turned toward one thing,
19:51suddenly I start reading and I'm reading
19:53seven books in a week. Could this just
19:56be a hyperfocus of mine? I believe that
19:59maybe running won't be my thing forever
20:02; it will probably always be changing.
20:06But I think sports, and the way I look
20:09at physical exercise and my health, I
20:11don't think at all that it's a phase and
20:14I hope it isn't, because it really
20:16brings a lot of happiness on every level
20:19.
20:20And a balance that, honestly, I haven't
20:23found anything else in my life that
20:25regulates me so well. And let's move on
20:28to the thorn.
20:29So, all this is wonderful and life is
20:32beautiful and we love our life and
20:34sports are incredible and we run a sub-
20:362-hour half marathon.
20:38Hmm. And now what is the thorn?
20:43I feel like I have, I am a naturally
20:46anxious person, but I feel like lately I
20:49have been even more so.
20:53And it's hard for me to say "I am
20:54anxious," because I know we shouldn't
20:56say that, it's like, no, I have anxiety
20:57, I am not anxious, but I feel like I am
20:59an anxious person, honestly.
21:01I feel like this is something that has
21:02been with me for a long time.
21:05I’m an anxious person in many parts of
21:07my life and lately, I don't know why,
21:09but I feel even more anxious.
21:14And if I look at my life, like,
21:15everything is fine, so why am I getting
21:18stressed over things that don't even
21:20make sense?
21:21Everything is really kind of aligned. I
21:23am, I feel like I’m in such a good phase
21:25on every level. I’m loving my work,
21:28which was something that really, I don’t
21:30know, I spoke so many times here on the
21:32podcast about it, I was really
21:34demotivated. The last year I was super
21:36demotivated with everything. I didn't, I
21:39didn't feel like, eh, showing up on
21:40social media. I was already, like, I
21:42didn't feel like talking on the podcast
21:45.
21:45I had, I had phases, even regarding work
21:47, where I was really demotivated and
21:49questioning everything and thinking: "
21:50What am I going to do with my life?"
21:52, like, why don't I want to do social
21:54media anymore, I don't want to do this
21:55anymore, I don't like this. I was really
21:57in a loop, you know?
21:59And because I wasn't aligned with what I
22:02was doing and I was really overthinking
22:04everything.
22:06And I'm in a phase where I'm really
22:08super motivated with my work.
22:10I don't feel like it's an avalanche of
22:13things that I can't handle.
22:17I’m doing super well with running, I’m
22:19mega happy with my friendships, with
22:21everything. Everything is mega aligned
22:24and, at the same time, I feel more
22:26anxious than ever. And I can’t really
22:28explain this, where this comes from, to
22:30the point of having insomnia, not being
22:33able to sleep well.
22:36Of course, I just had an exam and that
22:37was also a reason for me to be a little
22:38more anxious, but it’s not just that.
22:41I’ve been really stressed and it seems
22:44that even small things and organizing my
22:46schedule and everything, like, I get
22:48into this loop of getting mega mega
22:50anxious over things that don't make
22:52sense and I can't explain where this
22:54anxiety comes from.
22:57At the same time, I try to control it
22:58and try to find tools so I don't feel
23:00like this in my day-to-day, and, and try
23:02to manage to sleep anyway, and find a
23:04way to get around this and be more
23:05organized, and those tips that we share
23:07here on the podcast of, literally,
23:08sitting down, looking at my schedule,
23:10organizing everything.
23:14But I feel it's partly because I want to
23:17be everywhere and also want to please
23:19everyone, and have everyone super happy
23:22and never say no, which is still
23:25difficult.
23:26Although I feel I’m doing much better,
23:29it's hard, and it ends up always giving
23:31me a little bit of guilt: "I want to be
23:33here, but I also want to be there, and I
23:36want to accept this trip, and I want to
23:38be doing this, and I also want to be
23:40with that person, with family," and that
23:42then creates a cloud in my head that, in
23:45my day-to-day life, like, affects me in
23:47everything.
23:48And I think I’m a person who doesn't
23:50feel like I let life go on autopilot,
23:52you know?
23:55And getting into that thing where
23:56everything is happening and, man, the
23:58ball is rolling and there's no time, it
24:00doesn't give me space to stop and think
24:01, to evaluate if I feel like I'm good
24:03here, good there, if I like this, if I
24:05like that, if I'm following the right
24:06path.
24:08I feel like sometimes I’m a quite
24:10conscious person and that, and the fact
24:12that I sit down and write and even use
24:15the podcast for thoughts and to analyze
24:17things. I’m quite rational about that,
24:20and going to therapy and talking too—I
24:22talk a lot with my friends and I debate
24:25my things a lot and I ponder a lot and
24:27rationalize a lot. Uh, I think I don't
24:29have a tendency for that.
24:32However, in the last few months, a lot
24:34has been changing in my life, and I feel
24:36that when you are in a good phase and
24:38are attracting only good things, because
24:40you are well, that is, you are happy,
24:42you are overflowing with that happiness
24:44, then it's normal that more things that
24:46are aligned with you also come: more
24:48work opportunities, more travel
24:50invitations, more of this, more of that
24:52, more things happening that.
24:56And you, being on that positive
24:58frequency, will attract more of that and
25:00will want to, will be more responsive to
25:02that, which then ends up leaving me full
25:04of things, and full of things that are
25:06cool and dynamic and fun and that I love
25:08and that I want.
25:11But then it's an avalanche of things
25:13that you can't really manage: this whole
25:15thing of "I want to be here, but I also
25:17want to be there."
25:20And suddenly I’ve accepted too many
25:22things and you start putting
25:24immeasurable pressure on yourself, which
25:26then results, perhaps, in this constant
25:28feeling of "I'm not able to be
25:30everywhere, because I'm here, but I'm
25:32not 100%here, because I feel like I'm
25:35failing over there."
25:38And this then generates, obviously,
25:39constant anxiety because it’s a pressure
25:41that we keep putting on ourselves.
25:44And perhaps it’s poor management, or a
25:47type of management I need to do better
25:50on my part, to try to say no more often
25:52, to try to think more about Future
25:55Mariana.
25:56Because we often end up making these
25:58hot-headed decisions: "I want this
26:00because it’s cool and it just came up,
26:02and I have to say yes right now."
26:05And then, in two weeks, Future Mariana
26:07has to deal with the fact that she won't
26:08be able to be there, won't be able to do
26:10that thing, and maybe she’ll be stressed
26:11with work because she isn't able to
26:13fulfill everything she wanted to.
26:15And it's about thinking, having a little
26:17bit more of this consciousness to think
26:18. That’s why I say, I feel I’m not much
26:20for letting things slide and being on
26:22autopilot without having this awareness
26:24.
26:25I think I do this conscious exercise a
26:27lot, but at the same time, it’s been a
26:29phase that’s hard for me to manage,
26:31because it’s so much, so much changing,
26:34so much happening, and many emotional
26:36changes too that are difficult for me to
26:39manage day-to-day, and maybe my anxiety
26:41might stem a little from that.
26:44And meanwhile, this week I wanted to
26:46tell you that I did something very cool
26:47that I had been meaning to do for a long
26:49time and that goes a bit along these
26:51lines, this reflection on why this also
26:53happens to me and that justifies a lot
26:55of things.
26:57I’m always trying to know myself better
26:59, and any type of tool that allows for
27:00that, like, I love it.
27:02They are other layers of me; I think
27:04it’s really important for us to have
27:06this hunger to discover more things
27:08about ourselves, whether it’s astrology
27:11or whatever.
27:13And this week I had a Human Design
27:15consultation, which I had wanted to do
27:17for a long time.
27:20And I did it on the recommendation of my
27:22friend Monica, who sometimes sits here
27:24on the podcast, who is Matilde.
27:27She has a page called HD Lab, Human
27:30Design Lab, and she basically gave me a
27:33consultation where she explained what it
27:36is, that is, Human Design.
27:39For those who don't know, I already did
27:41an episode about this with Ana Costa
27:42Soares, which is super useful and very
27:44informative on the topic.
27:46So, if you don't know it, I recommend
27:49listening, but it's a tool, you know,
27:52it's for self-knowledge that explains
27:54why we are the way we are, why we should
27:57act in a certain way, combining
27:59astrology, science, and a lot of things
28:02, and it makes a lot of sense.
28:06Basically, it's created based on the
28:08time and place we were born, etc.;it's a
28:11kind of—it's almost like a birth chart,
28:13but for Human Design, like, it's a
28:15matrix.
28:17You are a specific type, there are four
28:20types, and each one of us is one of them
28:22. I am a projector. But within being a
28:26projector, I have a matrix, a scheme, a
28:29Human Design chart that explains who I
28:33am and how I should act.
28:37In other words, the chart—I might be
28:39saying something completely wrong, but I
28:40think a birth chart is much more about
28:44forecasting what is going to happen in
28:46the future as well.
28:48It explains who you are, but it's more
28:50about prediction, whereas Human Design
28:52is 100%about self-knowledge, how you are
28:55, and how you should act to be more
28:57aligned with yourself.
29:01So, I am a projector, and one of the big
29:03mantras for a projector is to accept the
29:06invitation, not to chase, not to
29:09initiate, but if you feel an opening,
29:12then yes, but not to be the one
29:14proactively going after things.
29:18Which for me is super weird, because I'm
29:20that person who always thought: "I want
29:22this, I will make it happen," especially
29:24professionally.
29:26I've always had a bit of this energy of
29:27, you know, going after things.
29:30But, analyzing my life, the truth is
29:32that everything that was meant to be,
29:34that was meant to be mine, and that made
29:36sense, were things that came to me
29:39because I was invited, not because I
29:41went after them.
29:43And a projector has to respect this rule
29:45a little bit, let's put it that way.
29:48But beyond that, beyond explaining to me
29:50, uh, what a projector is, she also
29:53explained several parts of my chart, my
29:55Human Design matrix, and justified
29:57several things I feel, uh, like, for
29:59example, the fact that I’ve always felt
30:02much more comfortable, my whole life,
30:04I’ve felt much more comfortable in
30:06one-on-one conversations than in groups
30:09.
30:10I've always been like this. And that is
30:11justified in the Human Design matrix. It
30:13explains why. There is a lot of specific
30:16stuff she explained that really made
30:18sense to me. OK, this is me, it makes
30:20sense.
30:21And this ends up being a map that guides
30:24you to make decisions in your life that
30:26are more aligned with you.
30:29One thing she told me that I also came
30:31to realize over time, and that makes
30:33perfect sense to me, is the fact that I
30:35am a projector: it tells me I should
30:37produce in quality and not in quantity.
30:41I shouldn't get into projects that
30:44require an absurd amount of things,
30:46where I'm always producing and don't
30:49have space to produce other quality
30:51things.
30:53In other words, I am a person who likes
30:55to do a lot at the same time and I don't
30:57like the trap of having one specific
30:58thing where I have to be constantly
31:00producing in quantity.
31:02For example, if I were doing social
31:04media management right now, it’s
31:06something that for other clients is very
31:09, very pragmatic, very practical, very
31:11quantity-driven, you have to define a
31:13calendar, produce immense content, tons
31:16of posts for the client.
31:18It is something very methodical and
31:19about doing the same thing over and over
31:21.
31:23It’s something that, for my type of
31:25person, doesn't work and I need to have
31:27space to, despite doing things
31:29consistently, have space to explore
31:31other things and to produce other
31:33quality work, because otherwise, it will
31:36just result in quantity and not, and at
31:38the expense of, the quality of the
31:40projects.
31:42And she justifies this because she says
31:44that my energy, uh, over time is not
31:47constant.
31:48So, for me to be able to produce in
31:50quality, I have to choose the right
31:53times to do it and that not all the time
31:55am I going to be super up for it.
31:59And it makes sense to me because I also
32:01jump from project to project and from
32:03focus to focus in my life, from
32:05hyper-focus to hyper-focus, because
32:07that’s where my energy is directed, so
32:09it makes sense for me to pay attention
32:11to that and let myself follow what I’m
32:13feeling.
32:14Then she says that I have an undefined
32:17sacral center. What does this mean? That
32:19I’m not made to be producing all the
32:21time.
32:22I’m not made to always be at that speed
32:24of constantly making things happen. And
32:27that the biggest challenge for me is
32:28knowing when to stop and not trying to
32:30keep up with everyone else's pace.
32:32In other words, if I see someone who is
32:35always 100%focused on running and is
32:36always giving it their all all year
32:38round, super, super, super focused on it
32:40, and super motivated.
32:42I can't use that as a benchmark because
32:45I’m going to have phases where I won't
32:47feel like it, and I have to respect that
32:49.
32:50And according to her, my biggest
32:52difficulty is being able to understand
32:54and choose my battles and the phases
32:56where I want to focus on certain things
32:58. And that’s perfectly fine.
33:00And I often feel that pressure, that
33:02comparison of looking to the side,
33:04whether it's running, or "oh, she’s
33:06reading so much," or "he’s cooking so
33:08much."
33:09I would love to cook a lot too, but I
33:10don't. So, choosing my battles and my
33:12phases: I’ll have a phase where I’ll be
33:14super into it, and I should accept that
33:16phase and enjoy it, and then I’ll have
33:18another phase where I’ll be completely
33:19focused on something else, on the other
33:21side. And that’s what it’s about.
33:23And so, it helps justify things that I
33:26feel myself and that often leave me
33:28frustrated because I can't be that super
33:31consistent person who is always focused
33:33on the same areas of life.
33:37I can't do it, I have phases, I have
33:39phases where I can't stop reading about
33:41personal finance and I’m focused on that
33:43, working on my financial goals, and I
33:45have tunnel vision.
33:46Then there’s another phase where the
33:48tunnel vision is for running, another
33:49phase where it’s for reading. And that’s
33:52how it is, accepting that it is this way
33:54and realizing that we are not all the
33:56same. And I think this really helps to
33:57understand that. We are not all the same
34:00, we don't all follow the same path, and
34:02we don't all have to deal with things in
34:04the same way.
34:06So, the more you know how you are, the
34:08better it is for you to justify your
34:09behaviors and align your life based on
34:11that, and not put so much pressure on
34:13yourself for following a certain path
34:14that wasn't actually yours.
34:17One of her recommendations has to do
34:19with my emotional authority, which is to
34:21sleep on decisions.
34:23It’s to never decide on things in my
34:26life during an emotional high or low,
34:29and that being 80%sure is enough.
34:32I mean, imagine I’m on a high right now
34:34, I'm super pumped because I just
34:35finished my half marathon. Imagine if I
34:38got home now and signed up to buy a
34:40registration for a full marathon.
34:43That is, me making an emotional decision
34:45based on a high peak or a low peak—I’m
34:47demotivated with my life, I’m sad, I’m
34:50this or that—and buying a flight to go
34:52away for six months.
34:55No, this cannot happen. Maybe for other
34:57people it makes sense. For me, according
35:00to her, I can't do this. I have to sleep
35:03on the matter because I am a naturally
35:05impulsive person with these things.
35:08So, sometimes, I end up making decisions
35:10that maybe aren't as right and as
35:11aligned as they would be if I thought
35:13about it for three days.
35:16And, therefore, it’s a bit more about
35:18letting things settle, and maybe that
35:20desire to run a marathon just because I
35:22want a next goal and you're hitting it
35:24with dopamine through the roof,
35:26endorphins at their max.
35:28Maybe in three days I’ll see things more
35:31rationally. Because, even though I’m a
35:34rational person, I have this very
35:35emotional side, very much about making
35:37decisions tied to the emotional part,
35:39and this is what sometimes ends up
35:41affecting me and leading me to make
35:43decisions that, maybe, weren't quite
35:45what I wanted.
35:46Then she says I have a defined mind and
35:49head in my map, which is the channel of
35:52clarity, and that my head, according to
35:54her, was made to inspire others and not
35:57to solve my own life.
36:00And this justifies my anxiety, which is
36:03often when I turn inward and try to
36:05overanalyze my life and overthink and
36:08rationalize everything, literally
36:10everything, trying to have logical and
36:13clear reasoning for everything in my
36:15life, really bringing everything that is
36:18emotional into the rational; that's when
36:20everything goes wrong.
36:24And it's when I turn inward, it
36:26generates a lot of anxiety in me and
36:28that then results in what I was talking
36:30about as my thorn.
36:33So, what she says is that all this
36:35rationalization and all this analysis
36:38and everything I do, mentally, this
36:40shift from emotional to rational, is
36:42something I need to do for others; I
36:44need to use that capacity for others, to
36:47help them, to inspire them, but not to
36:49rationalize everything in my own life.
36:53In other words, to let life flow a bit,
36:55because I’m so stressed and so organized
36:58and such a Virgo about some things that
37:01I end up hurting and limiting myself
37:03because I want to rationalize everything
37:06and I overthink it, you know?
37:08I don’t let life flow enough.
37:11So, it all ends up backfiring, and
37:13instead of helping me, trying to analyze
37:15everything ends up hurting me because
37:18I’m overthinking and it’s giving me
37:20anxiety over things that maybe weren't
37:22even that big of a deal, you know?
37:25So, the lesson is a bit like that. It's
37:28using, for example, this podcast: it
37:30makes perfect sense for me to use this
37:32insight to—I’m here rationalizing things
37:34, I’m here analyzing thoughts, I’m
37:37deconstructing a bit of what’s going on
37:39in my head, but it ends here.
37:41Trying not to take it literally for
37:44everything I do in my life and not
37:46trying to analyze every type of behavior
37:48and decision and thing that’s happening
37:51, because then it ends up limiting me
37:53from actually living.
37:56Then the definition is broken where I
37:58feel complete through my connection with
38:00others.
38:03She even gave me the tip to go work from
38:05cafés, because she knows that I work,
38:08well, freelance, so I end up working
38:10alone a lot.
38:12And she gave me the tip to get out of
38:14the house and be surrounded by people
38:16working somewhere, because just the fact
38:19that I’m around people will help me feel
38:21more inspired and more motivated.
38:24And this is literally so real, because I
38:27feel that when I go to work from cafés,
38:29even not knowing anyone, while being
38:30alone, I always feel that my mood, like
38:32, improves immensely.
38:36This means working from cafés, running
38:37with others, meeting new people,
38:39scheduling coffees here and there,
38:40putting myself in environments that are
38:42uncomfortable for me, going to run clubs
38:44.
38:46It’s everything that I talk about here
38:48so often, that does me so much good, it
38:50justifies that, it justifies it a bit,
38:52in other words, feeling complete by
38:54being connected to other people who
38:56think the same way, who challenge me or
38:58make me see things differently, and I
39:00really need that.
39:03And that I can also find those little
39:06things in my day-to-day and bring that
39:08into my work, into my life, into my
39:10routine, so that I feel that, even day
39:13to day, even when working alone, I’m
39:15sort of connected to the world. Do you
39:18see what I mean?
39:19So, I actually ended up finishing the
39:22call with her and I really want to set,
39:24like, days to leave the house and go
39:27work from cafes, to do that kind of work
39:29outside the home, because I’m working
39:32alone so much and always stuck at home,
39:34always in my bubble, that sometimes I
39:37don't even realize how much that hurts
39:39me, because I’m really limited and, even
39:42mood-wise, it’s not good for me to spend
39:44a whole day where I don't see anyone,
39:48don't talk to anyone, no. It’s not good
39:50for me, I believe it’s not good for
39:52anyone, but it’s something I end up
39:53doing a lot because I’m often filming
39:55alone, doing everything by myself.
39:57So, leaving the house just to go work
39:59somewhere, is something I want to set as
40:01a goal for the next month and that I’m
40:03really going to try to implement, which
40:05was something I did a lot when I moved
40:07to Porto, because it’s that initial
40:09phase where you move to a city and you
40:11want to enjoy the city to the fullest,
40:12so you go to little cafes everywhere.
40:16But then you get into a routine and you
40:17kind of stop doing that a bit, because
40:19that initial excitement has passed.
40:22But it’s not just about discovering new
40:24cafes and getting to know Porto, it’s
40:25also because it’s something that is good
40:26for me, that I know does me good.
40:29Hmm, whether it’s that, or going to work
40:30at a coworking space, for example, that
40:32could also be an option. And she also
40:33talked about the community aspect and
40:35working in a team, which is super
40:37important to me.
40:39And although I don't have that much in
40:41my profession, I have a lot of people,
40:43many people, many teams around me who
40:44help me and who really make all the
40:46difference.
40:48Like, the simple fact that sometimes I
40:49have an idea, I don't really know what
40:51to do, or I have a specific episode and
40:52don't know what to do. All I need is a
40:54conversation with, I don't know, whoever
40:56records my podcast, or a chat with my
40:58agency, or friends who also work in the
41:00field, or anything like that, and it
41:02unlocks so much. So, I really, really
41:04need that. And she told me it was
41:06important for me to delegate and try not
41:09to do everything myself, and try to
41:11bring people into my world and my
41:13professional life. And it's something
41:15I've been doing, delegating more and
41:16more, even though it's hard for me.
41:19It's something that takes the load off
41:21me, allows me not to produce in quantity
41:24, but to produce more in quality, to be
41:26doing what makes the most sense for me
41:29to spend my time on; and it’s feeling
41:31like I always have someone there to
41:33bounce ideas off of, to debate with.
41:38For example, I have a girl, Carlota, who
41:40started working with me recently, who
41:41also came in a bit with that goal of
41:43helping me take the load off, but also
41:45feeling like I always have someone there
41:47to bounce ideas off of, to exchange
41:48thoughts, so I don't feel so alone in
41:50the process.
41:54So, in other words, at the end of the
41:57day, what we did with the Human Design
41:59analysis was to try to understand how I
42:02am, explain things, my behaviors, why I
42:05feel a certain way, and from there, mold
42:08your life accordingly, mold small things
42:11according to that so that things are
42:13more aligned.
42:15So, at this moment, what I’m feeling
42:17most as a thorn in my side is anxiety,
42:20and how I can control that.
42:23So, our consultation was also very
42:24focused on how I can not feel that so
42:26much in my day-to-day and change my
42:28routine, change my habits so that this
42:31isn't a constant.
42:33So, it ended up being very useful and I
42:35took away many practical tips that I
42:37undoubtedly want to start implementing
42:39over the next month.
42:41And another thing that I also feel
42:43messes us all up, me and everyone else,
42:46is the cell phone.
42:48We are constantly glued to our phones.
42:51And it's something that I've been trying
42:54less and less to consume and be attached
42:57to, and be constantly there, doom
43:00scrolling.
43:02Uh, and something that I’m also, for
43:05next month—I keep saying next month,
43:07because we’re at the end of October now
43:09—something I want to implement in
43:11November, is something I saw a girl
43:13doing, this series, and I thought it was
43:15a really cool idea: whenever you get the
43:17urge, like, "I have a block of time here
43:20with nothing to do," and that desire,
43:22that urge to pick up your phone and
43:24start doomscrolling, whenever you have
43:26that urge, go do something you enjoy or
43:28learn something new.
43:31Man, I loved this idea and I really want
43:33to implement it, because we’re always
43:35saying we don’t have time to learn, we
43:36don’t have time to do this or that
43:38because of our busy lives, and often we
43:40end up spending so much time just glued
43:41to our phones, doing nothing, just
43:43looking at things we’re not even really
43:45seeing; and suddenly, we went on
43:46Instagram just to check a few things and
43:48we’ve been there for an hour.
43:51So, let’s use that hour or that half
43:53hour to do things I like, like learning
43:55something new, cooking something that
43:57brings me joy, and being completely
43:59disconnected from the phone.
44:01So, November will be a month where I’ll
44:04be more conscious of this and I’ll
44:07really try to avoid doomscrolling. I
44:10already feel like I don’t do it that
44:11much, especially when I’m with people. I
44:14feel like I really try not to be on my
44:15phone, but it’s something that, living
44:17alone, often ends up happening at the
44:19end of the day.
44:21I finished work, I have a little time,
44:23instead of that: no, let’s read, let’s
44:25cook, let’s leave the house, let’s try
44:27something new, let’s try to do things
44:29that nourish us more than just being
44:31attached to the lives of others, right?
44:34And anyway, I leave it as a
44:35recommendation for you to also get your
44:37human design reading, or check out an
44:38episode I did back then, because I think
44:40it ends up explaining a lot of this.
44:42I don’t understand much; obviously, I’m
44:45not an expert at all in human design or
44:47astrology or any of the other things I
44:49keep bringing here to the podcast.
44:51I’m just curious and I like to get to
44:54know myself. I like doing these things,
44:56I like having these consultations, and I
44:59like—like I was saying—I really like
45:01analyzing and getting insights for my
45:03life, as long as it’s in a healthy way
45:06and it doesn't cause me more anxiety.
45:09These little things I've noted that I
45:11want to change, whether professionally,
45:13or personally, in terms of routine or
45:16habits, are things we can always work on
45:18in a soft way; small changes that then
45:20compound, as atomic habits say, where
45:22everything together will lead to changes
45:25, well, big changes.
45:27And I feel like this upcoming month of
45:29November will be a month where I'll
45:31finally be at home more, because I feel
45:33like the summer, September, and October
45:36were just crazy.
45:37It was crazy preparing for a
45:38half-marathon, crazy constantly
45:40traveling back and forth, always going
45:41to Lisbon and moving around.
45:44I was hardly home, and now it's going to
45:46be a month where I'll be much calmer,
45:48less rushing, softer.
45:51Fewer trips, fewer visits to Lisbon, if
45:53all goes well, more time at home, more
45:55routine.
45:58So, I'm much more focused on building a
46:01routine now that makes me happier here,
46:04because I need that stimulus that Lisbon
46:07gives me and that good little bit of
46:09anxiety, that nervous excitement that
46:12being away and managing crazy schedules
46:15brings me.
46:17But I also need this calm and to be okay
46:19with the quiet and to enjoy a "boring"
46:21life.
46:23So, I also want to change small things
46:25in my life so I don't get this feeling
46:28that I'm too stagnant, or bored, or that
46:30I should be doing more.
46:33So, it starts a bit there, this seed of
46:36mine, trying to find ways not to be at
46:39home so much, not to be so alone,
46:41working out, calling people, grabbing
46:43coffees, teleworking somewhere with
46:46someone; or even just avoiding dead time
46:48on my phone and using that to do things
46:51I've always wanted to do and kept
46:53putting off because I don't have time.
46:59And always trying my best to bring
47:01people into my life who inspire me, who
47:03help me, whether professionally or
47:06personally, and trying to challenge
47:08myself in that sense, even in Porto,
47:10even at home, even in my routine,
47:12because I end up doing that a lot when I
47:15travel or am in Lisbon, but it’s also
47:17important at home to look for these
47:20stimuli, to look for new things, events
47:22, things that also take us out of our
47:24comfort zone.
47:27And for me, I know, and Humaniz also
47:30justifies it, but I know I need that and
47:32it fuels me a lot. So, this will be my
47:35focus for the month of November. And
47:36later I'll tell you how it went when I
47:39sit back down here, maybe with Inês and
47:41Mónica, how it's been going throughout
47:43this month, but for now, these are the
47:45little things I'm planting.
47:48And well, in terms of sports goals,
47:50let's see what's coming up.
47:53There’s something people asked me right
47:55away. As soon as I finished the race, it
47:57was like, what's next? What is the next
47:59goal? Eh, what do you want to do next?
48:01Eh, and I know this question is normal,
48:03but I'm super chill.
48:05I really am, I'm not going to sign up
48:07for a marathon, it's all good.
48:10Eh, I’m not going to dive headfirst into
48:12that one just yet. Although, imagine,
48:14it's something I always said, eh, I will
48:16never run a marathon.
48:18And I don't say that now.
48:21I think it's normal for us to always be
48:23like: "OK, I made it, I was capable, I
48:25set this goal and achieved it, so I can
48:27do even more."
48:29Eh, and I think it's something I will
48:31eventually do in my life, but it won't
48:33be right now.
48:35I don't feel like I have the desire for
48:37that, or to go through that process and
48:39that marathon training cycle. It's not
48:41something that makes sense to me at the
48:43moment.
48:44Eh, but in terms of sports goals, look,
48:46I would really like to test my 10k time
48:48now.
48:49So, I'll probably sign up for a race to
48:50do that, since I'm so well prepared.
48:53I would like to be aware of where I
48:56stand in running terms for 10k, because
48:59I hit PRs at 5, 10, 15, 20, 21 in this
49:03race.
49:04So, at 10k I'll be able to get a better
49:06time. Eh, so, I'm going to do that race
49:09.
49:09I'll also do a Hybriday in December, so
49:11it will be a fun challenge because I'm
49:14doing it with Prata and she has never
49:16done Hyrox and started running very
49:17recently, so it will be a much chiller
49:20and more fun thing, like, with a friend
49:22, I think it will be a very cool process
49:24.
49:25So, until the end of the year, I think
49:27that’s pretty much it.
49:29And later, I want to reflect calmly; you
49:32know, not in the heat of the moment,
49:34with this head of mine still buzzing
49:36from reaching my goal, but letting
49:38things settle and sink in before setting
49:41new objectives.
49:42I do think I see myself doing more half
49:45marathons next year. I see myself doing
49:48maybe two. I’d really love to complete
49:50the SuperHalfs; it’s a goal of mine to
49:52get that medal for the six races.
49:54Cardiff is one, Valencia is another, so
49:56I already have two.
49:58I’m missing four medals: Lisbon, which
50:00I’d love to do next year—the one over
50:03the 25 de Abril Bridge—which I think is
50:05in March. I couldn't do it this year
50:07because I was already seeing someone at
50:08that time, but I’d really love to run
50:10that half.
50:11Uh, Copenhagen is also part of it.
50:14It is.
50:17Berlin.
50:19And Prague. I believe those are the four
50:21. So, I’d like to do one more abroad.
50:24I don’t know if I’ll manage, because
50:25these races are super hard to get a bib
50:27for and all that. But I’d like to
50:29perhaps do two more half marathons next
50:31year; I can imagine myself doing two
50:33more training cycles and maybe setting
50:35some time goals. I mean, in one year, I
50:38managed to shave 12 minutes off my half
50:40marathon time.
50:42So, who knows what I can do next year?
50:45And I think that, for now, that might be
50:46the path forward. It will be about
50:49thinking of races and also destinations
50:51, as I think I’ll want to keep doing
50:53this traveling thing, especially taking
50:56people along and going in a group—
50:58traveling and running abroad, getting to
51:00know a new city while running. Even if
51:03it’s not a SuperHalf, we were all
51:04already thinking, like: "Okay, we can do
51:06any other race, even if it's not a
51:08SuperHalf, set it up and make a trip out
51:09of it." I think it’s really cool.
51:12And that level of experience you gain,
51:14like, it’s much more than just running
51:16the Porto Half Marathon here, on a
51:18course I’m more than used to training on
51:20and which is just more of the same.
51:22Anyway, I think it’s an experience—
51:24these are unique experiences, and since
51:26I’m now in this phase of running, I want
51:29to take advantage of it because it’s a
51:31really, really cool way to see a city.
51:33So, I think next year will go a little
51:34bit in that direction, but yeah.
51:36Then, when we get to the end of the year
51:38, I think that's when, having gone
51:40through the whole year and all these
51:43goals, the dust will have settled, and
51:45I'll be able to make a more conscious
51:47decision about what I want for my sports
51:50year, but for now, we'll keep going and
51:52want to do more cool things before the
51:54year ends.
51:56So, that's that. Look, I think we'll
51:58leave it here for this episode.
52:00We talked about a bunch of random things
52:02and, perhaps, the Human Design part
52:03might have been a bit confusing for
52:05those who don't know what it is. But
52:07look, go read up on it first, do some
52:08research on Human Design because I think
52:10it really, really makes sense.
52:12I swear that for me, everything she told
52:15me was super, super spot on. And it
52:18helps, well, there you go, to get to
52:19know ourselves better and then make
52:21better decisions in our daily lives, to
52:23grow and realize that we have control
52:25over our happiness and the way we live
52:28our lives. Like, literally, we're the
52:29ones who decide everything. So, if we
52:31have knowledge of what works best for us
52:34, even better. So, I'm going to do it
52:36with that in mind, because if something
52:38justifies why I am this way and feel
52:39this way and it's going to be better for
52:41me, then I'm going to try it, trying
52:43doesn't cost anything, you know? I think
52:45we need to be open-minded about these
52:47things, and I like, I like thinking like
52:49that.
52:50I hope you enjoyed this episode, and
52:53we'll see you next week for another
52:55Sunday therapy.
53:01It's not easy, I know, but girl, it's
53:03part of it. See you on Sunday at the
53:05usual time.

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