Being a femboy is horrible, actually — Transcript

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1. 0:03[music]
2. 0:17[music]
3. 0:23Hi.
4. 0:25Hi. I'm a boy.
5. 0:28Oh, you look at my Look at my socks and
6. 0:30my thighs and my legs and everything cuz
7. 0:33I'm so cute. Look at my Look at my small
8. 0:36twink waist and everything.
9. 0:41Oh my god, I can't deal with this [ __ ]
10. 0:59Okay, okay, okay, okay. Seriously, how
11. 1:02do some of you [ __ ] do that all
12. 1:05the time?
13. 1:08Like, that's annoying. All of y'all.
14. 1:10Annoying. Unsufferable. Anyways, what's
15. 1:13up? This might be your first time seeing
16. 1:15me [music] or your second time uh if
17. 1:18you've seen my intro video or my stupid
18. 1:21[music] room tour video. either one of
19. 1:24those. What is the subject of today's
20. 1:26video, you might ask? Femboys.
21. 1:29[music]
22. 1:32>> Welcome to Feboy.
23. 1:33>> But Feboys is too vague of a topic. And
24. 1:36assuming you're clicking on this video,
25. 1:38you either A already [music] know what
26. 1:40fanboys are or B, you're probably a
27. 1:43fanboy yourself. And the [music] fact
28. 1:45that you saw a fanboy in the title is
29. 1:46what made you click on this video. Yeah.
30. 1:48Yeah. Yeah. In Yes, you've read the
31. 1:49title. Okay. What I'm mainly going to
32. 1:51talk about is problems that fan them
33. 1:54[music] boys face,
34. 1:57I guess, and the smaller problems that
35. 1:59some people tend to have [music] with
36. 2:01them. You wouldn't think there's that
37. 2:02many, but holy smokes, there's a whole
38. 2:04lot. And I'm not going to lie to you, I
39. 2:05have a bone to pick with some of these
40. 2:06fanboys in particular.
41. 2:07>> Stop the friendly fire. Oh my god, Jojo
42. 2:09Jones, you're a fanboy. That's what you
43. 2:11be saying.
44. 2:12>> I am probably going to get like one or
45. 2:14two [music] or five comments like that.
46. 2:16Don't get it twisted. I love a lot of
47. 2:18you guys, but some of y'all need to go
48. 2:21outside, take a shower and get your
49. 2:24money up on some fits. All right, some
50. 2:26of those fits are
51. 2:28yikes. And hey, I know I'm I am guilty
52. 2:30of this, but I'm trying, you know? I'm
53. 2:32trying. I'd made a really really old
54. 2:35video about this exact [music] same
55. 2:37topic. Um, but it's um basically gone
56. 2:41[music] now. Like the website that
57. 2:42hosted it is gone. So, the video is gone
58. 2:46now, too. and I'm kind of sad. So, with
59. 2:47that in mind, I felt like remaking,
60. 2:49refilming, refining [music]
61. 2:51everything I had said in that old video,
62. 2:53cuz there is some stuff that honestly I
63. 2:56wish had more substance. [music] Just to
64. 2:57clarify, this is not a video about the
65. 3:00problems that some people have with
66. 3:02[music] fan fem. It will be mildly
67. 3:04relevant, but that's not the whole
68. 3:06thing. Nor is this a video [music] about
69. 3:08the problems that fem cause, although
70. 3:11again, it is a little bit relevant. I
71. 3:13might [music] make one or two more
72. 3:15videos about this, but you know, that's
73. 3:18probably going to be it. Those are just
74. 3:19completely [music] different discussions
75. 3:21that I I don't think I have the time for
76. 3:23in this video, especially for what the
77. 3:25main portion of it is going to be. The
78. 3:27main portion is just going to be the
79. 3:29problems that I [music] have whilst
80. 3:32being one. And I'm sure maybe a couple
81. 3:34others can relate to. [music] So, if you
82. 3:37want to listen to a fanboy yap about his
83. 3:39past 3 years of self-expression, then
84. 3:42[music] go ahead, sit down, grab a snack
85. 3:44and drink, and let's do this [ __ ] Yeah,
86. 3:47[music]
87. 3:51being a gender non-conforming person is
88. 3:55certainly an experience. Some mild
89. 3:58background. The whole reason I'm a
90. 4:00fanboy today is mainly just this like
91. 4:03[music] animosity I've had towards
92. 4:05gender expression ever since I was a
93. 4:08kid. I never had this voice in my head
94. 4:10that told me that I was a girl, that I
95. 4:12was [music] something else. But I didn't
96. 4:13feel like the image of like a super
97. 4:15masculine, super muscular macho guy was
98. 4:19exactly what I had wanted to be either.
99. 4:21Just wasn't the right fit for me. I
100. 4:23thought they were cool, sure, but like
101. 4:25it just it's not what I
102. 4:30imagined [music] I wanted to become. To
103. 4:32keep a long story short, I saw fanboys
104. 4:34get popular. And the more and more I've
105. 4:36seen them, the more and more I thought,
106. 4:38you know, maybe that's something I can
107. 4:39be instead. It's separate from being a
108. 4:42girl, but it's not necessarily a super
109. 4:46masculine macho man. It's something
110. 4:49I mean, I wouldn't even say it's
111. 4:50necessarily [music] in the middle.
112. 4:53It could be in the middle, but you know,
113. 4:55this felt right and I wanted to be it. I
114. 4:58have very thankfully not experienced any
115. 5:01direct homophobia. Uh my parents, who
116. 5:03[music] they already support my trans
117. 5:05sister, so I mean getting this out to
118. 5:08them was like a breeze. They have
119. 5:11thought [music] almost nothing about me
120. 5:13dressing in my clothes. and my friends
121. 5:15and my ex-friend were supportive of me
122. 5:17the few times that I did decide to dress
123. 5:19feminine out in public like with them or
124. 5:22at school or whatever. It felt nice.
125. 5:24Though there was one time it got a tad
126. 5:27heated whenever I posted a video to that
127. 5:30one site I was talking about earlier,
128. 5:32the deleted site. I had posted a video
129. 5:34building a Lego set and it was it was
130. 5:38like [music]
131. 5:39a 15minute speed build. So, I post a
132. 5:41video and this guy in the comments is
133. 5:43saying some [ __ ] Why are you posting
134. 5:45here? This is so weird. Oh my god. The
135. 5:48whole slogan of the site was express
136. 5:50yourself. And this douchebag was just
137. 5:53completely ignoring like every aspect
138. 5:55like just cuz what? Like I'm I'm wearing
139. 5:57five eyes.
140. 5:59And then his account got banned. I did
141. 6:02say no direct homophobia like nothing in
142. 6:04person or whatever. But there was this
143. 6:06one instance where somebody called me
144. 6:08confused because I'm bisexual.
145. 6:11which okay, [ __ ] you, man. Who the hell
146. 6:13asked you? Being a fem boy or like just
147. 6:17like a gender non-conforming person like
148. 6:19somebody who is in that realm. Probably
149. 6:21harder on average to find a partner and
150. 6:24and you know I I probably hear you
151. 6:26saying what? No, fanboys are like super
152. 6:29popular on the internet, right? Like
153. 6:32everybody loves fanboys right now. I
154. 6:34call [ __ ] on that because you see
155. 6:36all these memes and jokes and whatever,
156. 6:38but it's like I'm always the butt of the
157. 6:40joke. All right? If somebody wants to
158. 6:41get with me, it's because they're horny
159. 6:43and like that's that's it. That's it. I
160. 6:45remember joining a Roblox game, you
161. 6:48know, one of those like voice chat
162. 6:49games. And these girls walked by, they
163. 6:51heard my voice and they're like, "Oh my
164. 6:53god, are you a fan boy? Oh my god. Oh my
165. 6:56god. I don't care." And then they just
166. 6:58walked away.
167. 7:00Like I didn't even I didn't even talk to
168. 7:02them. Most gay dudes that I knew
169. 7:04personally [music] tend to not have much
170. 7:07of a preference for feminine looking
171. 7:09guys. And the ones that I've interacted
172. 7:12with online usually are [music] like 50
173. 7:14plus years old, which [ __ ] scares me.
174. 7:17I remember I had gotten a DM on Reddit
175. 7:20of all places. Yeah, Reddit. And it was
176. 7:23of this guy. He said he said, "Would you
177. 7:25be interested in a guy like me?" And
178. 7:27then he sent me some pictures. Not of
179. 7:28his dick. Not of his dick. It was just
180. 7:32like some selfies of him at the gym, but
181. 7:33he would he looked like he was pushing
182. 7:3570. Like, I'm not even kidding. It
183. 7:37wasn't ugly. Just I'm not I'm not I'm
184. 7:40not into older guys. Every other DM I
185. 7:43got from a guy on that website was
186. 7:46always they always ask, "Hey, are you a
187. 7:48girl? You look like a girl. Are you a
188. 7:50girl?" It's like, you know, guys, I
189. 7:51really am flattered, but I am not a
190. 7:54girl. I post on the femway places and I
191. 7:56know sometimes sometimes trans women and
192. 7:58even full-on sis women will go into
193. 8:01those places and just post their photos
194. 8:04using the title of fem. But that's not
195. 8:05me. That's not [music] me. That's not
196. 8:08me. I've always called myself a guy on
197. 8:10my bio. It says that I'm a guy. All
198. 8:11right. Read at least read my bio for
199. 8:13like 2 seconds before sliding in DMs.
200. 8:16You [ __ ] weirdos. I guess I just have
201. 8:19a better chance at finding somebody who
202. 8:20is like me, you know, a fanboy, which to
203. 8:23be completely honest, I probably
204. 8:26wouldn't want to just cuz like fanboys,
205. 8:28they can they can be so annoying, man.
206. 8:29They can be so annoying. I'd rather just
207. 8:31somebody see me be like, "Hey, man. I
208. 8:33like you." But it's like it's it's
209. 8:35whatever. It's not like the end of the
210. 8:36world, right? I'm not really looking for
211. 8:38a partner right now anyways. So, it's
212. 8:40another mini struggle, I guess.
213. 8:46Something I have seen. So often amongst
214. 8:48the community, you know, like outsiders
215. 8:50looking in, they'll often be rather
216. 8:53negative about how we choose to express
217. 8:55ourselves. For example, you're a boy.
218. 8:57Why would you want to do something like
219. 8:58this? You're you're a guy. Why you dress
220. 9:00like that? I don't know. Why did I do
221. 9:02your mom last night?
222. 9:04We all have our reasons. I mean, I might
223. 9:06make a video about how I became a fanboy
224. 9:09in the future at some point. I've been
225. 9:11asked if I was trans before, which no,
226. 9:13no, no. I am I am not. I'm not an egg.
227. 9:16I've explored gender before and I simply
228. 9:18see it as no not a girl. I mean, I just
229. 9:21don't see why it's such a big deal for a
230. 9:23guy to dress a certain way. I remember
231. 9:25maybe a couple weeks ago, I saw this
232. 9:27post that it said something along the
233. 9:29lines of me. I I remember when Fanboy
234. 9:32used to mean this and then it showed
235. 9:33like these um K-pop idols, you know,
236. 9:37those like soft Korean men. Like I get
237. 9:39it, I guess. But like these definitions
238. 9:42are pretty like fluid. You know, that
239. 9:44can be a feminine guy just as much as
240. 9:46this can be a feminine guy or this or
241. 9:49this. It's like how somebody can be
242. 9:52considered a tomboy, right? But like
243. 9:56they aren't like the most rugged or the
244. 9:58most um boyish, you know? They they can
245. 10:02they can still have plenty of feminine
246. 10:04attributes to them. I guess that's what
247. 10:05that original post means, like fem boy,
248. 10:08feminine guy, whatever. Like it doesn't
249. 10:09necessarily need to have like the skirt
250. 10:11and the thighs and whatever, right?
251. 10:13which I agree with, but I don't care.
252. 10:15Feminine clothes is nice. It's stylish.
253. 10:18It's like 10 times better than wearing a
254. 10:20t-shirt [music] and jeans every day. I'd
255. 10:22much rather have a wardrobe full of
256. 10:24clothes that I feel like wearing like
257. 10:26feminine, masculine, neutral
258. 10:28at any time than the same thing all the
259. 10:31time. Like I kind of already do now.
260. 10:34>> Absolutely true. Honestly, most of the
261. 10:36time when I go shopping, I go shopping
262. 10:38in the female section. Every single time
263. 10:39I go to the men's section, it's always
264. 10:41the same shirt, the same pants, the same
265. 10:43polo, and in the women's section, it's
266. 10:45just this beautiful dress or like this
267. 10:46[music] really nice skirt or like this
268. 10:48really nice crop top. It's just all very
269. 10:49so much more exciting to look at.
270. 10:51Definitely give it a try and just shop
271. 10:52in the women's section.
272. 10:53>> Another layer to this is trans fanboys.
273. 10:56It lowkey pisses me off seeing how many
274. 10:59people will denounce fanboys transess
275. 11:02because, well, they transitioned to be a
276. 11:05boy, so why are they still dressing like
277. 11:07a girl? Because gender doesn't equal
278. 11:09clothing. You [ __ ] Honda Civic. So
279. 11:11many of the trans fanboys I have seen
280. 11:13can be so cool. Calm VT, Mu Mimi, Bibble
281. 11:17Kitty, they are awesome. And to the
282. 11:19people that are invalidating them, shut
283. 11:20the [ __ ] up. If FEM boys and tomboys
284. 11:22have already proven, hey, clothes don't
285. 11:24equal gender, [music] then why should it
286. 11:28be such a big issue for a trans person
287. 11:31to not wear clothes [music] that don't
288. 11:33align with their identity? trans women
289. 11:35I've seen already wear pretty gender
290. 11:38neutral clothing already. Oh my god, the
291. 11:40amount of trans women I've seen on my
292. 11:42feed. So many of them [music] cook with
293. 11:44like a more tomboy-ish look. And I [ __ ]
294. 11:46with it so heavy. I [ __ ] with that style
295. 11:48so much. But I also [ __ ] with feminine
296. 11:50clothes. Let the boys be boys, please.
297. 11:57>> [music]
298. 11:58>> Now, something a lot of people tend to
299. 12:00believe, especially depending on where
300. 12:02your first exposure exposure,
301. 12:06your first exposure to fem was [music]
302. 12:09is either um they're racists, they're
303. 12:12transphobes, they're pedophiles, they
304. 12:15suck, they stink, they're all gooners,
305. 12:17they're all groomers.
306. 12:19>> There is no good fanboy. And if you have
307. 12:22seen a good fanboy, they're actually
308. 12:23secretly hanging like to kick puppies
309. 12:25for fun,
310. 12:26>> which
311. 12:27you know, given the examples that tend
312. 12:29to show up, yeah, I can see why you
313. 12:31think that. But I want you to realize
314. 12:33something. We don't claim them. Nobody I
315. 12:37have ever personally talked to online
316. 12:39has been a racist. Many of the VTuber
317. 12:41Discord servers I've been into, very,
318. 12:43very, very trans-inclusive. Everybody's
319. 12:46always pretty nice. There was this one
320. 12:48English guy I remember, though. He was
321. 12:50he had a pretty strong distaste for
322. 12:52Romani people, which is like, okay,
323. 12:55[ __ ] British people. I mean, think
324. 12:57about it. That's one guy out of the
325. 12:59probably, I don't know, 60 people that
326. 13:01I've talked to and had conversations
327. 13:03with. And regarding transphobia, I only
328. 13:05had another, again, one instance of
329. 13:08this, but it didn't come from a fanboy.
330. 13:11It came from a gender fluid person that
331. 13:13was in the server. Simply put, at the
332. 13:15time, my friend was and probably still
333. 13:18is questioning their gender. [music] I
334. 13:20don't know if they still are. She is
335. 13:23still he is still I I don't I don't
336. 13:25know. I haven't talked to this friend in
337. 13:26a very long time about this stuff. They
338. 13:28were a fanboy, but they thought, "Hey,
339. 13:29[music]
340. 13:30maybe I'm a trans girl." Nothing wrong
341. 13:31with that. Whatever you are, we will all
342. 13:34support you
343. 13:36except for this [ __ ] [ __ ] This
344. 13:39person wouldn't stop saying some
345. 13:40idiotic. They're talking about some
346. 13:43Well, you didn't even make an attempt to
347. 13:45look like a woman. So, like, are you
348. 13:48even really trans? You can't call
349. 13:50yourself trans. Okay, now this is this
350. 13:52is real friendly fire right here. And of
351. 13:54of all the people that say that really,
352. 13:57I mean, my friend had it bad at the
353. 13:58time, their dad is a Trump supporter,
354. 14:00which like in England of all places,
355. 14:04holy lar. and their and their mom who
356. 14:06was also an [ __ ] They didn't have
357. 14:08the best of abilities to express
358. 14:11themselves at at the moment. So, they
359. 14:13were really really restrained in their
360. 14:15situation. And that person, they just
361. 14:16wouldn't get off on my friend's back. It
362. 14:18was insane. [music]
363. 14:19Eventually, they were banned from the
364. 14:20server, which uh good. You don't just
365. 14:23say [ __ ] like that and expect to get
366. 14:24away with it. I didn't like interacting
367. 14:26with that person at all. Why is it that
368. 14:28all people always assume the absolute
369. 14:30worst of fan fem? I mean, especially
370. 14:32since I feel like I've experienced a
371. 14:34whole lot more [music] worse [ __ ]
372. 14:36outside the community than inside of the
373. 14:38community. Some of my trans mutuals on
374. 14:40Twitter hate the [ __ ] out of them boys.
375. 14:42And, you know, [music] again, given some
376. 14:44factors, I can absolutely understand
377. 14:46why. All right, some people are weird
378. 14:47and blah blah blah this and that. I
379. 14:49don't really want to get into it in this
380. 14:50video. It's just like it's like I'm I'm
381. 14:53right here. I remember asking my sister,
382. 14:55who is [music] definitely more on the
383. 14:57trans side of TW Twitter than I am. I
384. 14:59kept talking to her like, "Hey, you
385. 15:00know, what's it with all these trans
386. 15:02women hating fanboys, especially since
387. 15:03like, you know, all the trans women
388. 15:05[music] I've personally interacted with
389. 15:07with aside from those few mutuals, they
390. 15:10seem to have zero problem with me and
391. 15:12seem to have [music] zero problem with
392. 15:13fanboys. And most of the fanboys that I
393. 15:16see on Twitter, aren't usually terrible.
394. 15:19They really aren't." And then she goes
395. 15:21on to say something like, "Well, all the
396. 15:22ones that I see are usually [music] like
397. 15:25Hitler Epstein III." like it has to be
398. 15:29like some like algorithmic thing, right?
399. 15:31Like that that's the that's my only
400. 15:34valid explanation [music] for all this.
401. 15:35But nothing is as prevalent on both
402. 15:38sides of these algorithms than over
403. 15:40sexualized fanboys.
404. 15:42[music]
405. 15:45Famboys have the reputation of being
406. 15:47rather
407. 15:49sexual. So sexual that [music] grooming
408. 15:52and pedophile allegations are pretty
409. 15:54prevalent among some of the shitty
410. 15:56[music] things that fanboys do.
411. 15:58Is there a problem with pedophilia?
412. 16:00Yeah, absolutely. But please don't call
413. 16:02every single fem boy you see a [ __ ]
414. 16:05pedophile. You know, [music] I actually
415. 16:06saw this video recently. It's called
416. 16:08Pinkp. It talks about force fem tactics
417. 16:12through memes and message boards. And
418. 16:15this is a very real thing. [music] It's
419. 16:17been pretty prevalent throughout many
420. 16:18subreddits and 4chan image boards,
421. 16:21things like that. But I don't think it's
422. 16:24necessarily just [music] fanboys. It
423. 16:26just so happens that this is this is
424. 16:28just what I've seen me personally, but
425. 16:30I'm sure that it probably [music] does
426. 16:32rather unfortunately exist among some
427. 16:34smaller trans communities here and
428. 16:36there. I remember seeing it so much
429. 16:38early on in my like experimentation
430. 16:40[music] phase. Like I was kind of
431. 16:42grossed out by it and I didn't really
432. 16:44realize it at the time about how gross
433. 16:46it was. I just thought like, oh my god,
434. 16:48there's so many of these Gooner memes
435. 16:49everywhere [music]
436. 16:51like all over the place. It's just kind
437. 16:52of gross. I even mentioned that in my
438. 16:55original video, kind of just
439. 16:56highlighting, wow, there's so many of
440. 16:58these [music] gross memes everywhere.
441. 17:00Blleh. It just never really crossed my
442. 17:02mind how predatory these types of memes
443. 17:04[music] can be, especially with lots of
444. 17:06minors in these spaces as well. Posting
445. 17:09about being breedable, like really
446. 17:12thinking about that, that's not
447. 17:13something I should have been seeing at
448. 17:14the age of 16. And moreover, that's not
449. 17:17something anybody that is under the age
450. 17:20of 18 like should be seeing at [music]
451. 17:22all. a queer creator that I remember
452. 17:25watching and I think I'm still
453. 17:26subscribed to them. Um, they're pretty
454. 17:28fanboy adjacent. They started out as a
455. 17:30fanboy. Um, I remember they made a sort
456. 17:33of similar video talking about [music]
457. 17:34their gripes with the fanboy community
458. 17:36as a whole. Blah blah blah. I don't like
459. 17:38community cuz super sexual and
460. 17:42bravo. They couldn't have said it any
461. 17:43better than I could have. And the stupid
462. 17:46commenter, they were replying two
463. 17:48[music] comments under the YouTube video
464. 17:50that were rather supportive that said
465. 17:52like, "I hate fun. [music] You hate
466. 17:55having fun." And then there was this
467. 17:57other person that said, "Then get out of
468. 18:00our adult spaces then." Like, I'm sorry,
469. 18:02man, but you know, [music] the internet
470. 18:04has been rather accessible to teenagers
471. 18:06for a super long time. You know, it's
472. 18:09kind of hard to keep them out. [music]
473. 18:10Many of them lie about their ages to get
474. 18:12through adult spaces. You could put
475. 18:14things in place like age ID verification
476. 18:18um to stop it, but it's not going to do
477. 18:21a whole lot. And for the record, all
478. 18:23this age ID [ __ ] I don't agree with it
479. 18:25because it is most certainly not for
480. 18:26miners and it's most definitely just
481. 18:28trying to sell your information. But you
482. 18:29didn't hear that from me. Even with all
483. 18:31that stuff in place, there's going to be
484. 18:32some type of loophole and some other
485. 18:34gross [ __ ] I mean, we're already seeing
486. 18:36it like some very predatory Discord
487. 18:38servers are just letting miners in while
488. 18:41also posting NSFW content. So, like, you
489. 18:44know, I don't really I'm not going to
490. 18:46really blame the the teenagers getting
491. 18:48in. I'm going to blame the adults
492. 18:50letting the space be so open in some
493. 18:52cases, not all. My response to this is,
494. 18:55hey, um maybe [music] instead of saying
495. 18:58stop trying to invade our adult spaces,
496. 19:00maybe stop trying to justify being horny
497. 19:02on Maine with our minors present. You
498. 19:04know, that's like walking outside fully
499. 19:06naked, knowing full well kids live in
500. 19:08your neighborhood. Pointing to the
501. 19:09property line and saying, "Hey, [music]
502. 19:11this is my adult space. If you want to
503. 19:13keep those kids safe, keep them out."
504. 19:15Huh? Think about that. Understandably
505. 19:17so. Okay, minor and 18 plus spaces. It's
506. 19:20a very serious issue. All right, [music]
507. 19:22that's that's it's horrible, right? Keep
508. 19:24them out for sure. However, you know,
509. 19:25there's places like that are locked
510. 19:28specifically for adults, right? There
511. 19:30are like forums [music] made
512. 19:32specifically for adults that I'm sure
513. 19:34plenty of miners don't even know exist.
514. 19:36And you can keep all that [ __ ] over
515. 19:37there. All right. All this horny meme
516. 19:40posting all over the damn place is no
517. 19:43place [music] for a minor to see it.
518. 19:46Okay. It's it's just gross. It's it's
519. 19:48gross. I mean, I'm not even a minor
520. 19:50anymore and I don't want to see it. All
521. 19:51right. Safe for work subreddits and
522. 19:53servers are no place to be posting all
523. 19:55of this [ __ ] Right? I don't want to
524. 19:57hear about Bussy. I don't want to hear
525. 19:59about an extra milkshake, okay? It's
526. 20:02gross. Keep that [ __ ] to yourself. I can
527. 20:04understand where people get this idea of
528. 20:07fem so so so sexual, but I am telling
529. 20:12you, not every one of us guys are like
530. 20:14this. Most of the wonderful people that
531. 20:16I have met have genuine passions and
532. 20:19fantastic personalities, super duper
533. 20:22interesting hobbies and talents that are
534. 20:24out of this world. The ones that don't
535. 20:27are most likely the gooner ones. The
536. 20:29ones that make like a bajillion sex
537. 20:31jokes. The ones that most people
538. 20:34probably refer to whenever they say
539. 20:36fanboys are a fetch. Oh my god. And you
540. 20:39want to talk like fanboys being
541. 20:40stereotyped as sexual? Like the other
542. 20:42side of the coin is like people that
543. 20:44assume that oh yeah, since fanboys are
544. 20:46so sexual like let's just like use them
545. 20:48for sex and [ __ ] You know the dudes
546. 20:50that like want to talk to us for a quick
547. 20:52[ __ ] I had already mentioned this
548. 20:53earlier, but a whole bunch of guys had
549. 20:55DM'd me only after I had posted some
550. 20:57photos and none of it was sexual. It was
551. 21:00just me posing in front of a mirror and
552. 21:02then out of nowhere 20 to 25 guys DMing
553. 21:05me. Hey, what are you doing? Be my wife.
554. 21:07Oh my god, you're so petite. Do you send
555. 21:11it? [screaming]
556. 21:12STOP IT.
557. 21:14>> I don't want you. I don't want sex. I
558. 21:17don't even want to talk to you. And even
559. 21:19if it did want to talk to you, I'd
560. 21:20rather you not try to get with me after
561. 21:2210 minutes. Always these gooner men
562. 21:24online. And to any minors that are
563. 21:26hearing this, leave. But if you're not
564. 21:29going to listen to me, if you dabble in
565. 21:32this sort of thing, like posting the Tik
566. 21:33Tok, posting photos, whatever. [music]
567. 21:36Ignore these people, okay? Run for the
568. 21:38hills. I got groomed at one point
569. 21:41because of one of these [ __ ] And you
570. 21:42know, the safest option is to just not
571. 21:44post at all. All right? You really
572. 21:46shouldn't be. Stay safe, please. [music]
573. 21:52I feel like all the amalgamation of
574. 21:53things that I've talked about, like all
575. 21:55these problems and whatnot, they kind of
576. 21:58culminated into these feelings that
577. 22:00people had towards me in real life, like
578. 22:03people judging me for simply acting this
579. 22:06way or whatever. I said I never
580. 22:08experienced any homophobia, but some
581. 22:10people definitely had something to say
582. 22:11about what I was wearing almost at all
583. 22:13times, which I guess in some way, maybe
584. 22:15it was homophobia. I don't know. The
585. 22:17following is literally pulled from my
586. 22:19old video cuz like everything I talked
587. 22:22about at the time, it's just like the
588. 22:24perfect example of why I felt so judged
589. 22:26by so many people. So, here you go. This
590. 22:29segment is from literally last year.
591. 22:32Literally, I was just wearing this
592. 22:35choker collar thing at school. I was I
593. 22:38was trying to ease into finally wearing,
594. 22:40you know, stuff that I want outside of
595. 22:42my own home. And this kid that walks in,
596. 22:45he goes, "Jojo, [music]
597. 22:48no way you're wearing a collar. Like,
598. 22:50you're you're better than this." He's
599. 22:52kind of one of my friends, you know? Uh
600. 22:55he's a really chill guy, but the way he
601. 22:57had addressed me [music] as if like
602. 22:59wearing this was a sort of thing that
603. 23:02was like super duper gross and weird. It
604. 23:06kind of made me cringe. Thankfully,
605. 23:07since we're since we're still close, I
606. 23:10he turned around and we're sorry. He
607. 23:12turned it around and [music]
608. 23:15uh we had a laugh about it. He made a
609. 23:18joke. Get a lot of weird looks, which I
610. 23:21did. So many different people staring at
611. 23:23me and you know, glares from across the
612. 23:26hallways. It's just a cute collar,
613. 23:28right? It's just a cute collar. I
614. 23:30decided to wear it a second time [music]
615. 23:33and I received another comment from this
616. 23:35girl that was sitting at my lunch table
617. 23:36for a day. And you know, thank God she
618. 23:39doesn't sit there all the time, you
619. 23:41know.
620. 23:42So, so here's the scene. We're all
621. 23:43sitting [music] there for and for like
622. 23:45five whole minutes, she doesn't even
623. 23:47acknowledge me. She doesn't even notice.
624. 23:50She's talking to my friends cuz she's
625. 23:51closer with them or whatever. She turns
626. 23:54to me. She looks down and she goes
627. 23:58and I'm just sitting here thinking like,
628. 24:00"Please [music] don't say anything." I
629. 24:02even tell her like, "Don't say
630. 24:03anything." And then she goes,
631. 24:07"H,
632. 24:08interesting choice of neckar.
633. 24:11That That's all I'm going to say.
634. 24:16Just call me a fat, bro. Just say I'm
635. 24:18weird. Something something else. You
636. 24:20don't have to be all You don't have to
637. 24:22be like that. And that same day, lots of
638. 24:24my friends were like making fun of me.
639. 24:26They were like calling me a good boy or
640. 24:29they were like like making like little
641. 24:31like like like what you do with a dog,
642. 24:33right? That's annoying. That's annoying.
643. 24:35Like, bro, can I just live my life? The
644. 24:38only nice comment I got that day was the
645. 24:41very end. This one trans guy in my class
646. 24:44said that he really liked it and that
647. 24:46made me feel so much better in the end.
648. 24:48One compliment could go a long way.
649. 24:50Yeah, that really chill guy didn't like
650. 24:51when I posted this photo to Instagram.
651. 24:56And that trans guy didn't like it
652. 24:58either.
653. 25:00[ __ ] But eh, whatever. This sort of
654. 25:03thing happens. I guess it shouldn't
655. 25:05happen. I don't want it to happen. That
656. 25:07wasn't the only form of judginess I'd
657. 25:08experienced, though. I remember I had a
658. 25:11very small fling with this one girl who
659. 25:14said, "Hey, [music] she liked fanboys."
660. 25:15I remember the first time that I had
661. 25:16worn a skirt out at school, she was
662. 25:19staring at me a whole lot. She had
663. 25:20noticed me at school. So, whenever she
664. 25:22told me that, she was like I was like,
665. 25:23"Hey, she likes fanboys." I started to
666. 25:27like send her like reals of fanboys cuz
667. 25:28like I don't know if she maybe she'll
668. 25:30like it. I don't know. And then she
669. 25:32responded back with something like,
670. 25:33"Whoa, whoa, whoa. I don't like like
671. 25:36fanboys." Okay, that's okay. Chill out.
672. 25:39I mean, I just think they look cool. I
673. 25:41don't know. She was like, she
674. 25:42flip-flopped around a lot. Like, damn.
675. 25:44Okay, sorry. Didn't realize. I don't
676. 25:47know. I don't know what was up with her.
677. 25:49There was this one time she she talked
678. 25:51about like futinari. Yeah, she said she
679. 25:53said the word futinari in my face. I was
680. 25:55like, what the okay? I mean, all right.
681. 25:58Okay. Why isn't everybody's business
682. 26:01about what you were able to wear? The
683. 26:04second time I had went out to school, it
684. 26:07was pretty smooth. It was actually a
685. 26:08whole lot better. I had a lot of
686. 26:10compliments. Some of my friends from a
687. 26:11distance, they thought that I was a
688. 26:13girl. So, that's pretty cool. But like,
689. 26:16aside from that, the first thing
690. 26:18everybody else asked was, "What's with
691. 26:20the skirt?" I mean, I get it. This is my
692. 26:23second time doing this sort of thing at
693. 26:24school [music] ever. You show up to
694. 26:26school in a way that not everybody has
695. 26:28seen you, so it's likely some people are
696. 26:30going to have some questions, right? But
697. 26:32it always just it always just sounded so
698. 26:34like condescending at first. So, you
699. 26:36know, I'd always snap back with like,
700. 26:38"Huh? What? What? You got a problem?"
701. 26:40Only for them to like immediately be
702. 26:41like, "No, no, no. I I like it. It's
703. 26:43good." Then lead with that. You make it
704. 26:46sound like you're accusing me of
705. 26:48something. Oh my god. This one annoying
706. 26:50ass kid was telling me some [ __ ] that
707. 26:53day that I the second time I wore the
708. 26:54skirt. [music] They're woke as [ __ ] but
709. 26:56I remember them saying something like,
710. 26:58"You can't wear that. That's not
711. 27:00natural. That's not normal. And like
712. 27:03this fake southern twang, like they're a
713. 27:05maga Republican or something. I don't
714. 27:08know. Like it was clear that they were
715. 27:09joking, [music]
716. 27:10but like it was still like directed like
717. 27:12at me, you know? I don't think that's me
718. 27:14being like a fanboy [music] thing. I
719. 27:15think that's just me not being liked by
720. 27:17them. But they use that language, so it
721. 27:20still counts. I mean, [ __ ] them.
722. 27:23[music]
723. 27:25I'm sure something that a good chunk of
724. 27:26us guys have thought before in the past
725. 27:29is unhealthy comparison with how um we
726. 27:34are perceived. You know, [music] you
727. 27:36know, we'll we'll look at the guys on
728. 27:38Instagram or Tik Tok or Twitter or what
729. 27:40have you. We don't have the same face,
730. 27:42[music] we don't have the same body, we
731. 27:43have the same whatever. They know makeup
732. 27:45and they already have all the good
733. 27:47clothes. Whatever it was, they had a
734. 27:48body. They had a face that [music]
735. 27:51looked not like yours. Or I guess in my
736. 27:53case, these people had faces that looked
737. 27:56not like mine. I remember really early
738. 27:58on feeling like I can't I can't do this.
739. 28:01I [music] wouldn't be able to pull off
740. 28:02being feminine at all. Right. This is
741. 28:05this is just this is just impossible. I
742. 28:08was extremely hairy everywhere. My
743. 28:11stomach looks weird. I'm slim, sure, but
744. 28:14I didn't look fem slim. I thought I
745. 28:16never fit the [music] standard for being
746. 28:19a fanboy that, you know, I would never
747. 28:22be liked [music] or like considered as
748. 28:24one. And then, you know, everybody in
749. 28:25the community, they would point and
750. 28:27laugh at me and then I would be so
751. 28:29embarrassed that I have to fly to a
752. 28:30remote island and never talk to anybody
753. 28:32ever again. I mean, I don't know what I
754. 28:34was thinking. I mean, I know that I was
755. 28:35insecure for [music] sure. It's just
756. 28:37come on, it's not the end of the world.
757. 28:39Random PSA. There is no standard for
758. 28:42being a fanboy. that stupid [ __ ]
759. 28:44[music] Fenboy starter pack that you see
760. 28:46posted everywhere. You don't need it.
761. 28:47All right, you don't need it. You can be
762. 28:49however you want. All right, the reason
763. 28:50I'm wearing this is cuz I think that
764. 28:53this stuff is cuter. All right, I think
765. 28:54it is. [music] This is cute just as much
766. 28:56as any other skirt wearing boy is cute.
767. 28:58You can be whatever you want. All right,
768. 29:01body type does not matter or whatever,
769. 29:03right? Tall, short, whatever. All right,
770. 29:05you're fine. Okay, PSA over.
771. 29:09It was all of this [ __ ] All right. The
772. 29:12judging, the sexualization, people
773. 29:15assuming that you're racist or you're
774. 29:17transphobic, it made me want to hide
775. 29:19away for a really long time.
776. 29:24It took me so much courage to actually
777. 29:28finally come out. I never really
778. 29:30explicitly said anything. [music] I just
779. 29:31kind of walked out of the house one day
780. 29:33with my clothes on and I felt that was
781. 29:35enough. But before that had happened, I
782. 29:37just I was just [music] terrified. I was
783. 29:39terrified. Everything I remember a good
784. 29:42friend of mine also on Twitter. [music]
785. 29:44They just kept talking about fanboys.
786. 29:46They're an embarrassment to themselves.
787. 29:48They're all ugly. They're always wearing
788. 29:50such ugly clothes. Okay, that that last
789. 29:52one isn't too far off, but I didn't have
790. 29:54much of a choice way back when. So,
791. 29:57still very mean. I felt super weird
792. 29:59[music] being their friends. Sometimes
793. 30:02I'd reply under the tweets going like,
794. 30:04"What are you talking about? I'm right
795. 30:06here." And they'd turn around and go,
796. 30:07"Oh, not you. Oh, you're one of the good
797. 30:10ones. But that just doesn't sit right
798. 30:13with me. [music] As soon as
799. 30:14generalizations strike a nerve with like
800. 30:17a friend or family member, [music]
801. 30:20something or other. You You just have to
802. 30:22backpedal it cuz hey, we're buddies,
803. 30:24right? It's like that Doodlebug episode
804. 30:26of Spongebob, you know?
805. 30:28>> He's hideous. He makes me sick just
806. 30:31looking at him. Those big bulgy eyes,
807. 30:34that square body, those two buck teeth,
808. 30:38and that stupid toy.
809. 30:41>> Hope it looks good on you, Spongebob.
810. 30:44>> Generalizations are just offensive. Even
811. 30:46if you don't mean to hurt your friends
812. 30:48or whoever, [music] and they just so
813. 30:50happen to identify with these things or
814. 30:53express themselves a certain way, it's
815. 30:55going to rub them the wrong way, as if
816. 30:56you are talking to them. Shocking
817. 30:59revelation, I know. I just wanted to be
818. 31:01myself without all these fears like
819. 31:03compounding in on me, you know? I want
820. 31:06to be myself and I don't want to hide.
821. 31:11But I'm not anymore.
822. 31:18I'm not afraid because
823. 31:21I found that expressing myself so often
824. 31:24as this as this thing. This is me. This
825. 31:27is what makes me happy. I am me. You can
826. 31:29call me this or you can call me that,
827. 31:31but that won't change anything because I
828. 31:32know who I am. I know what I am. I'm a
829. 31:36person. We are people just like you. We
830. 31:39have lives. We want to live. We want to
831. 31:40exist. These fanboy stereotypes are
832. 31:43mostly [ __ ] I'm positive that 95%
833. 31:48of this [ __ ] is just Twitter being
834. 31:50Twitter. The other 5% is well, it's
835. 31:53unfortunately true. But I'm not going to
836. 31:55I'm not going to let 5% of people define
837. 31:59any ounce [music] of what I actually am.
838. 32:01>> One day we can stop being so judgmental
839. 32:04and shitty towards those who are
840. 32:06different. A society with
841. 32:08open-mindedness and empathy at the
842. 32:10forefront of its thinking. A world where
843. 32:13anyone can be what they want. Because
844. 32:15why not? Who are they hurting? What's
845. 32:18wrong with them? Let them live their
846. 32:20lives as much as you wish to live yours.
847. 32:28Or you keep being a [ __ ]
848. 32:33Yeah, you could do that, too.
849. 32:41Thank you so [music] so much for
850. 32:42watching. Uh, this took me a very very
851. 32:45very long time to write and film and put
852. 32:48together, so I appreciate it if you made
853. 32:50it to the end. This is This is great.
854. 32:53Been a couple months out of school, so I
855. 32:56figured, yay, I have free time off. Why
856. 32:58not start making and putting content up
857. 33:01again? I'm going into college in the
858. 33:03next couple of months. I mean, maybe it
859. 33:05it won't be that bad. I I hope I hope it
860. 33:08won't be that bad. Tell me what you
861. 33:09think in the comments. If you liked it,
862. 33:11yay. If you didn't like it, boo. I mean,
863. 33:14comment section's [music] there for you.
864. 33:16You can say whatever you want. I already
865. 33:17have some old videos up. I have my
866. 33:20channel intro. I have some old room
867. 33:22reviews. I have a new room review that I
868. 33:23posted not too long ago. Those videos
869. 33:26are much more like lighthearted and
870. 33:27they're less negative than this video.
871. 33:29You know, if you need something more
872. 33:32light and you like my style of content,
873. 33:34then feel free to watch that stuff. I
874. 33:37also have a Camtape and an AirCast
875. 33:40account. Simply put, it's like it's like
876. 33:42old YouTube, but it's like now YouTube.
877. 33:45I It's It's weird. I'm not sure if I'll
878. 33:47have anything out by the time this video
879. 33:50comes out, but um stick around on those
880. 33:54accounts if you want to see some stuff
881. 33:55in the future cuz I know I for sure will
882. 33:57have some stuff out eventually. Also,
883. 34:00subscribe to my second channel. [music]
884. 34:02It's more personal over there. It's like
885. 34:04me talking to a camera. Like nothing not
886. 34:06too much editing goes on over there. I
887. 34:08just keep rambling about stuff that goes
888. 34:10on in my head. Yeah.
889. 34:13Okay. Okay. Now it's over.
890. 34:16Bye-bye.
891. 34:17Have a good day.
892. 34:24[music]
893. 34:33That's [ __ ]
894. 34:36>> Hi, I'm a f boy. Yo, look at my thighs,
895. 34:39my small tweed body and [ __ ] Yay.
896. 34:44Okay. Okay. [clears throat]
897. 34:48This is a character. This is not how I
898. 34:50actually am. I swear this and this are
899. 34:53for the bit. That's it. [clears throat]
900. 34:56Okay.
901. 34:57And that's the first part.
902. 35:03[music]
903. 35:09[music]
904. 35:16>> [music]