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0:00I walk with Jesus
0:02to my home above. He will bless me with
0:07his spirit
0:09with his love.
0:12Change my heart forever.
0:15Help me clearly see.
0:19I walk with Jesus.
0:23He will walk with me.
0:27Jesus
0:38and I thought his path here to stay
0:45for my savior
0:48and his CARE
0:53and his love will share.
0:57As I walk with Jesus
1:00to my home above, he will bless me with
1:05his spirit and fill me with his love.
1:10Change my heart forever and help me
1:14clearly see.
1:16I will walk with Jesus
1:20and he will walk with me.
1:31Jesus
1:33I will hear his call.
1:36You who never leave me even when I fall
1:48me
1:50into
1:52eternal
1:56as I walk with Jes.
2:17I might need to get a different marker.
2:19I'm going to have to get a different
2:20marker. This one One sec. I'll be back.
2:23I have a set of markers.
2:57All my words fall short.
3:01I've got nothing to do.
3:08I'm hoping this gray marker shows up on
3:10the black box. So, we'll find out.
3:18That's
3:20>> No, that just blends in. I'm going to
3:22get a different one. Oh my gosh. I'm
3:26going to go. I'm going to go.
3:34Oh, I throw up my hands. Praise you
3:37again and again.
3:41Cuz all that I have is a
3:45Hallelujah.
3:48Hallelujah.
3:52And I know it's not much. I'm nothing
3:56else for a king
3:59except for a heart singing hallelujah.
4:15I've got one response.
4:20I've got
4:25my arms.
4:27>> Okay.
4:28>> Got a few different colors to see if
4:29it'll show up on the box.
4:40>> Yeah.
4:45Hallelujah.
4:54>> I'm pretty sure
4:57>> I am meant to
5:02>> I'm pretty sure I'm meant to have some
5:04kind of
5:09>> Why is there inappropriate body
5:12exposure?
5:16as a what the heck?
5:24>> Tik Tok doesn't look like I'm
5:26inappropriate right now. I don't think
5:28so.
5:31>> Okay. Um
5:33supposed to get some Sharpies that are
5:35white soon.
5:43>> Um Let's see. I can't tell if my mom is
5:46in the light right now, but
6:03this marker is going to have to be
6:06close enough to
6:10it's going to have to work for now.
6:13Sometimes I just have to put the cap on
6:14it for it to just
6:16>> still be workable.
6:30Let's see
6:34Andrea.
6:36Hello.
6:43my way.
6:46As long as I stay
6:51true,
6:56whatever
6:58my heart,
7:00thou has
7:02me well with
7:06my soul.
7:10It is well
7:15with my soul.
7:20It is well. It is well with my soul
7:30shows up after the fact. Yeah, it starts
7:34to show up. After it sits for a bit, it
7:37it shows up. That's wild. Okay. It's
7:40pretty cool though. Like I don't know
7:42how this marker works yet and I've been
7:44using it for like many times now.
7:48That's okay.
7:52To the cross
7:58no more.
8:00Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord.
8:09It is well
8:14with my soul.
8:19It is well.
8:22It is well with my soul.
8:33A day when they shall be sign
8:54and the Lord shall descend.
9:00It is well.
9:02It is well with my soul.
9:10Is well.
9:14with my soul. With my soul.
9:19It is well.
9:21It is well with the soul.
9:30See this 9x4
9:339x3x 6 should be good
9:38marker keeps hiding.
9:42The marker keeps hiding.
9:469 5 6 5 3 4 Shelly
10:02I'm reaching
10:04now.
10:06I need you now.
10:09Draw near
10:12and remind me you're here.
10:20You are there.
10:24>> We've got two candy cane soaps.
10:28>> Thank you so much. Hello.
10:31We've got two hot cocoa.
10:34Two hot cocoa.
10:43And we've got some gingerbread.
10:47Love you in this world. I feel so small.
10:53You listen when I fall through my
11:00holds me.
11:07He holds it all.
11:14And then we've got a sugar cookie soap.
11:32Why you're the truth?
11:35I know where I go.
11:39where I bought
11:41me. The God who holds me holds it all.
11:46Lift my voice and I will fall to my
11:50knees and worship you.
11:54King sky. I love you. In this world I
11:58feel so small. Still you listen when I
12:02fall. Tears start blowing with the fall.
12:07Holds me holds it all.
12:15He holds it all.
12:23The God who holds me holds it all.
12:28voice and I will fall to parties and
12:32worship you. King God, I love you. In
12:38this world, I feel so small. Still you
12:41listen when I fall. You stop blowing
12:45with the
12:48holds me. Holds it all.
12:55He holds it all.
13:03it all.
13:06Okay.
13:24Okay,
13:26>> so I know I'm going to get a lot of
13:28comments about something I put on my
13:30music channel, but I'm just
13:32acknowledging
13:33that I had a bad past and that I'm with
13:37Christ now.
13:39>> So, if any comments like that come up, I
13:42am not going to talk about it because I
13:44addressed it right here, right now.
14:00Um,
14:01I think my my story is essentially like
14:04a
14:06like someone that fall fell away from
14:08Christ and came back to Christ. So
14:14yes, I matured, but I posted it because
14:18I want people to see that I have come
14:22back to Christ and maybe some people
14:24that fell away from Christ will come
14:26back to Christ because they see my
14:28bravery of putting it back out there.
14:32Um, we got an order for Steve.
14:35Full soap saver bag, a blue pumpkin
14:37autism awareness soap, a green apple
14:41soap, and an imperfect looking fully
14:43soap. This is imperfect cuz the back
14:46looks kind of, you know, looks like
14:51it's got a dent in the back. So that's
14:52why it's hot cocoa soap is a imperfect
14:55looking fulls size soap.
14:58I choose to trust you and believe
15:01you're the God who takes care of me.
15:08Me
15:13takes care of me.
15:16I'm going to keep
15:19on keep singing this song. Going to keep
15:24holding on to you. I keep holding on to
15:28truth and I can't find my way. Going to
15:33keep walking by
15:36to trust you and
15:40take me to the king. I have not. I don't
15:43think I've heard that one.
15:48of me.
15:51Takes care of
15:54takes care of me.
16:13Okay.
16:18The Lord is my sheer
16:22that I shall not want.
16:26He resto my soul and leading me beside
16:31the still waters.
16:34Yeah.
16:36I walk through the valley of the shadow
16:39of death.
16:42I goodness and mercy
16:46shall follow
16:49in the nearly I know I am loved by the
16:54breathing of life. The creator of my
16:56soul.
16:58The one who guides me all.
17:04Show
17:07goodness and mercy shall follow.
17:14Let's see.
17:196 by 6 by3 and it is Steve.
17:27Can I do singing lessons? I I did vocal
17:30lessons in middle school and high school
17:32for like 5 years.
17:44Just have a broken heart and a contrite
17:48spirit.
17:50No life is hard, but we will get through
17:54it.
17:56Hold on to the tender mercy moments.
18:02They say seek peace and pursuit.
18:07Just have a broken heart and a contrite
18:11sphere.
18:13Joy with you has little to do with the
18:16circumstances of our lives.
18:19Everything to do with the focus of our
18:23lives. They say seek peace and pursue
18:28it.
18:30just have a broken heart and contrast.
18:35So, we've got sugared strawberry sample
18:38soaps. We've got tiger's blood, which I
18:42just restocked. Got lip balm. We've got
18:46pina colada
18:48soap. And we've got fresh apple sample
18:52soap,
18:53which are three little mini soaps here.
18:58O girl can sing. Yes, she can. Not to be
19:01prideful, but I love that I I sing.
19:07That's me so much more than I love
19:09myself. I know I can love myself. I know
19:13I need to love me better. Maybe this
19:16year I'll focus on loving myself. Lord,
19:20me and this church. I know I used to
19:22love me better. I know I need to love me
19:26better. time my focus while taking care
19:29of my body. God is immortal. I know I
19:33can be perfected through him. I know I
19:36need to love me better. Why
19:40do I focus on the hate more than the
19:44love?
19:46Why do I internalize everything and take
19:51it out on myself? I don't know. I should
19:55love
19:57me better.
20:00Maybe this year I'll focus on loving
20:03myself like the Lord loves me in this
20:05church. I know I used to love me better.
20:09I know I need to love me better
20:17and
20:19I thank the Lord for the love that I
20:22have.
20:24I thank the Lord for the rain and the
20:27snow.
20:29Oh, I thank the Lord.
20:33The Lord loves me dearly.
20:39Lord knows my name.
20:44The Lord carries my burdens
20:50away.
20:53The Lord loves me for me. My
20:58imperfections
21:00all of me.
21:03The Lord accepts my love for him.
21:08Oh, we are the Lord. As a business page,
21:12my business is Christ centered. So, it
21:15is not pushed down your throat if you
21:18don't believe in Christ. I I respect
21:20that.
21:23But my business is Christ centered.
21:28Oh, I thank the Lord.
21:33I respect you being religious and
21:35non-religious.
21:39I just like to teach about the gospel of
21:41Jesus Christ through my business and
21:43through this the lives I do. And if
21:46that's not for you, you don't have to be
21:49upset by it. It's just me teaching just
21:52me teaching about the gospel of Jesus
21:54Christ sometimes.
21:57I love everybody.
22:02I've let go of my judgments and my pride
22:04towards others because that's not what
22:06Jesus taught. And that was something I
22:08needed to work on for me. And I'm happy
22:10I've I've fixed that. I'm happy that I'm
22:15no longer judgmental of others because
22:16that's not what Christ taught.
22:30I can't read this marker anymore. Hello.
22:33If the right lighting comes upon it, it
22:35can be read. But it's like one of those
22:38secret marker things from your secret
22:40journals. You'd have to put like a blue
22:41light on it. I'm just kidding. I don't
22:44know why it's doing I don't know why
22:46it's doing this, but it does. I hope I
22:49can read it. And if not, I'll have to re
22:52ree the package. Hello.
22:57I can't speak. It's fine.
23:01Got two imperfect looking full size
23:03soaps for Christina.
23:08Supposed to be dry. It's not what I
23:11need.
23:13Unpredictable.
23:16I'll be going my way and it's going to
23:20be a good day. Your face going ways
23:24on my face and nothing's going to break
23:28me down. And I know whatever is he
23:32knows. Leave me alone. I'll be okay. And
23:37it's going to be a good day.
23:41It's going to be a good day.
23:47He made all the planets and all of the
23:50stars in the sky. He's doing
23:54he's going to make all
23:59reason to
24:06So,
24:10things might not be going my way.
24:15No going sideways.
24:21It's going to bring me down.
24:28So much. Thank you so much. I have no
24:32idea what that means.
24:36What's going on on the screen? I don't
24:38know. Thank you for the gift, though. I
24:40appreciate it. Things
24:42are going sideways. I got a smile on my
24:46face.
24:50Cuz I know whatever happens, he knows.
24:54Believe me,
24:56I'll be okay. It's going to be a good
25:00day.
25:02I got a smile on my face and bring me
25:07down.
25:10How does he know
25:12me?
25:14I'll be okay. It's going to be a good
25:18day.
25:20It's going to be a good day.
25:34Yeah.
25:46Okay.
25:49Making sure I can see the marker. It's
25:51some kind of light.
25:56Got a candy cane soap
26:00and you're feeling worn and scarred. is
26:03a source of living water. I can feel
26:08your weary heart.
26:11see the Savior's footsteps and he feel
26:14his God in love.
26:18He's calling out to you.
26:23He says, "Walk with me. I will calm your
26:28trust.
26:31Walk with me. I will make your mountains
26:36move. Oh, take my hand. When you're
26:40feeling happyarted,
26:44walk with me.
26:47I will walk with you.
26:55I've got to make cotton candy soap and
26:57some fresh apple and green apple sample
27:00soap sets
27:02today.
27:03If not today, sometime this week.
27:07Show the world his love.
27:11They walk beside him and gives his power
27:15to us.
27:19Calling out to you.
27:23He says, "Walk with me. I will calm your
27:28trbled waters.
27:31Walk with me. I will make your mountains
27:35move." Oh, take my hand.
27:40You're feeling heavyarted.
27:44Walk with me and I will walk with you.
28:02It's me.
28:06He says, "Walk with me."
28:14Yes, I bought some silver Sharpies.
28:16They're just not here yet.
28:19I have to use this white marker and hold
28:21it at the right angle under the the ring
28:23light to be able to see what I wrote.
28:25But it's okay. We're working with what
28:28we've got right now.
28:32started.
28:34Walk with me and I will walk with you.
28:43I had highlighters. I swear I had some
28:45highlighters somewhere, but they're not
28:46here anymore.
28:49Are they in my temple? Not my temple
28:51bag. My scripture case. Are they in
28:54here? Possibly.
29:11Nope.
29:14They are not in here.
29:20Let's see. See if I can
29:25That might show up better when it's wet
29:28at least.
29:296x4
29:31by two
29:34and weigh it. And it is
29:38>> interesting.
29:40>> It's interesting.
29:44Not the weight that it said it was
29:46earlier. So
29:49there
29:53>> that's okay. I'll try to see what this
29:58Yeah, it just dried and it's not
30:00visible.
30:01>> Damn.
30:06That's
30:10>> Maybe I can use a pen. Maybe the pen
30:12will show up on on black on black. I
30:14don't think so, but we'll try.
30:19Hey, it's okay.
30:224 by 2 and it's 7 oz.
30:28Again, if the ring light is on it, the
30:31pen shows up.
30:33We'll just have to post-it note that.
30:38>> That is also a good idea.
30:42>> I think I'll just work with the pen cuz
30:45I do have a ring light in my other room
30:46too. In the other room.
30:49work with this pen and I'll just decode
30:52it by looking at the ring light.
30:56Uh, make it super hard for myself.
30:58That's okay, though.
31:01It's okay. I do have Blue Post-it notes
31:04out there. I'm just like I got up and
31:07down twice already and my head is
31:09spinning.
31:13Okay. Why do I have this on
31:16my playlist? I have no idea. I have some
31:18Disney songs on my playlist, not going
31:20to lie. Um,
31:23we're going to go to more gospel music,
31:26though, I think. Or we could play One
31:28Direction. I like One Direction.
31:40I want to write you a song.
31:44One as beautiful as you are. Sweet.
31:49Just need to pay for a feeling I get are
31:54gone.
31:56I want to write you a song.
32:01I want to
32:03go.
32:06>> I know I have a cheesy One Direction
32:08tattoo. I got it when I was 19. I had
32:10thought about getting it for 5 years
32:11before I got the tattoo. So, it's not
32:14like I wasn't thinking about it for 5
32:16years, you know.
32:19>> I told myself if I had thought about a
32:21tattoo I wanted to get for 5 years, then
32:24I would get one, you know. And,
32:28you know, this was before I came back to
32:30Christ and the gospel of Jesus Christ
32:31and the whole thing about the tattoos
32:33and stuff. I don't know. I don't know if
32:34we're more relaxed on tattoos or not,
32:36but they allow me in the temple with my
32:38tattoo, this tattoo visible um to do
32:42endowments and things for my ancestors.
32:44So, I think we're good on tattoos now.
32:46Also,
32:48I mean, it depends on how someone was
32:50raised, if they're accepting of tattoos
32:52or not. But, I was raised to accept
32:54people for no matter what they've got on
32:56their body.
33:02Everything I need I get from you.
33:08Ooh.
33:12So I want to do
33:26Yeah. The one thing I do know within
33:29um the teachings of Joseph Smith is the
33:33word of wisdom says no coffee and no tea
33:35or I guess hot drinks but current
33:39revelation says no coffee and no tea.
33:41Herbal tea is okay though for current
33:43revelation but I had an experience where
33:46I felt refiner fire like the warmth in
33:50my brain after drinking herbal tea once.
33:54So I'm just like is it okay? Is it not?
33:56I don't know. I have to pray about it,
33:58you know.
34:00>> It just depends. I don't know.
34:03I
34:03>> think it depends on the situation and
34:05things. Like we had an herbal tea relief
34:07society tea party thing once and I was
34:09fine then, but when I brewed it myself
34:11at home, like an herbal tea at home, I
34:13had a weird feeling about it. So, I'm
34:15like, that's interesting.
34:18Yes, we can have hot chocolate. I think
34:20hot drinks essentially means like
34:22alcohol and coffee and tea, but like hot
34:26hot chocolate and soda is fine.
34:30I don't know.
34:39You can all always have questions about
34:42about your faith and um doctrine and
34:45things and stuff and you can still fully
34:48practice your religion and you can pray
34:51about the things that you question you
34:53know with your religion and things
34:57for personal revelation. Personal
34:59revelation is something strong in my
35:00religion. So
35:05uh more Heidi is cool. I have not seen
35:08that. And I I've heard that it's another
35:10hate page. So, I'm I just don't
35:13>> I don't engage with that stuff.
35:19>> When you're lonely,
35:23forget who you are.
35:26>> I have to save for a down payment on a
35:28house, but right now I'm not there yet.
35:30So, it's just,
35:32yeah, I have to save for a down payment
35:34on something, but otherwise, I'm staying
35:36with my mom until I've got a down
35:38payment for a house. I wanted to move
35:41into a rental, like a knee-jerk
35:43reaction, and I'm like, I don't have
35:45savings enough to be able to take care
35:48of everything else.
35:50Yeah, a down payment is 20K. Yeah, I
35:53recognize that. Unless you get a house
35:56for under 200,000 or right at 200,000,
36:00which there was a house like that for
36:03sale. And I was thinking about buying
36:05that one,
36:07but the yard was small. At least it had
36:09a fenced yard though for Caramel. But
36:11that was my thing was I was just like,
36:15do I want this house or do I want to get
36:17a house that is on at least one acre
36:20with some outuildings already on it? And
36:22is the house going to be a fixer upper?
36:24Would I have to know life skills enough
36:28to like fix my own stuff for my own
36:31house? I don't know. um
36:34when my 2025 taxes are filed, I can
36:40apply for loans on houses and stuff, but
36:43I had to pull out of the house
36:46application thing because
36:50I can feel your heart inside
36:53with helping financially until I'm
36:56married, too. So, I can save plus help
37:00my family with what I've got going right
37:02now. Like, I can get groceries for my
37:04family and pay $650 for rent living with
37:07my mom at the same time. So,
37:12um my grocery budget's about $500 per
37:15month. And
37:17yeah, so it just like right now I can I
37:21can work my business, still get um
37:24supplies to keep my business going, plus
37:26do all the things.
37:31I don't know. She might be a 2XL. I'm
37:33probably a 3X right now.
37:36I don't know. Um
37:39but she's way shorter than me. That's
37:41probably why she's like a 2X because I'm
37:425'8 and she's like 5' 4 or 3, something
37:46like that. Now you know me. Your eyes on
37:53me.
37:55Let's see. This order had some soaps
37:58that are not in stock right now cuz it's
38:00past spring and I'm not going to restock
38:02these. But it did have a lemon soap and
38:04I can show you the lemon soap that was
38:07in here cuz I have lemon in stock.
38:10No, I'm a 3X right now. I'm not a four
38:12or 5X. I used to be a 6X. I was a 6X in
38:162022, but I'm a 3X right now. So, I
38:20dropped three clothing sizes.
38:23Got a lemon soap.
38:26I know y'all in the comments are just
38:28trying to pit me and my mom against each
38:30other, and I'm not here for it either.
38:32So, I'm not here for it, guys. I know
38:34what you're doing, and it's not fair.
38:36It's not cool of you to do that.
38:48We already have a strange relationship.
38:49I don't need to believe what the
38:51internet says that my mom said. And if
38:54she did think I'm a four or a 5X,
38:57I I don't know. I just know that this
38:59dress is a 3X. This dress is a 3X.
39:03So, the dresses I've been wearing are
39:063X.
39:09Oh, baby, I was there for you. All I
39:12ever wanted was the truth. Yeah. Yeah.
39:18Wish someone would say we call me hoping
39:22they're okay. Never count it all. If I
39:27tried, I know it would feel like inity.
39:33Infinity.
39:37Infinity.
39:41Yeah.
39:44Infinity.
39:47There's something
39:49behind
39:51since you went away. There's nothing
39:53left in mind. Feel myself running out of
39:58time. Now we're one step closer to being
40:04two steps far from you. Everybody wants
40:08you.
40:11Everybody wants you.
40:14Also, I'm going to a Nile Horin concert
40:17in West Valley City next year. So,
40:19that's pretty cool.
40:22Excited about that.
40:25>> All I ever wanted was a truth. Yeah.
40:28Yeah,
40:30you wish someone Nile is my favorite.
40:33Harry Harry was and Nile was they were
40:35like tied when they were in One
40:37Direction, but I like Nile's music the
40:39most out of all of the boys that are
40:41doing music. Um, as solo girls
40:48is like I love Louis music. His first
40:52first album like his album Walls. I love
40:55that one.
40:59Okay. Sugared strawberry sample soaps.
41:03Got that. And then we have fresh apple
41:06sample soap for Jason.
41:09Jacqueline. I don't know how to say your
41:11name, but I appreciate you.
41:27How many miles did it take to count the
41:30stars? The time it would take to fix my
41:34heart. Oh, baby, I was there for you.
41:38Whatever it was.
41:40Yeah. Yeah.
41:43You wish someone would say
41:46only hoping they're okay. I never got it
41:51all mine. tried. I don't feel like
41:55infinity.
41:57Infinity.
41:58Infinity.
42:02Infinity.
42:16Okay, that marker can just roll under
42:19the cabinet cuz it's going to. That's
42:21fine. Oh, it stopped. Cool. I can grab
42:24that after I go live.
42:27Am I going to go on a mission? See, I
42:30would really like to, but it depends on
42:34um
42:37>> So, I'm I did meet a missionary local to
42:39me and he knows one of my friends
42:45>> somehow and I I liked him because we
42:49share a brain cell with General
42:50Conference.
42:52He said he would sit by me because we
42:54share a brain cell and I was offended by
42:56it at first.
42:58>> It's not a lot.
43:01It's not a lie. Uh he said we shared a
43:04brain cell. I was offended by it. And
43:06then a few weeks later, maybe a month
43:08later, I let go of my pride and said, "I
43:11like that we share a brain cell." And he
43:13was he was shocked by it and said,
43:14"What?" I'm like, "I like that we share
43:16a brain cell with General Conference."
43:18So, I like him, but again, he can't do
43:22anything. We can't until he's Yeah.
43:27missionaries aren't allowed to act as a
43:28date. So yeah,
43:32>> I'm not stalking that one. And I didn't
43:34stalk anybody. Y'all, I think my brain
43:37jumps to conclusions with things. And
43:40since when I was a child, a boy said I
43:45was stalking him because, you know, in
43:47elementary school, people say that.
43:51In elementary school, people say things
43:54like, "You're stalking me." as a joke.
43:56and my brain
43:58like I know
44:00uh that stalking is usually like very
44:03serious and can lead to awful awful
44:06things, right? So whenever someone when
44:09someone said that to me uh in elementary
44:12school, I was so upset by it. I'm like,
44:17"What do you mean you think that about
44:20me? I just had a crush on this kid and I
44:23was hanging out with him and his guy
44:25friendss and you know guys guys guys
44:28that hang out with guys in elementary
44:29school they if a girl follows them
44:32they're like ew you're gross or or
44:36cooties or stalker these kinds of things
44:40that's all it was and my brain took it
44:43literally you know I have a very literal
44:45brain if someone says something I take
44:46it to heart and it hurts. So, I've been
44:50like that for forever. Like, I've had
44:52major depressive disorder diagnosed
44:54since I was 7 years old or 8 years old
44:56or something. So, it's just like I take
45:00things literally and it hurts when
45:01people say anything that I'm like hyper
45:04sensitive with in general. I don't know.
45:08And I'm I'm learning DBT skills so I can
45:10kind of get better control of my upset
45:14and how I react to things.
45:17Um, yeah,
45:20it it's a thing. It's a thing. And I
45:22don't like that it's a thing, but I have
45:24to fix what I didn't break. Essentially,
45:27I have to fix the things that I did not
45:29break.
45:32So yeah,
45:41you can acknowledge that some things you
45:44did, some things were done to you, but
45:47you have to fix whatever whatever. Yeah.
45:51And healing trauma things. healing
45:53trauma, healing from bullying, healing
45:56from
45:58things that you've done that you now
45:59recognize are bad, that were in your
46:01past that you're trying to get your
46:03brain off of constantly. It's just hard
46:06to not have pride within yourself, to
46:10just hold on to the bitterness and hurt
46:12and hate that you have towards yourself.
46:15And I think I'm working towards not
46:18being shameful and prideful about
46:21hurting myself over the things that that
46:23were in my past.
46:29>> Yeah, it was recent. It was it was in
46:32January, but it's now July and I've
46:35moved past it and we're friends.
46:38He's opening my messages and stuff at
46:40least.
46:43So, we're friends. He told me we were
46:45friends and then his girlfriend got
46:47pissy that we were friends
46:50cuz I acknowledged that he had a
46:51girlfriend and I was okay with him
46:52having a girlfriend.
46:56I was okay with him having a girlfriend
46:57after a month and then I thought we were
47:01just friends. So, I would talk to him
47:02and she'd get really upset. I'm like, I
47:05don't get it.
47:10I have psychological help. I have a mid
47:13management.
47:20>> I don't I think missionaries have to
47:25>> set aside their personal life completely
47:27to go on a mission. I don't think
47:29missionaries are meant to have a
47:30girlfriend. Like even if I got in a
47:33relationship and I decided to go on a
47:35mission instead of staying with with my
47:38partner, um I would have to break up
47:40that relationship,
47:43you know, and I already chose to be with
47:46a man over I already chose a
47:49relationship over a mission once.
47:52So I just don't think I would do that
47:54again. I think I would I'm 25. I feel
47:59like it would be a good time to have a
48:02relationship, but also I need to heal a
48:05lot of issues psychologically, like
48:07y'all said, need to need to heal a lot
48:10psychologically before I can serve a
48:12mission if I chose a mission. And I
48:15would still have to heal a lot
48:16psychologically before I chose a
48:18relationship as well. So, like I said, I
48:21like someone right now, but that does
48:23not mean I'm ready for a relationship
48:25either. Like I can acknowledge that when
48:28this guy when this f this friend I met
48:31as a local missionary, the local
48:33missionary I met when he's finished with
48:35his mission, maybe at that point I would
48:37be ready to emotionally handle a
48:39relationship. You know, I can get to
48:41know him and stuff because he's a local
48:44missionary and things. But
48:50I like that we share a brain cell with
48:52general conference and I like that he's
48:55very comforting spiritually
48:59a lot of things
49:01like I recognize my past sins a lot and
49:05I guess him being able to keep me
49:09keep me with being humble and having
49:13faith and hope within myself to forgive
49:16myself and to acknowledge
49:18things that I did were not great, but to
49:24accept myself and love myself anyway.
49:26It's just
49:29it's great. So, I love our spiritual
49:31connection and the main thing I look for
49:32in a relationship is spiritual
49:34connection.
49:36So, that's why I think it would be fine
49:38to meet a man who is actively on his
49:41mission locally to me. So they would
49:44know that if they went back home or
49:47wherever they're from and they they
49:49wanted to come back to pursue me, they
49:51would.
49:53I'm not going to go somewhere for a man,
49:55though. That's not that's not what I
49:57would do. So
50:07yeah, I can cook dinner.
50:11I do talk regularly.
50:16My mom just likes to talk for me, which
50:19is weird.
50:24Yeah, a lot of men can just be nice. I
50:27realize that, too.
50:31I know he likes me because he was
50:34sitting by me and just like he tried to
50:37nudge his foot to mine under the table
50:40and I I didn't want to distract him from
50:42serving the Lord. So I like him but I
50:45want him to complete his mission, you
50:48know. Um but yeah, I got to go, y'all.
50:53I got to go.
50:57No, he tr he literally reached his foot
51:00to mine and I moved my foot away. So,
51:04I'm not lying. Oh my gosh. I'm not
51:08lying. I'm just talking about situations
51:11in life, you know? And I like I like
51:13that I can talk freely on the internet
51:15and have people think I'm lying, I
51:16guess. But whatever.
51:20I got to go.
51:23It was like maybe a month ago. We we
51:26would we went to the same institute
51:28class.
51:30We go to the same institute class and
51:32now that semester of institute is done
51:34and yesterday was the last day of that
51:36institute semester. So now we just let
51:41the Lord take care of it and see what
51:43happens after he's finished with his
51:45mission.
51:48And if nothing happens, then, you know,
51:51I'll still be working my business,
51:52saving money for a down payment on a
51:54house for when I'm married and can buy a
51:55house with my husband. So,
51:58that's what we're going for is just
52:00mental stability, taking care of my body
52:02physically, mentally, doing household
52:05things like laundrying, cooking, and
52:08cleaning. Cleaning,
52:10you know, cleaning is a big one for me.
52:12I need to learn that still. I know how
52:16to do dishes now.
52:18Gosh. Um, but yeah, my mom's going to
52:22teach me life skills, of course.
52:27Um,
52:28and then I'll keep working my business.
52:31I will save that money for the down
52:33payment on a house and whoever I meet at
52:37the right time, it will be the right
52:40time, you know. So,
52:44I may have issues with my small
52:46intestine not absorbing iron and I may
52:48have arthritis in my back that is pretty
52:51severe.
52:53But
52:55I've been handling life well so far. And
52:58I think that a man should not be afraid
53:00of my chronic illnesses and should love
53:02me no matter what I've got going on. So,
53:05at some point, somebody will. And
53:09that's that. Thank you so much. I
53:11appreciate that.
53:17I acknowledge I have
53:20pretty disabling illnesses and
53:24that everything will be okay and that I
53:26I have a righteous desire of wanting a
53:29husband and children someday so
53:31everything will work out in the Lord's
53:33timing for me. And that's what I focus
53:35on is focusing on the Lord's timing. Be
53:38h being happy with where I am right now.
53:40focusing on saving money for a down
53:42payment on a house or land or whatever
53:45me and my husband would decide. Um,
53:50just taking care of me right now and
53:51that's important. So, I love y'all and
53:55peace. Have a great day. I got to make
53:57some green apple sample soaps and fresh
54:00apple sample soaps and cotton candy soap
54:02today and those videos will be coming
54:04out this week or next week. I love y'all
54:07and peace. Have a great day. Bye.

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