Dyad #3: Winnie Counsel Alexis (Vaeh) — Transcript

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1. 0:03Hello, good morning. It's so nice to see
2. 0:06you here today. Uh, how has things
3. 0:10happened since last time we talked about
4. 0:15um
5. 0:19I'm trying to remember now for the week.
6. 0:25I am still sleeping a lot, but I have
7. 0:30managed to do most of my homework.
8. 0:34So, that's that's really good. Um, it's
9. 0:39still a struggle though.
10. 0:42um just with everyday routines
11. 0:46and
12. 0:47just the overall feeling of
13. 0:52inertia.
14. 0:56Sorry, I'm taking physics so that
15. 0:59word was on my mind, but I feel like
16. 1:01that
17. 1:03is accurate.
18. 1:12Thank you so much for sharing this with
19. 1:14me. It sounds like you are able to
20. 1:20manage your feelings about your
21. 1:22sleeping, your school, your daily
22. 1:25routine and your overall well-being. I'm
23. 1:28so happy for you. I want to follow up
24. 1:32with you couple things we discussed
25. 1:35from previous sessions. Is that okay
26. 1:38with you?
27. 1:40>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you.
28. 1:46>> How's your jewelry making doing
29. 1:48recently?
30. 1:51I I got to do um a couple sessions of
31. 1:56jewelry making maybe maybe twice this
32. 1:59week. Um
33. 2:02thank you.
34. 2:04Uh sometimes like
35. 2:06you know you get into it and then you're
36. 2:08kind of like in the zone for quite a
37. 2:12while. So even though it was only like
38. 2:14two separate times, it was like good
39. 2:16chunk of time for each
40. 2:20Oh, I'm so happy to hear that. Oh, I'm
41. 2:25so happy you you have an opportunity to
42. 2:29engage your creativity
43. 2:32when you have time and it makes you joy
44. 2:36and enjoyable. Oh, I'm so happy for you.
45. 2:41>> Thank you.
46. 2:44Yeah. Yeah. I mean,
47. 2:52I don't know if this makes sense, but
48. 2:57I think it helps in terms of
49. 3:02my energy a little bit cuz
50. 3:07I don't know. I thought it maybe would
51. 3:09make me just like tired or I would just,
52. 3:11you know, be losing those hours of time
53. 3:15when I should be doing
54. 3:17like school work or something. And
55. 3:22I I I was able to get a lot of my my
56. 3:26homework done.
57. 3:29I don't know. It doesn't really make
58. 3:31sense to me.
59. 3:38Yeah, I want to share with you that you
60. 3:42are not wasting or using your time from
61. 3:45doing what you enjoyed and you don't
62. 3:49have much time for your school or your
63. 3:51homework or your to-do list in your
64. 3:55daily time. That the jewelry making and
65. 3:59the rest is something you really need
66. 4:01it. If you if you don't have the energy,
67. 4:06if you don't have the feeling or if you
68. 4:08don't have the if you don't have the sta
69. 4:12to continue,
70. 4:14you are you it may affect your plans and
71. 4:19it may affect your well-being as well.
72. 4:22You are doing the correct way to help
73. 4:25you cope with your body. So I
74. 4:29>> really
75. 4:31that is really normal. Some people some
76. 4:35people have the same feeling like that
77. 4:37as well. But I really want to thank you
78. 4:40for taking time to rest and taking care
79. 4:43of your body. You are doing the right
80. 4:46thing.
81. 4:49I I I didn't realize I was um taking
82. 4:52care of
83. 4:54my body by doing
84. 4:57my jewelry making.
85. 5:00How
86. 5:02I don't I don't understand still kind of
87. 5:04like
88. 5:08like it's the I don't understand. It's
89. 5:10the cure. I'm confused.
90. 5:13M
91. 5:14>> when you engage your when you engage
92. 5:18your jewelry making it makes you feel
93. 5:20relaxed and you find a joyful moment
94. 5:24when you are making your creativity and
95. 5:28that is one of your self-care
96. 5:33to yourself
97. 5:35is is unconsciously
98. 5:37you are doing it taking yourself without
99. 5:39notice.
100. 5:46I know like on social media and
101. 5:49everything people talk about self-care.
102. 5:52I thought it was like
103. 5:55taking baths,
104. 6:01lighting candles.
105. 6:08I didn't know that's what I was doing.
106. 6:11and
107. 6:32I guess
108. 6:37I don't know. I was feeling a little
109. 6:43guilty. Is that the right word? For
110. 6:47spending time doing the jewelry making
111. 6:50when I should be like
112. 6:52planning for my future, doing homework,
113. 6:55maybe doing job apps or getting a job. I
114. 6:56don't know. One of one I mean something
115. 6:59for my future. I I I felt guilty for
116. 7:02doing
117. 7:05the jewelry making.
118. 7:12Thank you so much for being honest and
119. 7:14opening up with me.
120. 7:18Girl, don't do don't do too hard on
121. 7:21yourself.
122. 7:23Some people feel like they are taking
123. 7:25rest. They feel guilt. They feel
124. 7:28ashamed. They feel like they they are
125. 7:31not doing the thing they supposed to do.
126. 7:33So, but I'm but I really really want to
127. 7:37assume you that that is the rest you
128. 7:41deserve. You are not doing you are not
129. 7:44doing you are not supposed to do you are
130. 7:47doing the right thing at this moment
131. 7:50because self-care is very important to
132. 7:53us and then there's no right or wrong
133. 7:56for self-care.
134. 8:02There's a lot of way to take care of
135. 8:05self but the but the formatting and the
136. 8:09creativity and social outlet it may be
137. 8:13different depends on people and depends
138. 8:16of the situations.
139. 8:20I'm so happy and I'm so glad you opened
140. 8:23up with me.
141. 8:28Yeah, I do feel
142. 8:32different
143. 8:34from our first couple sessions.
144. 8:40In a good way. In a good way. I
145. 8:46Sorry. I'm just trying to piece together
146. 8:48what
147. 8:50is happening cuz it doesn't feel like
148. 8:56I'm doing a lot or that I'm
149. 9:02intentionally doing things
150. 9:05to get better.
151. 9:08But there wasn't
152. 9:11was improvement
153. 9:13and
154. 9:23Yeah. I don't I don't know. I still have
155. 9:25all these feelings, right?
156. 9:28The
157. 9:30just like the heaviness and the strugg
158. 9:32struggle every day.
159. 9:39So,
160. 9:46of doing my jewelry making, am I going
161. 9:52I It's just so hard for me to believe
162. 9:54that it's going to
163. 9:58get better cuz I've I felt like this
164. 10:01since I was like 12, 13. And I mean like
165. 10:06when I start feeling better, it just I
166. 10:09mean it feels like I always come back to
167. 10:12this place. So I don't
168. 10:16I don't know. You know, I've been I've
169. 10:18been in therapy with a couple of
170. 10:20different therapists for that long, too.
171. 10:22And
172. 10:25I just don't want to get my hopes up
173. 10:26that I'm doing better.
174. 10:31Thank you so much for sharing with me,
175. 10:33Maya.
176. 10:35I'm sorry we our session is almost
177. 10:40closed. Before we wrap up today, is
178. 10:42there something you would like to hold
179. 10:45on to and we will discuss it next time?
180. 10:52Um
181. 10:54he yeah I guess that just this last part
182. 10:59I maybe I'm doing better in some aspects
183. 11:03but I'm just afraid that
184. 11:07I'm not actually and I'll just end up
185. 11:10back where I was. I I don't want to get
186. 11:13my hopes up.
187. 11:18Thank you so much for coming today. I
188. 11:20will see you in two weeks.
189. 11:22>> Okay. Thank you.