Am I About To Get Arrested? — Transcript

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1. 0:00I'm in the process of receiving such a
2. 0:02strong reflection from the universe.
3. 0:04Such a um
4. 0:06wonderful wonderful lesson. And I know
5. 0:09that because it's killing me.
6. 0:11Because I feel sick in my stomach.
7. 0:13Because I can feel my ego literally
8. 0:17being pulled apart by this. I only have
9. 0:19to You know, it's such a strong lesson
10. 0:22that at first I did approach it with my
11. 0:24ego cuz I couldn't accept it.
12. 0:27Okay, so basically 3 days ago I think it
13. 0:29is now.
14. 0:30Uh I'm driving along.
15. 0:33I don't even know how it [ __ ]
16. 0:34happened to be honest other than I'm
17. 0:35driving on a bike to work or bike to
18. 0:37work. That's, you know, a big reason.
19. 0:39Um but I just don't know. I don't know
20. 0:41how I ended up in the back of it. But I
21. 0:42ended up in the back of this [ __ ]
22. 0:43car. Totally my fault. And
23. 0:47I stop. I get off the bike. I give her
24. 0:50my number. I apologize. I say, "Yes, of
25. 0:53course I'll pay for it." There's no
26. 0:54dispute. There's no
27. 0:56who's right and who's wrong here. It's
28. 0:58absolutely 100% my fault.
29. 1:01And uh give her my number. Stand with
30. 1:03her for 10 minutes. And then she starts
31. 1:05making phone calls.
32. 1:07She starts um
33. 1:09calling people. And she's saying
34. 1:10obviously it's in Vietnamese. But she's
35. 1:11saying shop names. That she's clearly
36. 1:13calling people there.
37. 1:15And then she starts saying 10 million
38. 1:17dong, which is like almost 400 quid.
39. 1:20Uh so the bumper's cracked. Like there's
40. 1:21a little hairline crack in the bumper.
41. 1:23That's it.
42. 1:25So I I panic. I'm just like, "Uh."
43. 1:28What's about to happen? I mean, is a
44. 1:29gang of locals about to turn up and like
45. 1:32take me around ATMs and extort me and
46. 1:35I panic. And I um
47. 1:37I act out of integrity.
48. 1:40I act from ego and you know, fear.
49. 1:44And I do a runner.
50. 1:47I mean, I haven't done a runner. It's
51. 1:48not a hit-and-run because I've given her
52. 1:49my details. I've told her that I'm going
53. 1:51to sort it out. Um but I panicked when
54. 1:54she started calling friends and speaking
55. 1:55about, you know, large amounts of money
56. 1:56for a very small crack in the land of
57. 1:59like incredible
58. 2:01craftsmanship.
59. 2:03Like if you saw that video on my other
60. 2:05channel
61. 2:07where I had a bike repair on an island
62. 2:08like £2.50 and it was incredible and yes
63. 2:11it was a botched job but it was [ __ ]
64. 2:12brilliant.
65. 2:15Okay so.
66. 2:19Okay so then.
67. 2:20You know I'm very stressed I'm panicking
68. 2:22I don't really know what to do and she's
69. 2:23calling me non-stop so I don't answer
70. 2:25her calls so I can see from her point of
71. 2:27view that she thinks I'm doing a runner.
72. 2:31I can I you know I I accept that's how
73. 2:33it looks to her. But actually I'm just
74. 2:35panicking and I'm just overwhelmed and I
75. 2:37just need 24 hours before I communicate
76. 2:39with her again.
77. 2:41And then I wake up to this. It was
78. 2:45actually a comment on somebody commented
79. 2:48like
80. 2:50you know slagging me off you've done a
81. 2:51hit and run baby you make us look bad.
82. 2:54Um.
83. 2:56And I read that comment and I was like
84. 2:57so this is obviously on a video that's
85. 2:59filmed before this incident.
86. 3:01And I'm just like what the [ __ ] And
87. 3:02then I realize I'm like oh okay there's
88. 3:04something there's something out there
89. 3:05about this and then I look on my
90. 3:06Facebook and there it is.
91. 3:09Um I think I do a really good job of not
92. 3:11letting it bother me not letting you
93. 3:13know the ego get oh what do people think
94. 3:16oh they've got the wrong end of the
95. 3:17stick oh this is unfair but she's posted
96. 3:19this when this isn't what really what
97. 3:20happened.
98. 3:21Although I can understand from her point
99. 3:22of view why she feels she needs to do
100. 3:23that.
101. 3:24Um and there was none of that there was
102. 3:26none of that it was it was just a
103. 3:27chuckle really.
104. 3:29Um.
105. 3:31Right so what's happening here? Right so
106. 3:33basically what's happening is she has
107. 3:36taken the car to the official Ford
108. 3:38garage and of course they've said it
109. 3:39needs a whole new bumper.
110. 3:41And they've said it is about I think
111. 3:43£360.
112. 3:46Um.
113. 3:47>> [snorts]
114. 3:48>> So.
115. 3:49I of course I'm going to pay for this
116. 3:51repair. And I already know that.
117. 3:53Um
118. 3:55And I also know that she is not going to
119. 3:58accept a botched job, even if it looks
120. 4:00perfect. You know, she's going to want
121. 4:02that she's, you know, she's she's middle
122. 4:04class, she's status-driven, she's
123. 4:05materialistic.
124. 4:07She's, you know, an NPC.
125. 4:10So, of course, they're just going to
126. 4:11want like
127. 4:12the the thought of any sort of
128. 4:14imperfection to them would would just
129. 4:15drive them crazy.
130. 4:17So, um
131. 4:19So, basically, I spent 24 hours
132. 4:22debating with this woman, trying to
133. 4:24convince her to go to what I would call
134. 4:26a proper garage, a non-scam,
135. 4:28non-official, non-corporation garage.
136. 4:30You know, real people.
137. 4:32Um
138. 4:35Which has caused her stress.
139. 4:38And has then caused me some stress
140. 4:41because she's gone on this spin that I'm
141. 4:42trying to get out of it
142. 4:44and put it on Facebook.
143. 4:47Um So, I said but but here's the quirks.
144. 4:49Here's the quirks.
145. 4:50I know one
146. 4:54that she's not going to accept not going
147. 4:56to a Ford garage.
148. 4:58I know this.
149. 5:00I know two that 400 quid makes no
150. 5:01difference to me.
151. 5:03I know three
152. 5:05that this is just a lesson, and if I
153. 5:07lean into it, rather than getting
154. 5:09resistant and trying to control
155. 5:11and manipulate out of scarcity and fear
156. 5:14and not trusting,
157. 5:16um that it will all just come back to me
158. 5:18tenfold anyway, because it's that energy
159. 5:20It's that energy that stops abundance.
160. 5:22If you If If one can learn to not live
161. 5:25in a
162. 5:27What the [ __ ] was that? Something was
163. 5:29crawling on me.
164. 5:30Uh live in resistance and fear and
165. 5:32control, and live in trust and flow,
166. 5:34then guess what? Abundance will flow
167. 5:36because you've created that space.
168. 5:39Ah, so I know all of this, and I'm still
169. 5:42doing it. I've still let my ego for 24
170. 5:44hours try and control this situation
171. 5:47that is uncontrollable and also has just
172. 5:50come as a lesson. It's just come as
173. 5:52another offering into do you want to
174. 5:55flow with ease? When something comes up
175. 5:57which is a bit of an injustice, do you
176. 6:00want to try and fight that or do you
177. 6:02want to just go, "Okay, no problem."
178. 6:04There you go. It makes no difference to
179. 6:05me.
180. 6:06Uh I'll just keep flowing and and and no
181. 6:08longer think about this. So so basically
182. 6:10to try and save, let's say 300 quid,
183. 6:12maybe 250 quid,
184. 6:14I've I've had this energy for 24 hours
185. 6:17rather than
186. 6:18this energy.
187. 6:20And
188. 6:21um
189. 6:24yeah, it's like this reflection that
190. 6:26there's no amount of money, there's no
191. 6:27amount of physical, there's no amount of
192. 6:29material that is ever worth sacrificing
193. 6:33>> [sighs]
194. 6:33>> for.
195. 6:35And just seeing
196. 6:37how much that part of me that wants to
197. 6:39control
198. 6:42ruins my life.
199. 6:44>> [laughter]
200. 6:45>> Ruins all sense of peace, ruins all
201. 6:47sense of flow, all sense of trust.
202. 6:50Um it's ridiculous.
203. 6:52But I had to allow it to happen for 24
204. 6:54hours to become aware of it to this to
205. 6:56this degree. Obviously, I've been aware
206. 6:58of how the ego works like this
207. 7:01on many other levels, but like now we're
208. 7:03getting to a new level, which I'm not
209. 7:04saying is like amazingly deep or
210. 7:06amazingly enlightened. It's still
211. 7:07completely [ __ ] and still actually
212. 7:08very obvious.
213. 7:10But seeing as most people don't even
214. 7:13separate themselves from the ego, they
215. 7:14just are the ego.
216. 7:16It is quite a deep level to say like the
217. 7:18level of indoctrination we live in
218. 7:21as a society, but the the level of
219. 7:23unconsciousness, the lack of awareness
220. 7:25of our own these
221. 7:27this way of being.
222. 7:30Ah, so again, I suppose it it I'm not So
223. 7:33So this morning,
224. 7:34I sent one final message just like
225. 7:36saying, you know, can we just try
226. 7:38another garage and see what they say?
227. 7:39And obviously, she's going to say no.
228. 7:40And then I'm just going to pay it. And
229. 7:42I'm already starting to feel that sense
230. 7:44of relief. So, what used to make me feel
231. 7:46sick, spending 9 million dong
232. 7:48on a corporation that's just completely
233. 7:50unnecessary because,
234. 7:52you know, essentially someone's
235. 7:53repressed and and and and restricted.
236. 7:56Um
237. 7:58you know, that was making me feel sick
238. 8:00when I was trying to control it from the
239. 8:01ego.
240. 8:02But now, I've moved to this place of
241. 8:03just like,
242. 8:04I I just can't wait for this situation
243. 8:06to be over. Like, no amount of money is
244. 8:07worth being in this energy.
245. 8:09Um
246. 8:11like, I can already feel the relief.
247. 8:14I've got I think I'm going to actually
248. 8:15go into the Ford garage with the
249. 8:17invoice. She sent me the invoice and and
250. 8:18just pay the invoice and then let her
251. 8:20know and and say, "You can just take
252. 8:21your car whenever you want. It's already
253. 8:23paid for."
254. 8:24And you know, I can already feel the
255. 8:26sense of relief in that and actually how
256. 8:29great it's going to be.
257. 8:31Uh whereas usually in a situation like
258. 8:34this, I might get to this place where I
259. 8:36accept, "Okay, I just need to do this."
260. 8:38But it would but would still be
261. 8:39resistance and some resentment whereas I
262. 8:41can really feel this is the first time
263. 8:43in a situation like this cuz I've had
264. 8:44[ __ ] millions of them.
265. 8:46Obviously.
266. 8:47And uh
267. 8:49where I'm actually just going to feel
268. 8:50like, "Oh, peace." And then, you know,
269. 8:52if if if that really does occur, which
270. 8:54I'm pretty sure it will, by which I mean
271. 8:56paying this money with a sense of
272. 8:57gratitude, um then these situations will
273. 9:00stop.
274. 9:02You know, the universe will just bring
275. 9:03you the lessons until you learn them.
276. 9:05What isn't
277. 9:07>> [sighs]
278. 9:07>> What isn't learned today will just come
279. 9:08back tomorrow with a with a a really
280. 9:10beautiful way of saying it. Something
281. 9:12about reflection, but I forget it.
282. 9:15>> [sighs]
283. 9:18>> But yeah, essentially, the lessons you
284. 9:19resist today will just keep coming back
285. 9:21tomorrow.
286. 9:22So, I've when it comes to money,
287. 9:25my ego has has still had quite a lot of
288. 9:28control.
289. 9:30And um
290. 9:32and of course, it still does. I'm not
291. 9:33saying that's totally dissolved,
292. 9:35but a new uh another layer of it is
293. 9:37dissolving.
294. 9:39And I truly believe that if I can
295. 9:43And it and it and but but it can't come
296. 9:45from me, guys. Like I can't
297. 9:47I can't tell myself I'm doing it with
298. 9:48gratitude. I have to actually feel the
299. 9:50gratitude, you know, to transmute that
300. 9:53energy.
301. 9:54You know, it has to be real. It has to
302. 9:55be felt. It has to be, you know,
303. 9:57authentic. It has to exist. It can't
304. 9:59just be from the mind from the ego
305. 10:00telling itself it's doing something.
306. 10:02Which is how all this starts out. When I
307. 10:04first went to the spiritual ego,
308. 10:06that's what it is. Like when you're
309. 10:10you know, it's like how a lot of people
310. 10:11understand karma. Like if I
311. 10:13if I do something good, good will come
312. 10:14to me. Like I I have moments where I
313. 10:18drive past um you know, somebody who's
314. 10:21in real poverty out here.
315. 10:23And it comes up in me to give them
316. 10:24money. Sometimes I do.
317. 10:26Um
318. 10:27but noticing that that
319. 10:30when that comes up,
320. 10:32it's it's partly coming up out of like
321. 10:35sympathy and just like
322. 10:37I just want to [ __ ] make this person
323. 10:39like give this person a really good day
324. 10:41and a really like
325. 10:44uh
326. 10:45>> [sighs]
327. 10:52>> I want to help this person. But what
328. 10:54also comes up with it is
329. 10:56um
330. 10:58this story
331. 11:00that if I do that, the universe will
332. 11:02reward me. And it's like this that's the
333. 11:05spiritual ego. It's
334. 11:06it's like still trying to manipulate
335. 11:09from a
336. 11:12uh
337. 11:13spiritual place.
338. 11:15So it's so it's basically not um I'm
339. 11:18just going to use the word
340. 11:19enlightenment. It's it's it's it's not
341. 11:21um
342. 11:21it's not true depth. It's not true
343. 11:23authenticity. They're better words,
344. 11:25actually.
345. 11:26It's still trying to manipulate and
346. 11:27control.
347. 11:29But from a good place.
348. 11:33Rather than the standard manipulation
349. 11:34and control of like narcissism and lies
350. 11:37and personas and utter fakery, working a
351. 11:40normal job, having to sacrifice any
352. 11:43authenticity,
353. 11:44any uh stoicism,
354. 11:47any wisdom.
355. 11:49Just for the painting.
356. 11:53What do you make of that one?
357. 11:54I'll see you in the comments below.