An Interview with Four Amazing Questions — Transcript

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1. 0:00would you like to tell me who you are
2. 0:05oh that's an interesting sound
3. 0:13wow
4. 0:16can you do you mean my name or
5. 0:20whatever
6. 0:20[Laughter]
7. 0:23do you think that you
8. 0:27would be able to tell me who you are
9. 0:33would you like to to say something about
10. 0:37why that is
11. 0:43oh
12. 0:50it feels like
13. 0:53that in this process my whole life
14. 0:57basically but especially these last
15. 1:02um
16. 1:0425 years 30 years I don't even know
17. 1:07anymore
18. 1:08I've come to see
19. 1:11who I'm not
20. 1:14all of who I was conditioned to be uh
21. 1:18the patterns of behavior all all of the
22. 1:23old Marianne
23. 1:28um
24. 1:30they're just not there
25. 1:32and you know uh it's okay I mention
26. 1:35human design
27. 1:38absolutely okay so
28. 1:41um in human design I'm a generator and a
29. 1:44generator is here to discover who they
30. 1:47are and I remember
31. 1:51um doing a teaching and a living or
32. 1:54design class after I'd been in the
33. 1:57experiment a long time and someone asked
34. 2:00me if I could you know can I tell them
35. 2:03who I am and I went ah ah I don't know
36. 2:06but we're here to discover who we are so
37. 2:09they were shocked you know and my own
38. 2:11mind when I heard that I thought I would
39. 2:14be able to tell you in words who I am
40. 2:19but that's just not possible
41. 2:22you know but what I I can say is it's
42. 2:27like all the identification with I'm a
43. 2:30teacher or I'm a mother or I'm a
44. 2:32grandmother and all of that is the outer
45. 2:35dance
46. 2:37you know it's just the dance I'm alive
47. 2:39I'm I'm a human I'm I'm having fun in
48. 2:42this world I love my connections
49. 2:45but that's the dance but what's inside
50. 2:49is
51. 2:50beyond that dance
52. 2:53so you know it's been a long time to get
53. 2:57to this place inside and what I can say
54. 3:02is
55. 3:04what I know as
56. 3:06who Marianne is as a human is I know her
57. 3:11frequency I know I know this
58. 3:16how to say this like
59. 3:19um
60. 3:21inner alignment inner song So to say huh
61. 3:26and that's so stable it's always there
62. 3:30and um that that is how I move through
63. 3:35the world from that place
64. 3:38and then
65. 3:40um
66. 3:42uh years back I remember
67. 3:47uh being in this space laying on my
68. 3:51couch and just feeling nothing
69. 3:55just nothing it wasn't even in touch
70. 3:59with
71. 4:00that song it was just nothing and that
72. 4:04was really freaky you know
73. 4:08but it's it's it's different now it's
74. 4:12like
75. 4:14um there's this there's this personality
76. 4:17that is grandma and mom and a friend and
77. 4:21a wife and you know a sister and
78. 4:25um you know all of this that's the
79. 4:28personality dance as a human then
80. 4:31there's this song that I can feel that I
81. 4:35became so aware of over the years where
82. 4:40everything that was not me fell away and
83. 4:44now behind that song feels like there's
84. 4:47just nothing
85. 4:49and when I'm alone
86. 4:51I feel that nothing
87. 4:54but when I'm out I have a good time you
88. 4:59know it's like
89. 5:02I have my margarita you know I have fun
90. 5:07with the kids my grandkids I mean my
91. 5:10sister my husband you know I'm traveling
92. 5:13all around and it's like yeah I mean why
93. 5:17not why not enjoy so it's like this this
94. 5:21uh this this whole experience yeah
95. 5:26did that answer your question
96. 5:30it did it's
97. 5:33actually the questions they're they're
98. 5:36not easy they're they're pretty sure but
99. 5:40they're not straightforward in the sense
100. 5:43that there is a correct answer so I love
101. 5:48what came through here Marianne okay
102. 5:56um
103. 5:57would you like to hear the second
104. 5:59question
105. 6:00huh this is a slight Nuance change just
106. 6:04so it will be interesting to see what
107. 6:07the response might be here I'll ask it
108. 6:10you have touched upon it of course
109. 6:12already
110. 6:14would you like to say something about
111. 6:17what you are
112. 6:19what I am hmm
113. 6:24no response
114. 6:27no response
115. 6:50can you add a little more or maybe
116. 6:53explain a little uh
117. 6:56uh okay okay I I kind of enjoy that
118. 7:00answer very much okay
119. 7:04to be with it for a while
120. 7:12um
121. 7:13it's an answer as good as any
122. 7:16um
123. 7:20would you like to say something about
124. 7:23what another is
125. 7:26hmm
126. 7:36wow I'm feeling
127. 7:39filled with something
128. 7:42um
129. 7:49it's um
130. 7:52I I almost want to say there isn't the
131. 7:55other
132. 7:56but I don't understand why I want to say
133. 7:59that I don't even know if that's true
134. 8:01you know
135. 8:03I don't know it's it's I don't know I
136. 8:07don't know
137. 8:10would you like to say something about
138. 8:13why you think this this
139. 8:17is a
140. 8:19difficult question to
141. 8:22um to say something about
142. 8:30foreign
143. 8:37I know like I'm a human
144. 8:40I'm I'm in a human form you're in a
145. 8:44human form everyone's in a human form
146. 8:46the other
147. 8:49um
148. 8:49but they're also dog forms
149. 8:52no and towel forms and tree forms and
150. 8:57flowers and and and for me
151. 9:03hmm
152. 9:17it's life
153. 9:19it's life on planet Earth
154. 9:22you know
155. 9:25but
156. 9:27the other is so much more than just that
157. 9:31human form and I don't mean just because
158. 9:33this is the dance we have huh
159. 9:37you know I I
160. 9:41love in in my travels meeting strangers
161. 9:45not even meeting them like but
162. 9:49all of a sudden you look into each
163. 9:52other's eyes
164. 9:53and there's something so deep
165. 9:57that is met in that short second as you
166. 10:02both move on your way you know
167. 10:06um
168. 10:15but it is a difficult question I I
169. 10:24[Laughter]
170. 10:27do you have anything to say about it
171. 10:32would you say Mariam that
172. 10:36um
173. 10:37the other and the view of the other has
174. 10:41changed a lot over the 25 years you're
175. 10:46describing yeah
176. 10:48[Music]
177. 10:50would you like to say something about
178. 10:53them in in which way
179. 10:56[Music]
180. 11:01it changed because
181. 11:05the view of myself changed
182. 11:10you know without this going through what
183. 11:13it went through
184. 11:15um
185. 11:17the connections would with the other
186. 11:20would have been all based on emotions
187. 11:23and thoughts and and me trying to please
188. 11:27and all of the old patterns of behavior
189. 11:33um
190. 11:33with that having
191. 11:37dissolved I would say dissolved
192. 11:41um
193. 11:42it's so clean now
194. 11:44it's so clean there's a real respect
195. 11:49you know if I ask my husband if he wants
196. 11:53to do something and he has a no
197. 11:56that's it
198. 11:58or my granddaughters or my sister or you
199. 12:02or anyone if they have a null I I am
200. 12:06totally fine with this no so all of that
201. 12:09trying to get the other to agree with me
202. 12:12or to do what I want them to do and all
203. 12:16this that creates so much
204. 12:19oh
205. 12:21chaos and struggle and hatred and all of
206. 12:26this that it creates on our planet is no
207. 12:30longer there
208. 12:31so the others totally change for me I
209. 12:33see them as a unique human being
210. 12:37rather than before it used to be oh well
211. 12:40we're alike and we're this and well
212. 12:43we're not
213. 12:43[Laughter]
214. 12:46we're not alike at all
215. 12:48we may have some similarities but even
216. 12:51those are so nuanced so this whole
217. 12:55um
218. 12:56this whole way of seeing the other has
219. 12:59changed I see
220. 13:01each person as a unique human being and
221. 13:04and I also see that
222. 13:07you know
223. 13:09um
224. 13:12there on their ride in this life
225. 13:15so all the judging you know
226. 13:18like how could they do that they should
227. 13:21do it like this and all of this it's
228. 13:23like no we each have a ride that we have
229. 13:26to live out and
230. 13:28I have no idea except I'm living out
231. 13:31mine I have no idea out here for anyone
232. 13:34else
233. 13:35hmm
234. 13:37yeah
235. 13:44and you know the the
236. 13:48um the analogy and human design of the
237. 13:51passenger in the vehicle
238. 13:52and
239. 13:55the
240. 13:58form the vehicle audience and the
241. 14:00passenger sitting in the back seat
242. 14:02that's the personality Consciousness
243. 14:05sitting in the back seat and going on
244. 14:08this ride you know but because of our
245. 14:11minds we think we're in control we
246. 14:15actually think we're the driver huh
247. 14:18and what I spent my whole life doing was
248. 14:21wanting someone to sit in the back seat
249. 14:23with me
250. 14:25and that's so funny now that's just like
251. 14:29how could I have ever thought that you
252. 14:32know it was like I wanted someone
253. 14:35to
254. 14:37be right there living my life with me in
255. 14:39a way
256. 14:41and um
257. 14:43it's it's it's just funny right now too
258. 14:46to see that and to to to to understand
259. 14:51that so much of my life was looking for
260. 14:54that you know and now it's
261. 14:58I love being in the back seat and
262. 15:01looking out the window and just going on
263. 15:03this journey and
264. 15:05and
265. 15:08knowing
266. 15:10and loving
267. 15:12that I'm alone
268. 15:15I'm alone
269. 15:18I'm alone
270. 15:21that's
271. 15:23not lonely alone it's so different
272. 15:28and no one can sit back there with me
273. 15:33it's
274. 15:35it's a very comfortable back seat being
275. 15:37alone
276. 15:41a lot of space
277. 15:44and a convertible looking up
278. 15:56beautiful
279. 16:00um would you like to hear the last
280. 16:03question
281. 16:04I feel like you have led into it very
282. 16:08nicely here it and then this is if you
283. 16:12would like to say something about what
284. 16:14life is
285. 16:16can you ask it in a yes no way yeah
286. 16:19would you like to say something about
287. 16:22what life is
288. 16:32wow life
289. 16:36now
290. 16:40[Laughter]
291. 16:43life before not so much
292. 16:48no it's like I'm so relaxed
293. 16:51in this body and I let this body
294. 16:58move the way it needs to move I'm not
295. 17:01pushing I have no goal I don't try to
296. 17:04accomplish anything I'm just like
297. 17:08relaxing in in life and if someone comes
298. 17:13and says will you and I go that the
299. 17:16energy is there and I'm off but
300. 17:18otherwise I'm very content to just
301. 17:23D
302. 17:24won't just be this is for me what life
303. 17:28is it's just being
304. 17:30and enjoying the journey because there's
305. 17:34nowhere to get to we're all going to die
306. 17:36so the body's gonna die not weird the
307. 17:39body's gonna die so why the hurry why
308. 17:42the rush why all these goals it's like
309. 17:45the end results the same for all of us
310. 17:49so this being and relaxing into this
311. 17:52just this it's like wow
312. 17:56you know
313. 17:57um
314. 18:01and and oh eating good food this is such
315. 18:05fun you know this is really like wow
316. 18:09going on a trip being with family being
317. 18:12with friends doing this with you this is
318. 18:16all makes up life
319. 18:18and these are all the outer experiences
320. 18:22that make life just a joy for me it's
321. 18:27just a joy and and then just being
322. 18:30relaxed inside myself it's just as much
323. 18:34of a joy me being all alone
324. 18:38reading a book
325. 18:41or doing a big trip it
326. 18:44there's not this measurement that one is
327. 18:47better than the other you know it's like
328. 18:49it's
329. 18:50it's all
330. 18:53what I'm meant to be so
331. 18:56that's for me life
332. 18:59some
333. 19:14and and I think
334. 19:19I I want to just say something because
335. 19:21it can seem like
336. 19:25um that everything is easy and life is a
337. 19:29picnic uh-uh no no no no no no no no
338. 19:32there are some intense situations
339. 19:37that a human moves through I have moved
340. 19:41through I I never know what what's going
341. 19:44to happen
342. 19:45but being aligned and relaxed inside no
343. 19:49matter what the intense situation is
344. 19:53there's a deep trust in my body now not
345. 19:57here saying I should trust but it's
346. 20:00cellular trust now that
347. 20:03it's what I meant to otherwise it
348. 20:06wouldn't show up so life is everything
349. 20:10that's good life is everyone
350. 20:13[Laughter]
351. 20:25that was fun
352. 20:27thank you so much Marianne oh you're
353. 20:30welcome that's