عمرو حسن | طلاق حفل مكتبة الإسكندرية — Transcript

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1. 0:01I told her to speak. She said I loved.
2. 0:09I bet my life on him. Seeing him as my
3. 0:15everything. I loved. I bet my life on
4. 0:23him. Seeing him as my everything. I
5. 0:33used to. Tell those who opposed him. He
6. 0:37has sweet and kind traits. Still. They
7. 0:40would tell me. But you don't have to.
8. 0:44You deserve someone better than him. A
9. 0:48million times over. And if it occurred.
10. 0:50To you that we are being unfair to him.
11. 0:52Ask around. And learn his reputation.
12. 0:58I. Was foolish. I kept saying I knew
13. 1:05him better than they did. Even with his
14. 1:10anxiety, silence, and jealousy. Even
15. 1:11with his rigid nature, I saw through it
16. 1:13. Forget them. I loved him with his
17. 1:16flaws and accepted them. There was a
18. 1:20hidden, bright part only I could see.
19. 1:23And he would change if he met a home in
20. 1:25someone.
21. 1:26Yes, I loved him, I loved him. And the
22. 1:31mind has no say in love. He filled my
23. 1:35eyes in a strange way. I held his hand
24. 1:37and walked on. And I thought, we'll
25. 1:39straighten what's crooked over time. I
26. 1:42thought what's broken can be fixed with
27. 1:45love and tenderness. I used to take the
28. 1:48blame upon myself. I had my eyes set on
29. 1:52him. I had my life arranged to suit his
30. 1:56whims and his work. I was in a world
31. 2:01where he had no friends. I was the
32. 2:03sweet companionship left for him. But.
33. 2:08She said "but," then fell silent,
34. 2:11remembering something I didn't know. I
35. 2:13told her to speak. She said he didn't
36. 2:16appreciate. Anything I was doing. I
37. 2:21felt that as soon as I told him I loved
38. 2:24him, something changed. The moment I
39. 2:27embraced him, he turned into someone
40. 2:29else. His ways shifted from the first
41. 2:32to the second in no time. What I had
42. 2:36hidden from the world appeared.
43. 2:39Everything I tried to overlook became
44. 2:42visible in his nature. Even his eyes,
45. 2:48the eyes that were my light, became
46. 2:52harsh. Instead of being a crown upon
47. 2:56his head. He turned me into a ring on
48. 3:00his finger. No conversation happened
49. 3:02between us with warmth, nor did
50. 3:04laughter come easily. And I became
51. 3:07unable to reach him. Or return to how
52. 3:12things used to be. I started staying
53. 3:13silent and drifting off for hours. And
54. 3:15I lost track of my own interests. What
55. 3:19interests? My appearance changed, and
56. 3:27over time, exhaustion became my friend.
57. 3:31The people we lost, I can't find them,
58. 3:35I swear. I kept waiting for him to
59. 3:39praise me. I said if he smiled at me
60. 3:42and acknowledged me, I’d be quiet,
61. 3:44reassured, and forgive him. I said if
62. 3:49he smiled at me. Acknowledged me, I’d
63. 3:52be quiet, reassured, and forgive him. I
64. 3:54was searching for something small to
65. 3:56account for. But this is the sea, and
66. 3:58this is its end. And there is no such
67. 4:00thing as forced love. Besides, how
68. 4:04could the sea become a dry desert over
69. 4:06time? She went silent for a while, as
70. 4:09if she had drifted away. And I saw in
71. 4:12her eyes words held within that were
72. 4:14left unsaid. I told her to speak. She
73. 4:17said I hate. Being with fear. And death
74. 4:23is death, but I cannot accept being
75. 4:26with him. I was the last light in my
76. 4:28life, and I almost lost it. How could
77. 4:30my heart be so bleak and sad. What was
78. 4:36I fixing, and in whom now? If I were to
79. 4:40fix something, maybe 20 or 50, but he
80. 4:42is a person with nothing good to hold
81. 4:44onto. What is there left to fix? His
82. 4:48loud voice. His constant suspicion. And
83. 4:53his shouting. Whether sitting or
84. 4:55standing, his sullen face, his wasted
85. 4:58time. His ears that listen to the whole
86. 4:59world except for my words. Well, if I
87. 5:02fix his flaws, how will the life I
88. 5:06wasted return to me? My appearance that
89. 5:11changed, My heart That suffered. Who
90. 5:16will return my joyful heart to me? Or
91. 5:20who will dress my wounds with other
92. 5:21matters that fill my gaze. It was as if
93. 5:23I were talking to a tree struck by
94. 5:25autumn early in life. And the eyeliner
95. 5:30is coal curtains falling from an upper
96. 5:33mine. And her trembling hands accompany
97. 5:36widows. Afraid Of the cold of
98. 5:42loneliness and the sorrows of December.
99. 5:48She fell silent. I let her cry. Then
100. 5:54she calmed down. She drank some water
101. 5:58from the glass on the table. Her eyes
102. 6:00sparkled. Her lips smiled in a simple
103. 6:04way. And the wrinkles started to close
104. 6:06up. And her skin returned much smoother
105. 6:09. And the tears on her cheek began to
106. 6:11fade. My heart felt reassured. I said
107. 6:13surely there is something inside her.
108. 6:17And surely she remembered something
109. 6:19with him that might forgive him and
110. 6:20intercede for him. I said to her, "Tell
111. 6:23me." She said, "Even if you were the
112. 6:27last man on earth, I wouldn't go back
113. 6:29to you." Thank you.