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0:01[music]
0:07[music]
0:10>> Okay, good morning and happy Wednesday
0:14from the luckiest girl in the world.
0:16Look at that view. This is my coffee
0:18view, you guys. Oh my god. Although I
0:20don't have a lid on this, it's feeling
0:21very open container right now. One of my
0:23favorite views in the whole city right
0:26here. So insanely pretty. I'm going on a
0:28morning walk. I've been trying to do
0:30this lately as much as possible. Not
0:32only for like mental health to get my
0:35steps in, but because I have to take
0:37advantage of this time of year just
0:39because the sun rises so early. I can go
0:42for like a long walk before work and
0:45still have plenty of time to do all my
0:46other stuff this morning. Like I already
0:48meditated, I already did part of my
0:50morning routine and now I'm just taking
0:53a stroll through the park. Also, I took
0:56a little break from vlogging Monday and
0:58Tuesday because if there's anything I've
1:00learned about me, it's that I'm like
1:02never going to be in a deficit for what
1:05to film or like how much I'm going to
1:07yak. Basically like I'm never going to
1:09run out of content. Even if I shave off
1:10a couple days cuz some of my vlogs
1:12lately have been really long, which like
1:14don't get me wrong, people have been
1:16very communicative that they like the
1:18longer vlogs, which I love. I also love
1:21long vlogs cuz I just like putting them
1:23on in the background while I'm like
1:25doing other things, but they've been so
1:27intense to edit. Like I think my last
1:29video, there was like over 3 hours of
1:32raw footage. And then I cut it down to
1:33like a 40-minute video, but yeah, this
1:35time I was like, you know, I think it's
1:37totally okay if I don't vlog a couple
1:39days. And also just because I've been
1:41very cognizant of the way I feel and
1:44just trying to keep my anxiety down,
1:47trying to like move a little bit slower,
1:50like which it's so funny because people
1:52have been telling me to drink less
1:54caffeine in the comments and I am
1:56listening because I've only been
1:58drinking one caffeinated drink a day.
2:00So, I've been doing really good. In
2:01fact, the other morning, I started the
2:03day with a decaf, which is like so brave
2:05and strong of me, and it actually
2:07worked. Like, I think it like scratched
2:08the itch of like drinking coffee first
2:10thing in the morning. It's just so
2:12pretty right now. Oh my god, look at
2:13this. Like, I just feel like I'm in the
2:15woods a little bit. But, okay, yeah.
2:17What's going on today? Because I
2:19actually did not write this morning. I
2:21haven't been writing probably over for
2:24the the past like 10 days or something
2:26because I've been busy with work, and
2:29then my priority right now is to prepare
2:32for
2:34a live podcast recording tomorrow, which
2:36we've never done a live podcast
2:38recording. It's at the biggest Barnes &
2:41Noble in the world, Barnes & Noble Union
2:42Square, and it's with Sara A. Parker for
2:45the sequel to When the Moon Hatches,
2:46which is called The Ballad of Fallen
2:48Dragons. So, I've just been doing
2:50everything I can to prepare for the
2:52podcast just cuz I want to be extra
2:53prepared because it's in front of a live
2:55audience, and surprisingly, I'm not
2:57nervous at all. Like, I am actually so
3:00excited for it, but that doesn't mean
3:02that preparation doesn't help me feel
3:05more excited. So, that has been my
3:07priority on top of work, gym, and my
3:10regular stuff lately. So, today I am
3:13going to go meet my team at Union
3:16Square, actually. We're going to go film
3:19some content for work, which is fun. I'm
3:21not starting my day in the office, but
3:23after that, we're going to head into the
3:24office. And, gosh, I can't even remember
3:26what's on my the rest of my schedule
3:28today, but that's okay. One step at a
3:30time.
4:07>> Can you see my glazed donut face like
4:09how hot it is right now? I got a half
4:12calf iced espresso and I was going to
4:14hang out and prat and get some work done
4:16before everyone meets up, but I don't
4:19think the AC was on in there and it was
4:22like oh my god it was sweltering and oh
4:23god guys, I don't know if I'm ready for
4:25for summer, but I also got a banana that
4:28I'm going to eat right now and I got
4:29more water. I already finished the water
4:31that I took with me out of the house,
4:33which is good news. We're drinking
4:34water. So, I'm just going to sit here
4:37and
4:38enjoy my half caffeinated espresso and
4:42oh, I also brought a fan from Cammy's
4:44birthday. What
4:46It's actually so oh my god, wait.
4:49It's literally a game changer.
5:03Feels nice in here. They have AC. Okay,
5:05so this is where we're going to be
5:07tomorrow for the live podcast. We have
5:10to go up to the fourth floor, which is
5:12where they do events. POV, you're coming
5:14to the event tomorrow night. Okay, we
5:17can come around here and then this is
5:20where the event will be. So exciting.
5:22Crazy. So exciting. So fun. I do kind of
5:26want to go find a place to sit down
5:29before everyone else gets here. Can't
5:31believe you guys, I was so early today.
5:34Did I turn into an early person? Have I
5:36done it? I might have done it guys. Like
5:38maybe I'm the early person now. Wow, and
5:41that's on self growth.
5:43>> A day in the park. [laughter]
5:44>> That's a day in the park.
5:45>> I love of the park.
5:46>> I'm sweaty.
5:47They're modeling over there. Do you want
5:49to be in the vlog?
5:50Do you know? How many people get
5:52recommended your vlogs? I'm getting
5:54Avery in a video. Also, we're in front
5:55of Rizzoli's right now. My fabulous
5:57ladies.
5:58>> [music]
6:14[music]
6:39>> Okay, guys. Back in the little quiet
6:41conference room because I need to focus.
6:44I have a little presentation tomorrow,
6:46so I want to practice it out loud in
6:48here and I want to record it in my voice
6:50memo app so that I can like listen to it
6:52back over and over just like while I'm
6:54doing stuff cuz then I feel like it
6:56really imprints in my head. Also, my
6:58friend Abby brought this back from Japan
7:01for me, which is so sweet of her. Thank
7:02you, Abby. And this is the first time
7:04I'm using it. All right, what do we have
7:05going on here? We have laptop, notebook.
7:08Except I got It was so nice and clean.
7:10They're my favorite notebooks from Muji,
7:12but I got my fingerprints all over after
7:15I put lotion on, so now it looks gross,
7:16but look, I got a little snack, a little
7:18focus snack, the Reese's Pieces I've
7:20been wanting, and a little cheddar whale
7:22cracker. Okay, we're ready. What am I
7:24doing right now? Okay, I have less than
7:25an hour. I'm going to do a little
7:27voiceover thing practicing the
7:28presentation. Need to edit some videos.
7:31I don't know if all of this can be done
7:33in an hour. I meant to get down here
7:34like 40 min
7:36Sorry, not to be dramatic. Is this chair
7:38taller?
7:39I feel like this chair is so tall. The
7:41other chair in the other room I was
7:43using last week, literally I was so
7:45short like the table was up here. Now
7:46I'm like, "Oh Jesus." Okay, all right,
7:48not to be dramatic. Also, I thought
7:50about getting more coffee, but I'm being
7:51so good. I filled this whole thing up
7:53with water and my goal is to at least
7:55finish that and possibly more before I
7:57leave today. Okay, I'm going to lock in.
7:58I need a little snack. Also, this is my
8:00video. So pretty. This is so funny. This
8:02must have just accidentally gotten in my
8:03notebook. We used this for a video shoot
8:05about micro tropes. It's like when he
8:07runs a hand through his hair when he's
8:09flustered by her.
8:10>> Yeah, I like that.
8:15>> Okay, I locked in so hard. I locked in
8:18so hard, guys. I'm really, really proud
8:19of myself. I focused and now I have to
8:21run to a meeting, so I got like almost
8:24more done than I needed to get done.
8:42>> [music]
8:43>> Okay, guys, I was going to stay late at
8:45the office, but then I decided I was
8:48like, you know, could go finish work at
8:51home with like
8:53fun treats and stuff. And then I was
8:54like, done. Laptop shut, me on the train
8:58home. And it's really hot outside. I'm
9:01like low-key wilting. It's like it was
9:03like 95 or something when I was walking
9:05home. First thing I did when I walked
9:07through the door is I was like, I feel
9:09so sticky. I have to take a shower. Took
9:12a cold shower and had a little snack.
9:15And now I got a fun drink
9:18to do little productive work stuff. Like
9:21suddenly I feel like your to-do list
9:23feels fun when you have like a little
9:25fun drink. So I got a little Bloom Pop.
9:28This is the caffeine-free kind. Cuz you
9:30guys know about the caffeine situation.
9:32So anyway, this one's strawberry cream.
9:34I've had one other
9:35one or two other flavors and they're so
9:37yummy. They're like solid kind of tense.
9:39So, we're going to try this one. Then, I
9:41also got I already dug into it. What is
9:44this brand again? I got this brand.
9:45Lesser Evil. And I got the organic
9:47cheddar flavor. I don't normally get
9:49that flavor, but I was like, "Hey, I'm
9:51feeling a little crazy tonight." So,
9:53yeah. Also, there's like severe
9:55thunderstorm warnings right now, and I
9:57love a thunderstorm. And this does feel
10:00like the weather of a summer
10:02thunderstorm just cuz it's like it's so
10:04hot. so sunny all day. I was like, "How
10:06did it How is it supposed to rain
10:08today?" Like it's been like gorgeous
10:09blue skies. And then as soon as I got
10:11home, I feel like the skies darkened,
10:13and now it's like very dark outside. So,
10:15like kind of fun vibey weather to just
10:17vibe at my desk. Ice is ready. Little
10:21taste test.
10:26Yeah, that's so good. Oh my god. It
10:28tastes like a little strawberries and
10:29cream cake, but in little carbonated
10:31form. Like I feel like if you're not a
10:32sweet drink person, this is
10:34this one's not for you, and that's okay
10:37because it's for me. All right. I'm
10:38going to do like that much. And then,
10:41I'm going to save the rest of it for if
10:43I watch Summer House tonight with my
10:46roommates because it's the last episode
10:48that's coming out. Yeah, I've got AC
10:50like full blast right now. Also, okay,
10:53there's just like there's a lot going on
10:55in life, and like I just have this huge
10:57pile of things I need to deal with in my
11:00room because I meant to donate them like
11:03two nights ago cuz I've been getting rid
11:05of stuff because I currently have
11:07furniture waiting downstairs
11:09disassembled that I need to carry up the
11:11stairs. And so, I've been getting rid of
11:13stuff to make room for that. But, the
11:15thrift store has been closed whenever
11:17I've been available to go drop stuff
11:19off. And then, there's books I have to
11:22take on a trip next week for work.
11:23There's workbooks here. This This is my
11:25new bedding that I need to go wash. I'm
11:27not going to have time to do any of this
11:28until Friday, which is It's fine. But,
11:31the result is that my room's messy. And
11:34that's okay because I'm just like busy
11:36girl right now. Okay, what am I doing? I
11:38already came home, did one of the things
11:39on my to-do list. There's like for sure
11:41one, possibly two other things I would
11:44like to do tonight, but I don't know if
11:45it will happen for sure. I have to do
11:47the first one. Oh, and then of course I
11:48want to do more prep for the podcast
11:51tomorrow. And I'm so excited. We had a
11:53call with the team today and everything
11:55is ready, everything's squared away, and
11:57I'm just so excited. So, yeah, but
11:59obviously I feel like even if I had to
12:01go walk on and do it right now, like it
12:03would be totally fine, but I just I love
12:07preparation in these kinds of
12:08situations. Hopefully the AC isn't too
12:10loud, and if you can hear it, hopefully
12:12it's just like ASMR. New York City in
12:14the summertime. Okay, I'm going to log
12:16in, drink my fun drink, maybe put on a
12:18little lo-fi, little jazz. See, I think
12:20little productive things are so fun when
12:22you dress them up. You know what I mean?
12:24Like it's a whole thing. I tidied my
12:25room the best I can. I'm in comfy
12:27clothes. Like I'm so ready to log in
12:30right now. It's about to start
12:31thunderstorming.
12:32Like say less. Like I'm having fun right
12:35now, you guys. Okay.
12:37I'm going to go then. Okay, bye. Wait, I
12:38paused. Number one, like am I
12:41procrastinating a little bit, but also
12:43because I got my early voting This isn't
12:47my ballot, right? No, this is just
12:49information on the primaries coming up.
12:52And so, this is your sign not only if
12:54you live in New York, if you live in the
12:56US, wherever you live, wherever you
12:58live, if you can vote, you should
13:00register to vote. And primaries are
13:03actually so huge, okay? Like I think
13:06people most often they'll only vote in a
13:09general election with like the
13:10presidential election or something. So
13:12much important stuff comes down to the
13:14people that you're electing during
13:16primaries. I know that there's like a
13:17lot of like what is the word? Apathy
13:19almost when it comes to voting because
13:21it's like, "Okay, well, what is that
13:23going to do?" And you know, I'm right
13:26there with you. I but I am very very
13:27passionate about voting because number
13:30one, voting is a huge privilege. Number
13:32two, I think that it is the greatest
13:35civic duty that you can do with the
13:37least amount of effort, okay? So,
13:38there's my two cents on it. And all it
13:41takes is just like a little bit of
13:42Googling, a little bit of TikTok
13:44searching, the candidates that are on
13:46your ballot and the issues that are
13:47there. And you don't have to spend a lot
13:49of time with it. Get a little fun drink,
13:51fill out your ballot, go register to
13:52vote. Anyway, I'm going to put something
13:54on screen for you to go register to vote
13:56if you're not already. And if you're in
13:57the US, vote in the primaries, people.
13:59This is Now, do I sound like an old
14:01person, but I think not voting means
14:03that, you know, we're just rolling over.
14:05We can't do that, guys. We got to vote.
14:07Okay, anyway, like look, I have my
14:08voting stickers of pride for Zoran,
14:11okay? I'm going to just keep adding my
14:13little voting stickers that I'm so proud
14:15of. So, anyway, guys, go register to
14:18vote and do your civic duty. And it's
14:20just like such a small, quick part of
14:22your day that at a big scale can
14:25literally change everything. So, anyway,
14:27okay.
14:33>> [music]
14:34>> How many exclamation points can I do
14:36before it's weird?
14:39I just switched to exclamation points. I
14:41turned one into a period, one into an
14:42exclamation point. Like
14:48Okay, good morning. Happy Thursday and
14:51happy I don't even know what to call
14:52today. Big day. Happy big day. Podcast,
14:55live podcast is tonight. My
14:57presentations today and I feel good.
14:59This is so my kind of weather today.
15:01Honestly, it's so much cooler than it
15:03was yesterday. Thank goodness. It's in
15:05like the low 60s right now and it just
15:07feels so nice and refreshing. And
15:09something I've noticed about my morning
15:12walks is that the air feels like
15:14vacation air, if that makes sense. Like,
15:17you know when you go on vacation and
15:19like the air feels different when you
15:20wake up. There's just like a crispness
15:23to the air, it smells like adventure,
15:25like there's a lingering scent of
15:26coffee. That's what my morning walks
15:28feel like, so that's why I've been
15:30loving them cuz I'm like, "Oh my god, I
15:31feel like I'm on vacation." And I know
15:33I'm very lucky because my walks are in
15:35Central Park. So, don't get me wrong, I
15:37know I'm very privileged that but
15:39there's just something about a morning
15:41walk, you guys. Oh my god. Although, I'm
15:43not going to lie, I almost didn't make
15:44it out today. I am like way later than I
15:47would normally want to. I slept in a
15:48little and then I already did my hair
15:51and my skin care so that my roommate
15:53could use the bathroom. So, I meditated
15:55this morning, had a good meditation, and
15:57then I also did my morning affirmations,
16:00which are my public speaking
16:02affirmations. I know I said this in the
16:04past video, but okay, my affirmations
16:06are number one, I always know the right
16:08thing to say, I'm so funny, I'm so
16:10charismatic. And then, another one that
16:12I didn't mention before, that I kind of
16:15forgot about, I got this from a a Wizard
16:18Liz, like one of her affirmation videos,
16:20which I love so much and highly
16:22recommend. And honestly, I think about
16:24this one like all the time if I'm ever
16:26nervous to do something in front of
16:28anyone is that
16:30I'm only here to impress myself. And
16:32when you think about it, that like kind
16:33of applies to like all of your life cuz
16:35like you're actually not here to impress
16:37anyone else. [laughter]
16:39You don't leave this world with anyone
16:40else except yourself. So, my favorite
16:42and least favorite shoes in the world,
16:44they're my Adidas May Ballet Taekwondo
16:47ballet flats. That's a mouthful. They're
16:49so cute, but at what cost? They
16:52literally I don't wear them enough
16:53because they take so long to put on. So,
16:55like eight to 10 business days I'll be
16:57tying these shoes. All right, shoe
16:58number one. This is done. Shoe number
17:01two. Oh my god.
17:02Like, I'm not going to lie, I actually
17:04was going to list these on Depop and
17:06then literally for this event, I was
17:09like, "What What shoes am I going to
17:11wear?" And I was like, "Oh, my silver
17:12ballet flats would be really, really
17:14cute." Hopefully, they don't come untied
17:16cuz that's also part of the problem.
17:18All right, so here's the situation.
17:21Here's the outfit today. Also, I was
17:23going to try to tidy my room so I could
17:25take this clip and I'm like this is not
17:26the week and that's okay. This is just
17:28how life is sometimes. So I'm being
17:30authentic. We've got all of my stuff. I
17:33feel like a little trash gremlin in my
17:34room right now. [laughter] That's okay.
17:36Okay, so here's the situation. Michelle
17:38and I coordinated on what to wear
17:40because normally we wear pajamas on the
17:42podcast, but this time we're not wearing
17:45PJs and Michelle said she was going to
17:47wear black, a black skirt or black
17:49dress. So I was like hey, I'll do the
17:50same. So it's a very simple. I did my
17:53really chunky charm necklace and I added
17:55more charms on it and it's kind of a lot
17:57but like especially for an office but
17:59I'm like the rest of my outfit is like
18:02really simple. So I wanted to spice it
18:05up with that. Okay, it's time to go. Hey
18:07guys, I'm walking my favorite conference
18:09room because guess what? I need to
18:11focus. Okay, I'm not going to slam my
18:13knee into the wall again. So but I have
18:15goodies. My I did get a hot coffee to go
18:18with my lemon poppy seed muffin that I
18:20got and I'm so excited. The amount of
18:23joy that coffee and a pastry bring me
18:25just like it's like unexplainable. I got
18:27this book for my co-worker to make a Tik
18:29Tok about it and then I also got this
18:31sweatshirt we're going to wear tonight.
18:33Moon Moon Beam. Oh my god, it's so cute.
18:35So and then I brought my whole bag and
18:37wrote out my to do list because yes, my
18:40goal today is to have fun but also my
18:42goal today is to stay focused.
18:46Yeah, I'm here with my angel Michelle.
18:48Are you so ready to cook today?
18:50>> Let's go.
18:50>> Ah, we're so ready. If I know literally
18:53I'm like taking a deep breath. It has
18:55been such a whirlwind of a day but like
18:57everything's gone smoothly. It's just
18:58been like back to back to back. No time
19:00to breathe but I can breathe now and
19:02we're home guys. Mama's home.
19:05These people aren't here for the event,
19:06are they?
19:07People are already lining up and it
19:09doesn't start for like two and a half
19:11hours. Oh my god. Crazy. Smells so good.
19:14We're going all the way up. Oh wow.
19:16Wait, it's even bigger. The chairs grew
19:19from yesterday. Moment for the Book Was
19:21Hotter.
19:24That's where we're going to sit.
19:25Although I'm realizing I'm like low-key
19:27like that. I'm like, should she sit in
19:29the middle?
19:30I'm like cuz
19:33Okay.
19:35That's great.
19:44Hello. Hello.
19:45>> That's great.
19:46>> Thank you.
19:49>> Wow, she's so pretty.
19:51>> Do you think we should do bathroom and
19:53makeup first or second? First? Okay.
19:56>> Once we're in the green room, maybe like
19:58it's go
19:58>> Then we're locked in. You're so right.
20:00You're so right. Okay, pee and makeup.
20:01>> Pee and makeup.
20:02>> New York Times and New York Times
20:04best-selling author Sarah A. Parker and
20:06host of the Book Was Hotter podcast
20:08Raiza and Michelle.
20:14>> [music]
20:17>> First marketing for you.
20:19>> I have been writing since I was very
20:21[music]
20:22small.
20:23Um if not always putting things to
20:24paper, but writing stories in my mind.
20:26So,
20:27>> [music]
20:27>> it's how I actually put myself to sleep
20:29at night.
20:30>> Thank you.
20:31Oh my god, I'm so proud of you.
20:32>> Oh, I'm so proud of you.
20:34>> We did it. We're in the green room,
20:35guys.
20:37>> Green room at the war.
20:38>> We survived and everything was There was
20:40nothing that I felt like silly about or
20:43anything.
20:43>> No.
20:44People laughed.
20:45>> People laughed. We got people laugh
20:46occasionally, guys.
20:48100 people laughed. Oh my god. And now I
20:50have I'm carrying this big thing of
20:52stuff home. So.
20:54Yay. Okay, happy Friday. I'm starting
20:56the vlog from the office today because
21:00basically, okay, I'm going to do a full
21:02recap later, I think, when I'm at home,
21:04but
21:05basically, yesterday, literally, I left
21:08my desk kind of in shambles and I was
21:10like going to try not to come into the
21:12office today but there's still other
21:13stuff I need to do because I will be I
21:15won't be coming into the office next
21:17week. So, yeah, there's just like a
21:19bunch of admin stuff that I need to do.
21:20Basically, I was going to vlog more this
21:22morning but I have a headache
21:25unsurprisingly. It's It's gone away for
21:27the most part but this time it's not a
21:29mystery why. It's because I got very
21:31little sleep last night and
21:34I think I was also a little dehydrated
21:36and then I also cried this morning. I
21:38feel like I always have a cry hangover
21:40and I cried because I'm
21:43just like so thankful for my life and
21:45every and yesterday just like went so
21:47smoothly. I was going to talk about this
21:48later but I guess it's coming out right
21:50now. But basically, okay, I'm not going
21:51to go too far into it just because I'm
21:53at the office and I need to like do work
21:55but I don't know. I just like I'm so
21:56thankful everything yesterday went like
21:58more than smoothly and I just feel so
22:02supported by so many people and like my
22:04friends and co-workers and just like the
22:06whole wide universe, guys. I just feel
22:08so supported.
22:10So, that's why I'm like a little bit
22:11moving a little slow today.
22:13I need to do. Okay, I'm going to try to
22:15get stuff done quickly today. I'm going
22:17to walk in but I do we need a have a
22:19full debrief
22:21later.
22:22>> [music]
22:31[music]
22:34>> Before I leave, maybe we should say bye
22:36to all of the Warners. This is so funny
22:38because we ordered extra but Okay, well,
22:41first of all,
22:42we have Juliet and Rosa, James, and then
22:46Warner, Warner, Warner.
22:48Is this not so funny?
22:51Okay, mini update. I came home. I baked
22:54sweet potatoes and also green beans. So,
22:59did a mini meal prep, okay. Watched Off
23:01Campus. I was horizontal for a little
23:04bit. I really needed some lay down time.
23:06And I was like, I don't think today is
23:10the day to go to the gym. Like I want to
23:11go, but I actually think that I would
23:13get a really bad headache if I went. So,
23:16I'm not going to go, but I'm going to go
23:17run errands instead. I'm going to go
23:20donate at the thrift store. And I have
23:22to take another one tomorrow. I'm going
23:24to go get my nails done because I can't
23:27I don't know if you can see, but I cut
23:28them all down today because they were
23:30all just breaking off. Sorry guys, I
23:32feel like I'm like low-key running on
23:34fumes right now. And I really meant to
23:36like pick up the camera so many times
23:38earlier today, and then I was like,
23:39honestly, I don't have it in me right
23:41now. And when I started this vlogging
23:44journey, cuz this is not my first
23:46vlogging journey, I'm like, no, no, no,
23:48I have to make this sustainable compared
23:51to the past times that I vlogged. And
23:52that means that if I don't feel like
23:54vlogging, I'm not going to do it, and
23:56I'm not going to feel bad about it just
23:58because then it makes me feel recharged
24:00and excited for when I do have the
24:01energy to talk to the camera again. So,
24:03anyway, this is my errands outfit. This
24:05is my outfit earlier today, too. We got
24:08my new favorite flats, okay? Can you
24:11see? Sorry guys, I hope you can see
24:12this. I can't see the screen. And I have
24:14to put it back. It's okay. I'm going to
24:16go get stuff done. And I need to grocery
24:17shop. So, yeah, I'll be back in a few
24:19hours, okay?
24:29All right, rainy laundry day outfit.
24:32Bag, trash, lots of recycling. And I
24:34have to triple check I have my keys cuz
24:36my roommates aren't here, so that would
24:37be bad. Okay, I have them in my pocket.
24:40Okay, let's go. [snorts] Guys, I just
24:41want to fall down the stairs. Hang this
24:43because my vanity got here. This is the
24:44reality. I had Wait, I got to take this
24:46off.
24:47Okay, maybe I'm like, maybe I don't go
24:49to the gym today. My vanity arrived. I
24:51live in an upper floor of a walk-up with
24:53no elevator, which means cheap rent, but
24:55it means stuff like this like a pain in
24:58the ass.
24:58But, you know what? I am low-key the
25:01strongest, most capable healthy person I
25:03know. So, like I kind of am suited to do
25:05the job, but you kind of got to get
25:07creative
25:08with stuff like this. So,
25:10dropped my laundry off, using the same
25:13bag to carry up all the pieces of
25:15furniture. So, currently downstairs,
25:18it's like fully disassembled from the
25:20box, and I'm just carrying it up piece
25:22by piece as much as I can. Okay, so I'll
25:24see you and then I'm just going to go
25:25get more so my super doesn't kill me. We
25:28can do hard things, everybody. I'm very
25:31lucky that my body is capable of doing
25:33this, but it would be nice if I didn't
25:35have a headache. I get a lot of
25:37headaches, but the last few nights have
25:39not been sleeping well, and I think
25:40that's a really big part of it. So, I've
25:43not been sleeping, which is okay.
25:44Sometimes it just happens, but yeah,
25:46[sighs] like oh my god, my head.
25:48Low-key, dude. This is why I didn't do
25:49it yesterday cuz my head was really bad.
25:52Also, I got my nails done. Oh my god,
25:53nail check. I got very short natural
25:55red. I was going to show you later, but
25:57I'm like, I guess we're showing it right
25:58now. Oh my god, I'm like shaking
25:59low-key. I did scratch You can't even
26:01see it. You can't see it. It's fine. I
26:03did scratch my thumb a little bit, but
26:06super pretty color. This is OPI Dutch
26:09Tulip. Is this Dutch Yeah, OPI Dutch
26:12Tulip. And then I got matching color on
26:14my toes. I like it a lot. I think
26:15they're very cute. Okay.
26:18And so what if they're a little
26:19scratched from the furniture? But, it's
26:21kind of a bummer. Maybe I can go over it
26:22with like a clear coat again. Maybe
26:24that'll help. I don't know. All right,
26:25I'm going to keep going. Wait, woman in
26:27stem. I'm using my House Moving Castle
26:30washy tape to tape my nails. Is this
26:33psychotic? No. At least Okay, the reason
26:36why I didn't This is so funny, dude.
26:38This is so funny. But, okay, the reason
26:41that I couldn't wait another day to do
26:43my nails after I was trying to say after
26:46I did the furniture stuff is because
26:47Okay, my nails were so long and so
26:49brittle that they were just breaking at
26:51anything, and I would rather like I
26:53don't
26:54not to be gross, but like I feel like
26:56they would like this freaks me out, but
26:57like bend backwards or something. Like
26:59my nails are truly so brittle, guys,
27:01that I was like I actually think it's
27:03better that I have like short new nails
27:06rather than long brittle nails that are
27:07already breaking to do the furniture
27:09just so nothing gets like hurt hurt. Are
27:11these Maybe I should have taped all
27:13around. Oh, no, they're coming undone.
27:14But this washi tape is super cute. I
27:17can't even Where did I get this? Now I
27:18can't remember. I do think it was Oh my
27:20god, wait. Did I get it
27:22at the Studio Ghibli exhibit in Japan?
27:24Is that where I got it? Cuz I did go to
27:26the
27:28Studio Ghibli museum or whatever it is
27:30in Tokyo,
27:32which was like a spiritual experience,
27:34honestly. Okay. All right. I have the
27:36power of Howl's Moving Castle with me
27:38right now. If my neighbors see me,
27:39they're going to be like, "God, there
27:41goes that crazy girl again." New Annie
27:42just dropped, guys. Okay, now I'm really
27:44going. Got an extra bag. Okay.
27:47I just did the last
27:49laundry.
27:53And okay, wait, the most New York thing
27:54happened. I was going to buy a mirror,
27:57but I was like, "I'm going to save that
27:58for next month so I'm not going crazy
28:02on the finances." And then I was walking
28:04back from the laundromat, and look what
28:07I found in the trash. This happens a lot
28:10in New York. So I think it's called
28:12stooping.
28:13>> [gasps]
28:13>> Basically, people will just like leave
28:14stuff outside if they don't want it. You
28:16pick it up. I've gotten like
28:18books and stuff in the past, and the one
28:20thing is you want to be mindful of
28:23possible bed bugs. So you just want to
28:25do a sweep of it um and any like
28:27crevices, make sure there's no bed bugs.
28:29But I got a mirror. It's really dirty,
28:32but you're going to see the vision,
28:33okay?
28:35I Look, the universe just gave me a
28:36mirror, guys. Free mirror just dropped.
28:39Yeah, the universe is really like,
28:40"There you go, baby." What a fun day,
28:42guys. You know, I did say when I woke
28:44up, cuz I I a headache, I was like, "Oh,
28:45fuck." But then I was like, what if this
28:47is the best day ever? It could be.
28:49Totally possibility.
28:50The best day ever would get even better
28:53if I didn't have a headache though.
28:56Done. [snorts] I might do one more
28:57little sweep of it, but
29:00Look at her.
29:03She found a new home. I did want like a
29:06really really big mirror, so I still
29:07might get one in the future, but like
29:09right now,
29:10this is good and within budget.
29:13Which is very just a little [laughter]
29:14bit of a little bit of elbow grease. All
29:17right, so there's a big mess going on in
29:19my apartment. Like I said, my roommates
29:21are gone this weekend, which is very
29:23nice. So I'm going to do that later. I
29:24think I'm going to assemble it later
29:26this evening cuz it's going to be rainy
29:28for the rest of the day. So I'm just
29:29going to make a little quick breakfast.
29:31And since I'm leaving town on Tuesday, I
29:33kind of did just like a weird grocery
29:35shop yesterday cuz I was like, don't
29:37have my full spread of stuff because I
29:39don't think I could eat it all before I
29:40go. So, I don't really know what I'm
29:42putting together, but oh. Hello. I'm
29:45doing some kind of savory high-protein
29:48breakfast, of course. Should I turn on
29:50the light? Why am I talking to y'all in
29:51the dark? Sorry. I don't want to turn on
29:52the overhead light cuz it will ruin the
29:54vibes. But, this is what I'm envisioning
29:57for a little breaky. I got these organic
29:59chicken sausages. I do like this brand.
30:02These are yummy and they have really
30:04good macros. And then I'm just going to
30:06do Normally I would like spinach, but
30:09this is I only have arugula for like a
30:10leafy green. But, I think I'm going to
30:12do a little like sauteed arugula. I
30:15don't know if that's violating any What
30:16is it? Like cooking rules, but I don't
30:19care. I just want some sauteed greens
30:20and then egg whites because I don't have
30:23regular eggs cuz I finished those. And
30:25some parmesan. It's like grated
30:26parmesan. That will be the little
30:28finishing touch. And cheese, sour cream.
30:30And then I also have sourdough. I can
30:32put this all on toast. Oh my god, this
30:34is going to be gorgeous, I think
30:36actually. But, the problem is I have to
30:38turn on the air fryer right here, so
30:39it's going to be really loud. So, can
30:40>> Can see this okay? Just focusing. Okay,
30:42this is a plum. I got a ton of plums
30:45that are so good. Plums and apricots
30:47right now. Oh my god, you guys, they're
30:48so good. They're I think Are they in
30:50season right now? These are the only
30:51supplements I'm taking because my blood
30:54test this year said that she was like,
30:57"Girl, it's pretty evident you don't go
30:58out in the sun because your vitamin D
31:00levels are like non-existent." So,
31:02that's the only supplement I take, and
31:04then I take vitamin K with it because
31:06one time my dad said that you take them
31:08together to make them more effective.
31:10I've never googled it.
31:12Oh, all this is probably I want to say
31:14it's around 45-50 g of protein. So.
31:28I should have done it the other way, I
31:29think. Like
31:31Wait, I do need to do it the other way.
31:33Okay. Come on, baby. You can do it.
31:36>> Wait. Oh my god, wait. Wait.
31:37>> I think it worked.
31:38>> Wait, where is the corner?
31:40>> Wow, I think I'm a changed woman. Okay,
31:42hold on. Tiny bit of makeup, freshened
31:44up a tiny bit. I'm going to go run
31:46errands. This is the most errands
31:48errands I've ever had to do because
31:50number one, I have to go make copies of
31:52my apartment key, key copies for my
31:55super. Also, I I love this is just you
31:58know, this is the vibes of the apartment
32:00for like the whole weekend. I needed
32:02drop something off the post office, and
32:04then I'm going to go to the Gap, and
32:06then I just ran out of face wash, so I
32:07need to go to Sephora. I found this the
32:09other day and in my like storage stuff,
32:12I got this in Nara in Japan. It's I
32:16swear it, this little thing is like one
32:18of the most beautiful things I own. I
32:20love this thing. I love tote bags, but I
32:22had to stop myself from buying more
32:24because I have so many. I For so long, I
32:26didn't want to use it because I loved it
32:29so much, and then
32:31I was like, "What am I doing? Why do I
32:33have it if I'm not using it?" I just
32:34want I'm going right now. I have my
32:36little Naruto and I've a good playlist.
32:39Okay, let's go.
32:41Let's go, baby.
32:51You guys, I just dropped this camera on
32:54the rainy sidewalk so hard and it took
32:57it like a champ. I'm like, "Oh my god."
32:58I had a little heart attack, but she's
33:00she's fine. She is a little scratched
33:03up, but like she's literally driving
33:05right now and I just love her. She's
33:07working so hard for me.
33:24>> [music]
33:34>> Okay, all right. We're having a good
33:36sit. I have a little coffee. I was going
33:38to sit down to talk about the podcast on
33:41Friday or even like Thursday night.
33:43Okay, so basically what happened, the
33:44podcast went so well, like the live
33:47filming. Like Michelle crushed it. Sarah
33:49is an absolute angel. Hold on. I'm
33:51getting hot. Let me take this off. Sarah
33:53is just like the sweetest human being.
33:56She's like a fairy in real life. Like
33:59just the sweetest person and she made it
34:02really easy, too. But yeah, I just I
34:05literally felt so overcome with
34:08gratitude on Friday because so many
34:11people like showed up to support us from
34:15work and then also like my roommate came
34:17and my friend Kimmie came and I just
34:18like not only
34:21for like the podcast in particular, but
34:22just like literally my entire life and
34:25also the support I've been getting on
34:27YouTube has just been really, really I I
34:30even know the words for it. People have
34:32been leaving the sweetest comments and
34:33DMs for me just basically saying that
34:36like not only like that they're enjoying
34:38my content, but so many people are
34:40saying that it's like impacting the way
34:42that they look at the world positively,
34:44which is like that is so [ __ ] huge
34:47and foundational and I just like
34:51it sounds so silly me even saying it out
34:53loud, but I'm like I've just been
34:54screenshotting constantly just like the
34:56kindest comments and DMs. I don't know,
34:57it just like it means so much to me and
34:59I'm doing my best to describe it.
35:01Anyway, I thought I would do a haul. So,
35:04piggybacking off of just feeling so
35:07abundant and grateful. The first thing I
35:10wanted to do in this little
35:11haul/unboxing that I'm going to do where
35:13is actually Okay, first of all, Cammy
35:16brought Michelle and me both gifts after
35:18the podcast, which I thought was
35:20literally the sweetest thing ever. She
35:22brought me mate, which I was just saying
35:24that I wanted to read it, so she got it
35:25for me and she got me this beautiful
35:28bookmark with it. That was the first
35:30first thing in my goodies haul. So, Old
35:32Navy had a crazy Memorial Day sale. I
35:34need to find summer clothes ASAP that I
35:37can wear and not be sent off into like
35:40psychosis if it gets really hot again
35:42and I ended up getting a lot of fun
35:44summer basics and by summer basics, I
35:47mean I basically got almost all
35:49t-shirts. First thing I got these yellow
35:51flip-flops. I got this little blue dress
35:54as like a swimsuit cover-up. Yeah, just
35:56very loose, very flowy. It was only $8,
35:59which is crazy. In fact, everything was
36:02like five to 10 Actually, I don't even
36:04think a single thing I bought was $10. I
36:06think everything was like literally five
36:08to $8. Okay, so after this, all I got is
36:11t-shirts. In fact, I'm wearing one right
36:13now. So, this is one of the t-shirts I
36:14got. I'm very picky about t-shirts and I
36:17realized a lot of my t-shirts just like
36:19fall kind of short, but like my low-rise
36:21pants, I need longer shirts. So, this is
36:24another cute one I got. Okay, just be
36:26ready. I'm just going to show you a ton
36:27of tees, okay? I got them in all of the
36:30colors that I liked because I only have
36:33really neutral T-shirts. So, okay, I got
36:35a pink, got kind of like a coral-y pink.
36:39I got a very bright red, cute bright
36:41red. I really like this color right now.
36:45This is also kind of like almost like a
36:47papaya orange. Okay, and then the rest
36:49of these are boat neck tees, which I
36:52love boat necks. I think that's like my
36:54favorite neckline just because they're
36:56just like slightly more elevated. I
36:58think these will be good for the office
37:00and just like slightly elevating a very
37:03simple basic outfit. This one was like
37:05my favorite. I love a little heather
37:07moment and it was not see-through, which
37:09I'm very picky about cuz I will not
37:11layer anything under a T-shirt. I'm
37:13like, if I have to wear another shirt
37:14under a T-shirt, what's the point? Cute
37:16yellow color, butter yellow. And then
37:19the last one is this lush, kind of like
37:21a pale blush pink. So, that's my Old
37:24Navy haul, very colorful, very fun. I'm
37:27excited that I have clothes that I will
37:29be excited to put on even when it's hot
37:31outside. So, anyway, Old Navy went
37:33crazy. Okay, so I got these bag charms
37:36at Sukoshi, which I love Sukoshi, cutest
37:40store. I remember they had a little bag
37:42charm section. So, this cute bag charm
37:45and then also this one. It has like a
37:47locket, a star, and a little key. And
37:49just like very pretty. And then I got a
37:51little bag charm from Gap. Got a little
37:54bear. Oh my god. I love a bear. I love a
37:56bear. And then I got this little like
37:59mini makeup pouch from Brandy because I
38:02got a very exciting package in the mail
38:05and I was like, I got some fun
38:07accessories to go with it. So,
38:08basically, I was talking about abundance
38:10and feeling very lucky. And Teddy Blake
38:13reached out to me and wanted to send me
38:15a bag, which is crazy. And I'm so
38:19thankful. I'm like, this is Okay, third
38:21PR box I've ever gotten. This is crazy,
38:23you guys. So, Teddy Blake sent me a bag,
38:25and I just want to say thank you, Teddy
38:26Blake. I would be lying if I said I
38:28didn't open this because the night I got
38:31home from the podcast with my roommate,
38:33we both saw this was here, and we were
38:35both too excited to not open it. And she
38:38was like, "Wait, I have to see it right
38:40now." So, we ended up already unboxing
38:42it, but I'm so I'm like I I boxed it
38:45back up again cuz we were so excited.
38:47But, ooh, I've never gotten a bag that
38:50comes in a bag like this. Like, this is
38:52crazy, you guys. Like, this is just for
38:54me making my silly little videos, and
38:56they send me a bag. You guys, is this
38:58not crazy? This is beautiful. Hold on, I
39:01want to take this off. You know, I
39:02really am luckiest girl in the world. I
39:04have never had like a big girl bag like
39:06this. So, new big girl bag just dropped.
39:10Oh,
39:10look at me and my my big girl bag with
39:12my big girl publishing job. Like, how
39:14did I get here? Like, I still feel like
39:16I'm a teenager, guys. How How did this
39:17happen? Okay, so it has a little
39:20slot you can open. And
39:22anyway, I love the like kind of slouchy
39:25tote. Okay, so, now I wanted to to do a
39:29little what's in my bag. So, okay, wait.
39:31Well, the first thing, what charms do I
39:33put on it? Do I do all three of them? Do
39:35that Do they go together? Oh my god,
39:37wait. Okay, yeah, maybe. We're just
39:39going to put these on. This one I will
39:41say, this one's really loud, and I kind
39:43of like it. I kind of like that it
39:44jingles. Like, everyone's going to hear
39:46me coming. They'll be like, "Hey, she's
39:48here." Wait, how cute.
39:50Okay, now we're going to do a little
39:52what's in my bag. Okay, so, this is
39:54pretty much what I have in my bag at all
39:56times. I have a wallet. This has some
39:59pockets, like a zippered pocket. Oh,
40:03hair card. Okay, so, wallet, glasses.
40:05Except my glasses are not in there right
40:07now. Oh, wait, they're right here.
40:09Glasses.
40:11I could also put them It has little
40:12pockets on the side. I'm like, I could
40:14put it in there.
40:15Little pocket moment. Water bottle. Put
40:18it on this side. Okay, you water bottle.
40:21Okay, AirPods. And then for lip
40:23products, the lip products I have right
40:25now in my bag are it's black honey
40:28SPF Aquaphor and then the Rhode lip tint
40:31and this one's the Lemon Tini flavor,
40:34which is a fun summer flavor. I'm going
40:36to put those in the little pocket. I
40:38have my big jingley keys. And then,
40:41okay, this little bag I got in Korea,
40:44but I wanted to get new bag. Basically,
40:47I cycle through bags a lot. So, I just
40:49have like all of my little items in this
40:52one bag and then I'll just throw it in
40:54between bags, whether it's my work bag,
40:55my purse. All right, we have my hand
40:57sanitizer. We have this lotion. I always
41:00have mini deodorant with me. This is the
41:02little perfume I keep with me. It's a
41:04rolling or like what? Rollerball
41:06perfume. It's Whatever this one is, it's
41:09supposed to be like a Santal 33 knockoff
41:11and it it really is such a nice like
41:14gender neutral like green scent. It's
41:17like one of my favorite scents ever.
41:19Tiger Balm because I use it for my
41:21headaches. I'd pen, ibuprofen except
41:24someone left a comment on one of my last
41:26videos and she was like, "Girl, my
41:27gastroenterologist said that ibuprofen
41:29hurts people's stomachs." And I one of
41:31my old roommates who worked in the
41:33medical field said the same thing, so
41:35I'm now switching to Tylenol. I always
41:37keep my almost empty skin care products
41:40that have like a couple uses left just
41:42as like a little emergency on the go
41:45like makeup fix. Another two more SPF
41:47chapsticks. You guys know I'm trying to
41:49be on my SPF chapstick game. Band-Aids
41:52and toothpicks. Everything you might
41:54need if you start your period. I have
41:57bobby pins and little rubber hair ties.
42:00This is so funny, it keeps going. A nail
42:02file. This one's like And then this is a
42:04little thing of dry shampoo, like
42:06powdered dry shampoo. I never use that,
42:08but what if I need it? Just in case.
42:10Anyway, it's so funny cuz my little
42:12sister calls it my big sister bag and
42:14it's so true because I'm like at any
42:17moment I probably have something that
42:19you need.
42:21Anyway, okay, final little bag
42:23decoration. Well, you guys I feel so
42:26lucky and so abundant. So, thank you so
42:29much Teddy Blake and also, you know
42:31what? Thank you Old Navy for the sale
42:33and thank you Cammy for the fun gifts
42:36and thank you universe for just blessing
42:39me endlessly every day. Okay, yay. Okay,
42:42now I need to go edit a vlog that's
42:43supposed to go up tomorrow. And then
42:46I forgot to do like a little bed reveal.
42:48I mean, this is like this is less ideal,
42:51I suppose, because I have like a big
42:53mess over there. This is the final
42:56bedding look. I feel like it turned out
42:59really cute. Anyway, I like the pink
43:01peeking through. I think it's so cute
43:03and it looks just like the Pinterest
43:05pictures that I've been dreaming of. So
43:06fun. I'm so lucky. Okay. Okay, I don't
43:09know what I was thinking cuz I was going
43:10to go to the gym and then I realized as
43:12I went to go get dressed I was like,
43:13"The gym is closed right now." Like I
43:15don't know why. Like everything's fine,
43:17but I do think I've just been a little
43:19bit scatterbrain today. You guys, I'm
43:21not kidding you when I say this is the
43:23emptiest I've ever seen Central Park.
43:25It's so pretty. You guys, look how
43:27lovely.
43:30Oh, wait. It's falling. Oh, no. It's
43:31falling, guys. I think I got to put this
43:33away so she doesn't get washed. I
43:34already dropped the port angel today.
43:36Guys, believe it or not, I have to do
43:37laundry again. I was planning on doing
43:39this on Monday and then I did the math
43:41in my head and I was like, "No, things
43:42won't have time to dry before I leave on
43:44Tuesday." So,
43:47round two and it's really rainy. I've
43:49been a busy girl. I haven't even washed
43:51my face yet today and it's like 4:00
43:53p.m. I need to go to the gym. I need to
43:54do laundry. I need to do everything in
43:56my whole life. But, I edited a whole
43:59video and uploaded it. So, and that was
44:01the most important thing of this
44:02weekend. And I also have not put the
44:04furniture thing together and I need to
44:05do that
44:07before my roommate gets home tomorrow.
44:08But at least I'm doing laundry today.
44:11So I don't have to do that tomorrow.
44:13Okay. Decided I'm going to the gym. I
44:15almost wasn't going to go and then I did
44:17my rule where I started listening to my
44:19gym playlist and I put on my gym clothes
44:21and I was like, "Fuck it. I want to go."
44:24I'm just like, you guys, there's so many
44:25things I need to do. I've I've not been
44:27chill for 1 second since today. I still
44:28haven't washed my face. I brushed
44:30[snorts] my teeth though, so that's
44:31good. The apartment is an explosion, but
44:34I did do What is this? Oh, little
44:36glasses. Okay, well, that's nice.
44:39Laundry is mostly done. I have to fold
44:41my dried clothes. So, we're making
44:44improvements. Yeah, I edited and
44:46uploaded a YouTube video, which took all
44:48day, and then laundry and now gym. And I
44:51don't have time to get my full workout
44:53in, so I might do like a mini back and
44:56biceps situation. I'm not really sure
44:58yet. We're going to improvise. And I
45:00don't have time to get cardio in, so I'm
45:01like I might do a walk at the end. I'm
45:03not really sure. It is raining, but I
45:05have my little Uniqlo like rain jacket
45:08on kind of. This is the gym fit. I tried
45:11to do I'm like, what is going to be best
45:13in the rain? I'm not doing a full
45:16workout, but then I'm like at least I'm
45:17going. Again, the consistency graphic.
45:19Today is one of the lower ones, but it
45:21could be empty, you know?
45:23Gosh, I feel so much better now that I'm
45:26here. I feel so much better.
45:31Everything's okay.
45:47You guys, New York is really outdoing
45:49herself right now. She's really outdoing
45:52herself. My god.
45:54Oh, it's so pretty out here. The weather
45:57is like crisp and like there's just like
45:59the lightest a sprinkling of rain and
46:01there's the Guggenheim and oh my god. I
46:04can't feel my toes. Guys, I really hate
46:06to admit that exercising really has the
46:08biggest impact on my mental health. But
46:11like okay, there's tons of fog, okay? So
46:13like I don't know if you can see some of
46:15the buildings in the distance are like
46:18crowded at the top. Do you know what I
46:20mean? I'm going to walk down Fifth Ave a
46:21bit and see if I can see any cool
46:24skyscrapers in the clouds that I can
46:26show you guys. But yeah, the city is
46:28just like really gorgeous right now. I'm
46:30glad I decided to Well, I mean, I do
46:34really need to make my furniture. It's
46:35still sitting completely disassembled at
46:38home. But I'm glad that I chose exercise
46:41because like I was thinking about it
46:43today and basically okay, I don't I'm
46:45not going to go super deep into this,
46:47but there have been a couple of people
46:49who have asked me. They're like, "Girl,
46:50how are you doing it all? Like how are
46:52you doing like a full-time 9-5 plus the
46:56gym plus YouTube plus like reading and
46:58writing on the side a little bit. I'm
47:00like, "I think I am trying to find that
47:04balance right now." And I think my
47:06sudden spike in my anxiety that hasn't
47:08come back in a few years to this degree
47:10is from me trying to balance it all. And
47:12it truly is like like an abundance of
47:15good amazing things. Like I really am
47:17like this is one of my affirmations I
47:19say. I say, "I am a dream person living
47:21in my dream reality." And every day that
47:23comes more and more true. And like I'm
47:26working my dream job. Like I'm the most
47:28active and healthy with like my body and
47:30my diet that I've ever been. I'm social
47:33as much as I can with friends and I'm
47:34surrounded by good friends and a good
47:36support system. And posting on YouTube
47:39like has been something that I've wanted
47:41to do for so long and so staying
47:43consistent with it is also part of this
47:45dream person that I want to be that I'm
47:48becoming that I am. Going to change it
47:50to present tense language. I am. But I'm
47:53trying to find a balance with all of it
47:56cuz I don't want to give any of it up.
47:57Do you know what I mean? But I think
47:59that I am starting to see I think my
48:01body is showing the signs of stress and
48:04trying to balance it all. I didn't even
48:05know where I was going with this,
48:07actually. But basically, cuz like on the
48:09weekends, like I feel like YouTube has
48:11become like a part-time job on the
48:13weekends, cuz it takes like at least
48:14half of my day to edit a video and just
48:17like the admin stuff that goes into it.
48:20And so, today I was like, "Okay, like my
48:23day went to YouTube." I was like, "Okay,
48:25I have a lot on my plate right now.
48:26Like, is there something that I have to
48:28give up?" I don't want to give up. But
48:29at the beginning of all of this, I was
48:31like, "I'm not going to let YouTube or
48:34my own writing come in the way of my
48:36health because in the past, when I've
48:38become super obsessive with my writing,
48:41which like don't get me wrong, it almost
48:43is this like euphoric place to be." I
48:46love that I'm having this conversation.
48:48Look Okay, look, we're at the Met now.
48:49Look how pretty. Wow, this is so
48:51gorgeous. So beautiful. I hope you're
48:53enjoying this as much as I am. And I
48:54don't know why I decided to whip out
48:56this whole conversation right now, but
48:58it's just been at the top of my mind,
48:59especially like today and this weekend,
49:01just because I'm like, "Oh my god, I
49:02really don't have any free time in a
49:04day." I'm trying to give my creative
49:07urges all of the
49:09attention that I can without letting it
49:11get in the way of my health because in
49:12the past, I've just basically ignored my
49:14health when it comes to like
49:16prioritizing like writing and my
49:18creative ventures. But my health is
49:19really important to me now. I think
49:21that's something that came out of my 20s
49:23is I did not really care about my health
49:25at all at the beginning of my 20s, and
49:27now that I'm ending my 20s, I'm like,
49:29"Health really is such a privilege, and
49:31it's like one of the greatest things
49:32that we can have." And so, I I want to
49:35do the best I can to keep my health up,
49:38if that makes sense. This is the pool
49:40where Percy Jackson fought in the
49:43opening scene of the Lightning Thief
49:45book. I don't think they ever did it in
49:46either of the adaptations.
49:48But anyway, I'll turn around here so you
49:50can see the Met in the background. I'm
49:51having so much fun with YouTube. I don't
49:53want to stop, but I'm like I have to
49:55find a way to find a sustainable and
49:58make it work for me. Today I was like,
50:00"Okay, well if I don't end up going to
50:01the gym, that means I'm prioritizing
50:03YouTube over my health." And I know
50:05sometimes there's just like too much on
50:06my plate and it's really not that deep
50:08if I don't go to the gym. You know what
50:09I mean? But I was like, "No, I want to
50:12do my best to still prioritize my health
50:15as much as I can even as I'm having so
50:18much fun with YouTube and becoming the
50:21person that I want to be and yada yada
50:22yada. But I guess something has to give
50:24and what gave is that I did not put
50:26together
50:28my furniture. So, that will be a tonight
50:30thing, but I do think that that will be
50:32like a cozy thing to do once I'm home
50:33whatever time I get home. I'm on a full
50:35side quest right now. I don't even know
50:37where I'm going. I was just like, "I'm
50:38going to go for a little walk right
50:40now." It's such a vibe. I can't like
50:42not. And I want to get my steps in.
50:43Anyway, guys, thank you for listening to
50:45this. This is all of my thoughts and
50:46just I guess expressing I think the root
50:50of my recent anxiousness and knowing
50:52that it's me trying to figure out how to
50:55do it all. I'm really having a really
50:57getting it all out right now. It's so
50:58funny cuz sometimes I'm like you cannot
50:59pay me to pick up a camera right now.
51:01And now at this moment you can't take it
51:03out of my hands. You can't shut me up.
51:05But basically, now we're going to cut to
51:06an aesthetic montage. Hope you enjoy.
51:19Guys, we're home. The apartment is an
51:21absolute explosion and I can blame no
51:23one but myself. But at least hey, the
51:26kitchen area and sink and dishes are
51:29clean. That's I feel like the most
51:30important part. But okay, what am I
51:32going to do? I'm going to make a yogurt
51:33bowl. Yogurt bowl. So, I've not been
51:35tracking my macros today, but I know I
51:38definitely have not
51:39eaten enough protein. So, I'm going to
51:41walk off campus and start assembling my
51:43vanity. It would be so
51:46cool if I could get the whole thing done
51:48tonight, but I did see a woman in the
51:51reviews say it took her like 5 hours 5
51:54hours to put together, which I'm not
51:55going to lie, this kind of stuff does
51:57not come naturally to me. Okay, so I
51:59have two types of vanilla protein
52:01powders right now. I don't like this
52:02one. I don't like this one. I love their
52:05chocolate one. I eat their chocolate one
52:07literally every single day. I literally
52:10and it also makes your hair and nails
52:12grow a lot. Like to the point where this
52:16is part of the reason I'm so hairy and I
52:17complain about it guys, literally
52:19because of the Vital Proteins collagen
52:22protein powder, specifically this one.
52:24So good. Highly recommend this as a
52:26chocolate protein powder. It's so
52:27delicious. I'm not as crazy about the
52:29vanilla one, I'm not going to lie. So
52:30then I have this vanilla one. I love
52:32this vanilla one, but I'm trying to use
52:34up the other one. I'm going to use this
52:35one and I want to do my favorite
52:37berries. I want to do the peanut butter
52:39on top.
52:40I'm doing the fiber one on top. This is
52:42the one you see me eat all the time. I
52:44have had the least amount of caffeine
52:46today that I've had in a very long time.
52:48I only made one caffeinated coffee and I
52:51didn't even finish it. Like this is
52:53genuinely guys, I'm not even kidding,
52:54this is crazy crazy update. Yogurt bowl
52:56is done. She looks a little chaotic
52:58because she is in the best way possible.
53:00Okay guys, update, it's midnight and I
53:03finished the vanity. It took like 3
53:06hours and I took my time. So honestly,
53:08I'm really proud of myself. But this is
53:11the final product. I'm really excited.
53:13I'm so excited to put it in my room. I'm
53:15not going to do that tonight. I'm going
53:17to call it good cuz I have to
53:19put together the little seat cuz there's
53:22like a matching seat that goes under it.
53:23So that's a tomorrow thing and I'm going
53:26to clean tomorrow too. So this is like
53:29an absolute explosion. I'm making a
53:31little midnight snack and by making I
53:34mean I'm cutting up a peach. Now you
53:35guys, I kind of hit I kind of like hit
53:37the flow state like putting that
53:39together. Like I was so locked in and it
53:42was kind of therapeutic. The only thing
53:44is that my I think I'm getting blisters
53:46on all over my right hand and my
53:48fingertips from twisting from the
53:51twisting motion. This peach is so good
53:53right now. And I have really bad news
53:54guys. I think I'm starting my period. I
53:57think I'm starting my period early which
53:59is not a good end but although the only
54:01good thing about it is that it might
54:02explain why I was just like low-key
54:04frantic this weekend. Like I was I don't
54:06know.
54:08Looks really good though. I'm really
54:09proud of myself. I'm going to make some
54:11tea before bed in the literal only
54:14somewhat clean portion of my entire
54:16apartment right now. I'm going to do
54:17this blood orange tea from Trader Joe's.
54:20It's like my favorite tea right now.
54:23It's so good. Oh my god. And I'm going
54:24to add a little sugar and then it's
54:27going to turn really pretty orange
54:29color. Look at the color now. Ooh. Okay,
54:32if you made it this far in the vlog,
54:34thank you for hanging out with me. The
54:35next time you'll see me in a vlog
54:37hopefully the the vanity situation is
54:40all set up and I can show you like the
54:42finished product and stuff but it still
54:45might take some tweaking to get it to
54:47what I want with limited space. It
54:50really living in New York makes you
54:52really creative with spaces. Either way,
54:54thank you for hanging out with me. Go
54:55get yourself a fun treat or fun little
54:57drinky and like always, thanks for
55:00hanging out. Love you. Bye.

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